1 Chapter 1 ~ Help me

Ugh, today in school I don't know what's wrong with me, my heart can't stop thumping and aching whenever I see my best friend LX talking to his desk mate Infront of him. It seriously pisses me off, not only that, he just keeps on turning back and ask him questions even though his friend was beside him like wtf?

I really don't know what's wrong with me, my heart felt as if it was about to burst and it hurts a lot. As a guy I really never felt these emotions before, it felt as if I was about to burst out in tears Infront of my class. Like as if I lost my pet dog or something. During the last period, all the emotions I had stored up in my imaginary jar just exploded, i asked if there was homework for the day and the entire class just whine and sigh and cursed at me after hearing what I said, it felt so good sabotaging my class. However the feeling after sabotaging my entire class felt so bad, I felt like crying in agony but I stopped myself. Right now I'm afraid that all of them will hate me for what I have done today...