6 He shouldn't meet me now

'Has Rose told him everything?Oh my god!Now how can I face him now?'She thought while making tea.As she started to the pour tea ,she heard some sound on the door of the kitchen.As she look ,Neil was standing there with a bright smile.Zola blushed.She wanted to run away.But as she started to go,Neil's hands pulled her to him.She started to tremble.Neil whispered to her ears,"Don't be shy.Rose has told me everything.I'll think about it."She stared him unbelievably.

'Think about it?Then why has he come?He should stay at home and think.Why he has to come?He shouldn't meet me now.May be he like me.otherwise he wouldn't come after knowing my confess.He would have avoid me.'She thought about him whole day.Not a single moment she could send him from her mind.

Like this day more days passed.Neil continuously coming her home to meet her but never confessed.She confused.After her confession he should say something.He should say yes or no.But she waited and waited ,but he never said anything about this matter.He came to meet her almost everyday,sit with her and talk.Zola was trying to get the reply .After three months she assumed that he didn't love her.But she couldn't keep herself away from him.On new year eve there was a party on her home.Her family invited some friends.Neil was also among them.After dinner everybody was busy in enjoying the party.Neil signalled her to come to a secluded corridor of her house.He was nervous.But she followed him.She didn't know why he called her.If he wanted to confess he had got so many chances.But he never confessed.But now he was calling her.She asked ,"What's the matter?Why have you called me?If somebody saw us here alone my mother wil scold me.Please tell m...."The last word she could not utter as he pulled her to his chest and put his lips on her.She scared at his action.She never kissed by anyone.Her first kiss has stolen by him!!

Zola couldn't utter a single word.Neil smiled at her and said,"Darling ,happy new year."

She couldn't saw met his eyes.An unknown shy covered her.'how can he kiss me without confessing his love.It is no good.Why he is doing this?If he loves me he surely confess.But he only showing me his action of love ,not by words.I cannot live without him.I love him .But why he doesn't love me?But ...If he doesn't love me than why he keep me near him?Why he showed his weakness?Why is he playing with my feelings.He has no right to do so.'

She couldn't understand him properly.All the time he keep staring at her and suddenly left her home.Zola could not say anything.She couldn't say anything if he is in front of her.Always she became mum.

That night she could not sleep for a single minute.She decided to ask him about his decision.Otherwise she would not let him play with her feelings.But what will she do if he rejects her love?But Neil took the initiative for their relationship.She loved him .

'I can never love anyone else other than him.I'll try to persue him.He kissed me .So I can never love other person.I can never kiss other person.I am his only.'

Two days later he again came to her home.She was excited.But she cannot speak anything.Neil called her to come near him.Zola was alone in her home as her mother was on office with her father as escort.She always had to escort her husband as he was a patient.Her sisters were also at neighbours place .Zola sat near Neil."Zola,I am sorry for that day.I could not control myself.I can not accept you.I have no any permanent job.You are very talented.You can go forward in your life.You would be suffer if you love or marry me."

Zola felt a lump in her throat."If you don't love me than why do you touch me?Nobody could touched me apart from you.If you can not accept me then why you keep me in contact?"Tears rolled on her face.She could not control her.