1 1. An End And A Start

"Hold your happiness and cherish it like world would end tomorrow." 

That is what my father told me when I was young. 

My name is Yoro. It's not kind of a nice name, but on the bright side, it's cool enough to be heard. I am an Asian guy with black hair but eastern features as blue eyes and white skin. And now I am seated in the first grade of high school.

My grade is great and my face can be called quite handsome for general preferences. Additionally, I have a beautiful girlfriend who has been dating me for quite sometime now. I am definitely not low on money and my future prospects are quite bright now.

So, a really perfect life indeed.

But that's all because I have a good person who positively influences my life until now. A person who made me so I can reach my place right now.

It's my father

My father is a handsome man with a diligent personality which makes him always put his heart into whatever he does. A typical loving father who everyone wants to have, caring and never making a fuss when you make a problem, supportive even at that. 

On the other hand, I hate him because of it.

At one time in my life, I had hope. 

"I want to be like him", I want to be someone who can make other people life better

Well, how foolish can a teen be?

Back then, my family was living in a decent condition. I have many friends who can always hang out with me. I have a mom that cares for me and loves me from the bottom of her heart and a father who acts as a figure to copy.

I was happy with my life at that time...

until...

"What is this?"

"It's Mr.Meiji's debt ma'am"

"....I-Impossible…"

I could hear such a conversation in the living room, who was now filled with 3 strangers in a  black suit.

The Mr.Meiji that he was talking about was my father, who had now been gone for about weeks without any news at all.

I think it all happened when he got home with black bags under his eyes, while grunting at literally everything he saw.

My mother did not comment nor she could do anything about it, for my father had refused to talk about it with her. While I, on the other side, could only eavesdrop the talk and thought it was just nothing but problems in his job.

Well it was the most possible case isn't it? But it also was not wrong as my father did in fact have some problem with his jobs, it just happened that the problem was bigger than me and my mother had initially thought.

And right at tomorrow, we lost contact with him.

He couldn't be contacted at all, and the bank account my mother had checked after days he didn't go home was emptied right at the date when he was gone.

That was where things went to the drain.

Some stranger started calling us, demanding that some money had to be paid immediately to some recs, but our mother didn't pay any heed to it, for she thought it was nothing but a prank.

But then that very stranger then came to our home, bringing news that our father had run away with a very big sum of money in his bag, whilst he couldn't be tracked at all.

It was like he had literally gone from this world.

After those strangers had finally gone after saying the debt must be paid in under 1 month, my mother's stress visibly increased.

She started breaking things, and she even lash at me sometimes. The mother I knew was no more, replaced by a short tempered woman who wished to die right at the next seconds of her life.

'Is there nothing I can do to fix this?' Were my thoughts at that time. But even I was't stupid enough to think that I can pay that sum of money easily by just working a part time job.

It will literally take more than years without eating and buying anything before I could buy it. But regardless, I still do what I can by taking as many jobs as possible while completely neglecting my school life.

But before I realized it, my mother then did a suicide after she did not have any hope left, which then making the debt to fell right into my laps. 

I couldn't even make a proper burial for her, and the deadline was getting closer very fast, and obviously, it was faster than getting a sum of money that exceeded dozens of Lamborghini's and Tesla's just in amount itself as a highschool student.

It's just passed in a blink of an eye.

"And here I am….watching the sunset as it fell down…."

In the horizon, I could see the orange hue getting darker and darker as the time passed, while in my back, I could see cars and so alike passing back and forth, placing myself between these two completely different things from one another.

"Ah….it's already 6:30pm….I used to be home already in times like these….but do I even have a home anymore?"

I said this because the house I used to live on, cars, clothes and all of them was sold to the debt collector, leaving myself with nothing but a piece of clothes to wear in the soon coming cold night.

"What am I going to do now….that things going this way?" 

I have literally no money left on me, and with the current condition, my school also wouldn't get me any good place any soon enough...maybe later, but definitely not now or anytime soon.

"Speaking of help, why my girlfriend didn't answer my call recently?"

It was not more than three days ago I told her about my father's debt that fell to me and she drastically started chatting and calling me lesser and lesser as time passed.

Until she did not even pick up my call any more.

"Ah...let's find some food first then"

I am not a naive person, and I know better than anyone that there was a high possibility that she had dumped me right now. So I tried my best to divert my mind from thoss disturbing thought by thinking about how to fill my stomach.

'Well...I just want a edible food, so maybe washing some restaurant dish as a payment maybe a plausible means'

With that idea in mind, I checked my outfit first, which doesn't look so bad now that I won't be kicked out immediately as soon as I come in the place.

And with that, I went to some unfamiliar restaurant I didn't know of.

I intentionally chose the restaurant I had not tried yet, hoping the chance to meet that girl will be lessened. There is no way I could face her now, that our relationship had gone into this phase.

But it became apparent that it's not only me that has that kind of idea.

As soon as I came in, my sight then started to swipe the whole place, but some second later if not outright instantly I did that, my eyes met with most person's who I wouldn't want to meet.

Destiny is a bitch, and now I can understand that phrase.

'Ah shit….I feel hungry no more'

It was the very second I lost all my appetite, and I instantly walked- or maybe ran away from such a sight, following where my instinct told me to go.

Time surely passed, and without me realizing it, the sky had completely turned dark and all kinds of lamps were presented in my vision.

Turns out, I was now on the side of the road, walking aimlessly in the cold night while looking for anything….anything that would help.

'Maybe I should die myself? Like my mother's to end her suffering and like my father's to escape his problem?'

And there, I arrived at the end of a zebra cross that was scarce of people except a pair of mother and her daughter.

"Mama! I drop the teddy in there."

"Hmm? Oh yeah, wait a second sweetheart."

Such a conversation was overheard by Yoro. With interest, he then raised his head and looked at them both, with the daughter persistently pulling the sleeve of her mother that too focused on her phone right now.

"Teddy!"

And seeing the car that stopped had moved once more, the girl cried at her toy that was almost being bulldozed over, but survived in the end for some reason.

Elated, she instantly ran to it, basically elated by the fact her toy was not broken and wanted to hurriedly retrieve it.

Bong bong!

And without paying any heed to the truck horn that was going at a high speed from her side, she then happily hugged the bear toy she had basically saved with her life as a price!

"Fuck"

Yoro knew he had to save her, for there is no one right now that was moving to save her already. It was also clear to him that his life now was useless, so he wanted to at least be useful in this last time of his life.

'Well to be honest, I just wanted to be reincarnated, that's all….'

And with that in mind, I pushed that girl out of the way and replaced her in the line, taking a full blown of the truck that instantly turned my vision black.

And there, the person that named Yoro was gone from the world.