31 Blank...

I truly hoped that the conversation would have ended there only.

Damon looked at me. It was for a second but I think his eyes were red with anger. And I assure you I am not speaking just metaphorically. The eyeballs they looked like orbs of ruby.

He averted his gaze.

Room became awfully silent. My brother, my savior of the eve, for the first time in history he did something good.

Let's toast, he said cheerfully.

But what should we toast to?, said my parents in unison.

Jace: Damon has finally settled down in a relationship. Let's toast to that.

Mrs. Petrova: Oh hoho... Who is the lucky girl? Show me her picture.

Damon passed the phone to me. Although I saw het earlier but I couldn't remember her face, so I looked at the picture before giving it away.

Holy shit, my mind screamed.

I showed the picture to my mom.

Mom: Isn't this?

Alexa: Yupp.. You're right. It is her.

Damon and Jace faces were in confusion now.

Mom laughed and said, Oh don't worry it is nothing serious. This is Donna isn't it?

They nodded.

Mom: She was the Alexa's Best friend, before high-school. Her house is also not very far from here.

Damon: Wooww.. This is an amazing surprise.

Things went back to normal and everyone had a cheery mood at the end.

It was already half past eleven. So Damon and Jace left after the dinner.

I went back to bed, put on my headphones and went to sleep. It was kind of a weird reaction of my consciousness. Whenever I felt sad, I tend to sleep more. I guess it was that way, so that I could escape from all the emotional torture and save my soul from being torn.

Now, to think of it. I didn't actually experience many emotions.

Once, younger brother of my friend got unconscious in school. Everyone got worried sick. But I was standing there, observing the situation and not feeling any kind of emotion. It was not that I hated them or something. I was neither feeling empathy, concern nor happiness like a sadist.

I was just blank.

I wonder, when God made me, did he actually forgot to put some emotions in me.

I normally feel happiness or anger. Except these two I don't think I have any other emotion.

Today I felt sad too but now come to think of it, I am not even feeling sad anymore.

When I close my eyes and peep into my soul, I see nothing. Everything is just blank.

Sometimes I wish I could see what's it's like to be the blood flowing in my veins. I wonder the insides of me are same as others.

I dream of a world where I am just a no one. Staying behind in shadows, observing everything and everyone.

Everyone thinks, Everything is either black or white, but they don't know there's so much hiding in the greys. This is their weakness.

If only I could melt into the shadows, dive deep not just in the shallows. If only I could rule without revealing my true face. If only...