2 A MISTAKE

I did not believe in love, I do not, and I would not. I wasn't the type to get all excited over cliché romantic moments. I'm not the type that would drop words as sweet as chocolate. I don't believe in lines such as "I love you to the moon and back". Until I met you.

"I was playing my own game, not knowing that you came. Not paying attention to any distraction. Afraid of what might happen, my barrier might be broken. Tantalizing eyes as deep as ocean, cherry colored lips, cheeks as red as apple. You were staring as if I was the only man in your world, I smiled"

When I saw you, my heart raced as if trying to jump out of me to go to you. I thought maybe my heart was just playing a game. I didn't knew it was already the real thing. I don't know why, at that moment, I only saw your smile.

"You make me feel special even though I'm not, you make me feel that I belong even though I don't. You helped me through the hard times; you pushed me harder so I can climb. You're the brightest star in my sky, always looking out for me when I try. If it weren't for you, I would be lost in a desert using all my strength for a last ditch effort. I would've never imagine what life would've been without you; life would probably be just an empty void. Life without you would be impossible"

Every single day, I was pierced by Cupid's arrow. Every single day, you give me all the care you have as if you were the most gentlemanly person in the world. Every single day, my little world slowly revolved around you. Every single day, you make me fall in love with you over again. Every single day, I love you.

I denied my feelings, no, this is wrong. These feelings are a mistake, confessing was not a choice. My feelings kept on hiding from you, afraid to be scarred, afraid to be hurt. But everyday, you torture me like there's no end, killing me a thousand times with your every smile.I got confident, I confessed

"Shocked by how twisted was the flow of our lives. Liking me was your mistake, my love for you was more than what you can take. You were too perfect for me, keeping you for myself was very selfish of me. Realizing that I was not meant for you was hard, I'm not worthy of your care"

I knew it, why did I have to chose such a perfect person to be mine? Why did I have to take the road with foot marks knowing that there was a hidden obstacle? I knew it was hard for me to have you, you proved me right. You walked away from me, all of Cupid's arrow were replaced by a thousand needles continuously stabbing my heart. As if trying to prove that I have no place in your heart, I was just a friend, nothing more nothing less.

"Trying my best to divert my attention, trying to forget my love. I played a new game I knew you wouldn't like. Still, placing my hopes on my determination; I can't. My heart can't help but look for you; my eyes can't help but follow your being"

I was hurt when I found you in her embrace as if she was the only woman in your world. I should have not confessed to you, I should have hidden my feelings well. Trying to pursue you would just break my heart, trying to hang on would just leave me hanging forever. Seeing you with her breaks my heart but seeing you cry without her makes me more heartbroken. I don't want to hurt you but I don't want to torture myself believing that I was the one for you.

A few days later, you made your way to me and held my hand while saying all the things I've been wanting to say to you. "Every single day, I was pierced by Cupid's arrow. Every single day, you give me all the care you have as if you were the most wonderful woman in the world. Every single day, my little world slowly revolved around you. Every single day, you make me fall in love with you over again. Every single day, I love you"

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