1 Child

I was born as a futile, cry baby and shy baby girl. It stil continue untill primary school. Most of my male classmates harrased and bullied me. They acted like I am trash, not only my schoolmate but also my neighboor. I feel like no one stand up for me. I used to cry every single day. No one tried to protect me including my parents. I was so sad and feeling lonely.

This experience gave huge impact and still lingering in my life. I really wish that a guardian angel will come and give me some warm and protection. But it is only in my dream. I have to fight and stand up for my self.

Ahh.. but there was someone that at least never harm me and comfort me when I was so sad. He was my first love, my neighboor. He is three years older than me. I dont know since when i began to love him. My feeling grow as the time goes by. He was my light, my sun shine, my motivation. My love still continue untill I was in senior high school.

Unfortunately, I never confess my love to him because I am not worth it for him. I am a tainted girl. I just a tomboy and ugly girl. I bet he never see me as an actractive girl and I know no one ever love me.

I will tell you some secret later.