Unexpressed love era

Once there was a person who made me believe that love is alive and I felt that he was the only who cares and loves like never and no one before like him and i also don't need any another one instead of him in every difficult situation he walked with me like never ending shadow and I'm living and willing to live much more years as I can no one knows when this unpredictable life will end and whenever I get panic he will be like everything is well ok in future years because we are together and in my there was like " we are for each other" I'm a part of you and be free with me and just put yourself and your untold feelings in front of me I'm not you but for you I'll try to understand everything before you explain. And you know what whenever I see you sad I feel helpless because you taught me to be strong enough for facing each tough days and that thing will be with me forever and also I want you to be happy lifelong doesn't matter we are together or not I'll be smiling if somewhere you are laughing I'm not selfishly wishing that you stay with me because I love you . I am wishing that may you stay with someone you love. From your side it was a friendship and you well performed your role but what about me my heart actually cheated with me and I cheated with you and I fell in love don't know how it happened slowly slowly and I was lost in you. You were always a better feeling of my heart and a best thinking of my mind and whenever I get sad I just close my eyes in peace and I do search for you and when I opened my eyes there was no one but There's a satisfaction atleast we will be friends forever and everytime there's a regret that I can't admit this felling in front of you my fellow and I hope I'll never speak up this if it will hurt you then absolutely never because when I'm hurt I feel like hell but when you are hurt I feel like I'm dead You will be always captured in my eyes as a best friend you will be always there in my mind as a director you will be always there in my heart as my heart when I already know that actually you will be not there then too you will be there as memories