7 my blessings ..

With dew and Sarah growing ,every day was like a new learning. Both of them had different nature with different tastes. Both were opposite of each other. Now with Andrew in my life, I have become more grateful to the divine. He is not only guiding me but he is always there for me making me realise that I am not alone. That evening Andrew came and we all had dinner at home like a proper family. Andrew paid equal attention to both Sarah and dew. And I realised that dew actually idolised him as the only male in his life. He had other bonding with him. He was talking to him about his friends, practice with ease. He never told me about his practice much. He asked Sarah about her teachers and subjects, they discussed trigonometry and physics. Sarah was very cool with him. She wasn't shy nor was she feeling awkward. I was very relaxed as I didn't have to make an effort. They had their own tuning. After dinner me and Andrew watched TV for some time and then he left but after kissing me on the lips for the first time. Next day Sarah told me that she is very happy for me that now I have someone to share everything. I told her I had them that I didn't need anyone but she explained me that they ll be there but she wanted me to move on. She told me that she had seen me struggling from her birth. She remembered how I used to juggle between their school,illness, home and that too with no extra money in hand. She had seen me crying alone at night. I didn't know sarah had observed so much but I was thankful that I took the decision of separation otherwise my children would ve suffered whole life. They are my hope, my joy and my blessing. They gave me the reason to live. They made me strong, wise and most importantly they taught me how to forgive. We need to forgive those people who hurted us just because we deserve our mental peace. Only a thought about them makes us so disturbed but if we forgive them it makes us more strong and more light. Forgiving doesn't mean that everything ll be back to normal but it helps us to move ahead in life. Learn from the past and never take any shit from anyone but don't take it to your mind. keep your mind sane for your loved ones as they need you .

Days passed and it became a habit of Andrew to have dinner with us. That day bailey called me that she was having a night out for kids at her home and she wanted dew and Sarah to join her and the kids. I told her that I would ask the kids. both of them talked to me and said yes. Before that day they had never slept outside home. I packed their bags with nightwears, toothbrushes and their necessities. Sarah wanted her books with her as she was more apprehensive. Dew wanted his favourite soft toy with him so that he can sleep without me. Me and Andrew dropped them at Bailey's house. Bailey and his husband invited me inside and as usual they were very welcoming and loving. After dropping children. Andrew for the first time took me to his home. I was amazed and felt little bad as it was a mansion and my house was just 2 bedroom with bath and kitchen. He showed me his house and when I told him my thoughts he assured me that it's an empty house. It's not a home,which I had made for my children. He hinted me that in the coming future he want me and the children to live with him as a family. He had a personal pool with a home theatre. Andrew told me that he had a housekeeper and a driver. He can cook so he doesn't have a chef. We made popcorns and decided to watch a movie as it was just 7 in the evening. We decided for a romantic one, and today we cuddled at the seats. We enjoyed a lot and that night he asked me if I would like to stay at his place as it ll be a change for me. He showed me his room, I freshned up and he gave me his pyjamas and t shirt as I didn't have my clothes with me. That night we cuddled in each others arms and I felt secured for the very first time. Each time he touches me it gives me a feeling of security and love. He always put my needs ahead. He listens to me like I am his world. He is always patient with the children. I realized that I trust him and love him a lot and with a smile I slept that night. Next morning Andrew woke me with breakfast in the bed. He had made toast,half fried eggs,with fresh croissant and coffee. It was the first time I was having breakfast in the bed. I realized it was a luxury and secondly that man can also cook. I asked Andrew how did he learn to cook. He told me when he was 11 his father used to beat his mother,and one time his mother had severe fractures. His mother didn't want to tell her family otherwise they would end that marriage so she taught him to cook so that he can cook for himself and his sister. I realized that this man always amazes with the way he handled everything. And the best thing he didn't carry that bitterness with him. He just left his past behind. After breakfast Andrew decided to have a bath and out of nowhere I told him that I would like to share that bath with him. His eyes lit up like a child. I knew he was taking baby steps just for me. He gave me some more clean clothes and then took me to bathroom. He lifted my t shirt off my head and then pulled my pyjamas . Then he opened my bra hook and lowered my panty. All this time his eyes was on my face, like he couldn't believe his eyes that I was there. His cubicle had ample space with spray jets at every angle. He lathered the soap and started rubbing it on my body. When his hands touched my private parts I felt a shiver in my body. He took his time to clean me and then it was my time. I scrubbed his body taking my time and when I touched his part he moaned out loudly . I played with it and then stood up. we took the shower and then dried ourselves. Andrew then took me home and we made lunch side by side. It was like we were used to this routine. After lunch we video called children- it was Andrew's idea. I saw that both of them were enjoying themselves which made me super happy. We decided to read something as we both had a passion of books. We both chose ourselves a different book and sat down at different side of sofa with legs entwined. We read for 4 hours at stretch and then I made coffee for both of us. We decided to pick up the children and had dinner with them at McDonald's. Children were telling us what did they do,they were talking simultaneously and that too no stop That night Andrew dropped me home and when I laid down I realised that I was smiling all by myself and I was missing him. I finally gathered the courage and messaged him that I was missing him.

He replied that he was missing us too.. He told me that he was feeling lonely all by himself and that he need us .

I smiled as he mentioned "us" like his family and not me only. We chatted till 1 and then we slept. In the morning children told me that bailey and his family regarded them as their own. Bailey bought a book for Sarah and a video game for dew. She also asked about their favourite and especially made that for them. They didn't feel lonely or that they were somewhere else. They loved every minute of it. After having a chat with both the children, I decided to thank bailey. So I phoned her and thanked her. She told me that both my children are very lovable and well behaved. She praised me that I have raised them very well. She also told me that Andrew had ttold her and their mother about our relationship and she is very happy for us. She told me that Andrew never had time for any relationship and he never paid attention to any girl. I was the first one in his life. She told me that everyone had already noticed that he is very relaxed and easy going around me which happens only when someone is in love with other person. I immediately blushed as I had feelings and only I knew about them. And I was slowly dealing with them but if his family had already noticed then it must be a big thing. She told me that she would really like me and both the children to be a part of their family. She had been eagerly waiting for a sister-in-law. I didn't ve any words so I just kept mum. But inside I felt like my walls were melting. From last so many years I was alone and I was so accustomed to deal with everything alone that I had built walls around me so that nobody could break me .. But Andrew and his family had showed that by love anything can be conquered.