Chapter 1

There was a time when I was just as happy as the people that I see on the streets. That was the time when I was so young and naïve and didn't know anything. After that I grew up and the only thing that I was filling my time with was work and studying. I liked my life like that. Although it was not perfect, for me it was a quiet and cozy life and I had all the happiness that I needed. That one that now I miss it.

Even if I didn't have my parents with me anymore, I still managed to be happy.

But, then, everything changed. My closed ones began to die or disappear, leaving me all alone. All this change happened after meeting him. He.... He was like nobody that I've meet until then, he truly was one of a kind. Little did I know that he would become the thing that will kill me later! He gave me the things that I was seeking. He gave me what I was craving for; even if that was so toxic that it made me almost lose my mind.

Before and even after meeting him I always asked myself one tiny question: - If I could turn back the time, to what moment of my life would I want to go?

Before we had our first fight?

Before meeting him?

Before losing my parents?

Or maybe even way back to the time that I was a little silly girl. Even now, on the brink of death, I don't have an answer for that. I don't know why, but I can't think of one. The thing that comes to my mind right now is that , maybe, I was too greedy to want to be happy while keeping beside me all the people that I love....even him.

All this things and so called adventures have their roots in that dirty business that I was too blind to notice or knew about it and for that I hate my naiveté the most. In the end all this won't matter in a couple of seconds anyway. What I know for sure is that if I had another chance to take my life from 0, I would accept it even if I would be forced to give my soul to the devil.