Grown up too fast

I watch her thinking, since when did my little sister have to be the one begging for me to make sure I stay healthy? I smile a little, then a surge of anger and hatred washes over me as I remember the incident that happened about 4 years ago. Why did he do that to us? What was he trying to tell me before his death? How could he take innocent lives with him? The rush leaves as soon as it came and I lie down to sleep, soon I'm out cold.