7 Blood and Soul Bonds

Today, I, Mireya will be telling my mom about my pregnancy. I would be going to my Bryant for answers to my unspoken questions.

I sat in the chair, mentally drained. I've been dealing with things in nonchalant way. Now in had to comfront issue before hand. Things would have to come together now or fall to the waste side. I honestly just want to settle issues.

But being here in this time and place was going to be drama fulled. Bella and Edward was and emotional rollcoaster all on there own. I would have to tell Bella about me too. She might not be able to handle it but I want to trust her super stable mental walls. That brain of hers has so many defenses that an atomic bomb couldn't shatter 1% of her resolution.

First, I would discuss things with my mom. Second, I would work on Bella and Mr. Charles. My mom needed back up and a shoulder to lean on. Mr. Charles was a tad boring but that was perfect for my mom. I honestly wanted to hook them up. My mom was a young. She is 35 years old. I'm 17 years old. She was already stable in a old lady kind of way. But she still had her hidden passion. My mom hasn't lost her groove, she just put it on the back shelf. Someone might have to pull it out for her and dust it off. Mr. Charles has his hidden passion. They were the spark to each others flame.

This was the day my mom would be off. She would be resting and trying to bond.

She had just fixed herself a cup of coffee. I waited. She was a grouch without her morning coffee. I sat at the table and waited for the satisfied, gentle, smile to rise on her soft face.

(Now) my mom just smiled.

"I need to talk with you mom."

She finished off her coffee. and sat the cup down with trembling hands. She closed her eyes and exhaled. Then she opened her eyes and responded, "I know."

I guess part of her was aware of something.

"Before we moved I found out I was pregnate."

she flinched. My mom's instincts were on point. I knew she knew at that moment.

"When did you find out?"

"The night you were about the kill him." She didn't want to say his name. She was going over all her mistakes. She was ashamed of a lot of things from the past. But she didn't shift the blame or make excuses. She was handling issues bit by bit. Coping with things. While trying to heal from the damage of terrible choices.

"What do you want to do?"

"After I was raped. I couldn't deal with life. I suffered from a lot of night terrors. My body was reacting to things that I never reacted too sexually. I was fustrated and ashamed of it. I didn't feel in control of me or my life. I needed a resolution."

The Mireya in my first life had hugged me in my dreams. The words that I did nothing wrong had presence in that moment. Excepting a tragic moment that I could change. The hug of me embracing myself. Loving me in moments of horror and shame. My older self, Miracle went to handle the thing with sex. I had enough memories in me of good sex to cope. I would know the difference because that would keep me from becoming hateful, scared, and bitter. Embracing some thing at a young age meant It would be the catalyst of changed. Even if you lived life time and had access to hundreds of thousands of memories there was a limiter on what I could access at my age. The limiter shattered when I was raped. It didn't stunt me. I didn't get stuck with denial or inability to move forward. It change me and propelled me forward. I would forever have a bad memory. That was a sword in my hands now. A blade to fight with and a cloak to hide myself.

I turned to my mom and I told her that I wanted to keep the baby and how I wanted to marry Bryant. How I was going to tell Bella about the past?

She said "I haven't been much of a mother. As a matter of fact, we've swapped roles enough for me to know that you know that you can handle it. I just don't want you to have regrets."

"I won't."

I curled up under my mom and we talked about more than we have talked about for a long time.

This one conversation laid everything bare.

Then there was a knock at the door. I let Edward, Bella, and Bryant in. My mom excused herself to let us teens have fun and study.

"Bella was complaining about the blood test."

I had to turn my head away from Bella because of the smirk. While Edward was outright laughing.

But I looked at Bryant. His eyes looked clear and patient. He was waiting. I got up and grabbed his hand to bring him with me. While Bella played with Edward. In the kitchen, I looked up at him. He kissed me and my knees gave out. He had smoothly put a ring on my finger. If I stopped to look I would recognize that ring from my second life.

I knew Bryant was telling me his answer with his body. I felt singed at the attention. I could feel myself wrap around him. This kiss was reminiscent of our first lifes first kiss. But a kiss that held lives worth of passionate love. A million kisses that was like the first. A billion needs and desire in a kiss. My eyes filled with need. My lips were swollen and as he pulled back from that kiss I bit my lip. He licked it with his tongue. And I lost my mind. I kissed with my body. A seductive moaned escape my lips and as he tried to swallow it. I didn't hear him break the counter. He claimed me like an alpha claiming his mate but treating me like a priceless fragile treasure.

I wouldn't know that we had an audience until my mom cleared her throat. My eyes still had the haze of desire in them. His head was in my neck.

Bella mouth a wordless "WOW!" she was fidgeting a bit. She might have wet her panties on that one. As she blushed and tugged Edward, they walked away and sat back onto the sofa. He nose flared in response. So he knew Bella reaction. My mom looked at the ring on my finger. She smiled softly. Bryant slowly let me down and straighten my clothes. I gigled at him his attention. I would be lying if i said I didn't love it.

Mom was happy for me. Shocked about our passion. But she patted his shoulder. She was very aware of my feelings and now she confirmed his with her own eyes. She had nothing to say about it. She just wanted to know if we were sure. But at the end my mom didn't even ask. Mireya and Bryant had already silently answered the question. My mom had already let me go in that way. She just wanted the best for me.

"Bryant your going to have to replace the counter"

"Yes ma'am." I snickered at him. He would tear the world apart in our passion. But I would be unscathed in the tatter. I had already experienced this in the second life. It wasn't new to me. But it fuelled my flames.

I went back to studying with Bella, Edward, and Bryant. I had to chill out. I sat next to Bella because sitting next to Bryant was a challenge to my self control.

Me and bella went to get some study material from my room. And i sat down on my bed.

"Bella, I've been wanting to talk with you."

"What's wrong?" Bella asked seriously

"I wanted to tell you my past. and my present situation. I consider you my best friend so i wanted you too know."

"Is it that bad? she asked

"It wasn't a walk in the park." i said jokingly.

then i rubbed my arms. Bella wasn't much for the mushy emotions. She was awkward that way. But she cared for her friend and family. She stood by her beliefs. Bella was stubborn that way.

"I was raped when i was 12. And before i moved I found out i was pregnate." I blurted out.

Bella paused as she went deep into thought. Emotions flutteres across her face like a swift illusion. I wouldn't have seen them if i wasn't paying attention to her reaction.

Then Bella said, "Here i am thinking about me being sad about moving from my mom. And my problems with Edward. ... I could've imagine what you've been threw."

Bella thoughts were,( I'm drowning in my own emotions and she gone threw so much but she manage to stay a float.) She was putting things in perspective. Things could be worst.

"I want to know how bad that situation was but I'm not ready."

"I'm just glad your not shying away from me."

"Good friend are to hard to find. Beside I handle things in my own way."

I hugged Bella. She was truly my best friend. We left the room empty handed but in her clumsy awkwardness she was strong in our friendship.

I would have to talk with Mr Charles but not today. I was happy about today threw all my remembrances of the past. I was grounded in the present. Surrounded by people who loved and cared for me. What else could I ask for? I rubbed my little belly. I'm sure I could ask for more. I'll figure it out.