6 Chapter 5: Lady In the Dark and the shard of the past

•Ryomei's POV•

I woke up with a head splitting headache, Information upon Informations, emotion upon emotions, I know and felt them all "Arghh!!!!" I screamed forcing myself to relieve the pain "Calm down child" a voice said, did I just hear a voice? "Arghhh!!!" I only felt relieve for a second before being attacked by headaches "Don't force it child, embrace it slowly" she said, "Arghh!!!!" the pain keeped on reverberating across me "Calm down, take it easy, embrace the pain slowly" she said, seeing that I have nothing to lose I slowly let the information enter my mind, but like a cup being filled by a pitcher the information overfilled causing it to spill ,in my situation it caused me to faint, moments later I woke up with a headache but a little bit better from the last time "Keep on doing what you did child" she said and I did it again.

And just like that time passed over and over again I wake up, feel pain then faint, until finally I was able to bare with it but it's still painful as hell "You did well child" said the voice "Thank you" I said "I did nothing but show you the way my child" she said "And because of that I was able to lessen the pain, atleast now I don't faint" I said "Hahaha ok child I can see you will still press on thanking me so your welcome" she said "Not to be rude but who are you? and why are you helping me?" I asked "I helped you cause I can feel the pain you felt and who am I is not important" she said "Where am I?" I finally asked, although I know that I'm in some kind of void I didn't know which one "You are in what humans call limbo" she said "Humans? are you not human?" I asked "I am not, I am of a race far greater than humans" she said "A race greater than humans?" I said "Yes but as I said who I am is not important to you" she answered "Ok can I atleast see you?" I asked "Not now but someday, now continue controlling your new found power I can see that you've grown new ones" she said "Thank you for the help" I said as I started to meditate

,closing my eyes again I fell in a deep trance.

As I opened my eyes I was in a room, it was narrow, but had enough space to fit in a small bed and a drawer, I was shocked when I realized where I was, then suddenly I heard a deep voice across the thin plywood wall "His useless why did I have a son like that" he said "Ga stop it can't you see his trying his best" said a motherly voice "Ma stop being lenient to him" he said "But Ga-" but before she can say something my guardian father cutted her "That's why his so useless and worthless and doesn't know a thing in the world" he said, unbeknownst to me tears feel from my eyes, I kept sobbing and started to talk to my pooh bear, but as I was talking I heard a feminine voice and an old voice "I pity him" said the feminine voice "Yeah me too can't he see how hurt he is" said the elderly woman "But it's auntie's fault why his like that" said the feminine voice, as I listened to their conversation I can't help but let the tear run down, this was the family that took care of me, than suddenly my guardian father forced open the door *baam* "Let's go will be late for church" he said with an angered tone "No! I don't want to" I said "I said we'll go!" he said angered "No!" I answered but as if it didn't registered to his mind he held my wrist and dragged me out of my room "I don't want to!" I cried as I hold on to the door frame of my room, "Arghh!!!!" I yelled as I felt the pain in my wrist and fingers but he continued to drag me "Stop!!! I don't want to go!" I said "No! you will go whether you like it or not!" he said "Ga stop I'll talk to him" she my mother said "Fine! but make sure he comes" he said as he prepared our motorcycle "Be let's go" she said "But I don't want to ma" I said "Now, now let's go" said as I followed her, looking back the scene faded into a street I can hear our neighbors gossip about me

Neighbor 1: Hey isn't that Ryomei

Neighbor 2: Yeah I heard he was smart but he got to addicted to his phone

Neighbor 1: Yeah, such a let down his future could've been bright

Looking back at them the scene faded into me being in my sit in a sleeping position "Bad breath" "Avatar" "Rabbit" and many more, demeaning names, hurtful words I heard it all, no friends, no shoulder to cry on, no one who listens, then the scene faded into me holding a knife "Maybe I should just end it" I said "But if I end it they will be sad" I contradicted myself "But will they even miss me" "But I don't even know how to do it right and I only got one chance" "No I won't end it here, not now" I said, the scene faded again into me talking to my mother "Mom I can't take it anymore" I said "I know you'll leave me one day" she said, feeling guilty I said "But mom I-" but she cutted me "It's ok I understand you wanted to be free then go forget our special song" she said then everything turns into darkness.

"Why?" it said "What do you mean why?" I asked "Why are you trying to forget us" it said "What do you mean?" I said "You tried to forget us!!!" I yelled as the darkness shook "What do you mean?!" I asked, then a person materialized in front of me, he looked like the past me but has a broken mirror like things across his body, chains around him and tears in his eyes "Me!" he said as he pointed himself "Why are you trying to forget me!" he cried "But I didn't-" I said "No you are! you tried to forget everything the world has done to you! to us! all the pain we felt, the wrongness we felt, the sadness, you tried to forget it all! you keep acting calm and collected, you keep on smiling, that was the reason nobody believed us! nobody saw us in pain! because of the facade you put on, yet when we showed them you ran away like a coward! you never accepted the fact you were sad, you never fixed what was broken, all you did was do the same mistake and drown yourself in self-pity!" he yelled at me every word causing the darkness to shake "But I didn't, I didn't forget you" I said "Then why, why are you pushing me away again! your negative emotions, you hadn't change at all! the fear that you can't escape this place, the fear of the people you loved leaving you, all your fears! why are you avoiding them" he said cracking the darkness "I didn't, I trust myself, I trust us to break free from this place, I trust my family to continue loving me, to stay" I said "And what leave us again like the past" he said "No, I know things will change, time will pass, we may feel left out, things can go wrong but let's not forget things can change for the better, so let's just continue ok, let's not let things bring us down as long as we are fighting we will eventually find our happiness" I said and smiled, he fell to his knees and cried "I-I am scared, I'm scared of things going wrong again, I'm scared that the past will repeat itself, I'm scared" "It's ok to be scared, I know the world can be scary sometimes but we can't let the past control our present, we can't change it but we can learn from it, so don't be scared" I said as I hugged him, he smiled at me and said "Thanks me" and fade away and soon I opened my eyes