1 My past

"Where am I? "I said when I found myself in a strangely familiar place.

"What are these lights? "I said upon seeing the lights of countless colors, they split the dark purple lights in two and the lights of various colors resembling an aurora.

Since the beginning of time I have always been alone, although I didn't care much at that time I had no one to trust. Also in my first experience meeting someone, that someone tried to devour my soul.

So it was most of my life fighting against divine beasts for almost 1 million years, possibly I would have ended this war in less time if I wasn't so compassionate.

Many things happened that led me to want to experience life asa human on a planet called earth. These self-measuring human creatures were very interesting although they often create wars for stupid reasons, watching them for several years made me want to have what they call a family.

That would be a short explanation of my life and that's what brings us to this moment.

Currently I am a ball of light shining in multiple colors.

"I should go to that place or I should just rest here"

So I spent a few hours thinking about what to do. I had the option of going to fix a problem that causes, but that involved saving people, which I wouldn't have cared about long ago but now I'm not sure it's right to do that.

"I will go to that place and try to find some solution in my own way and I will also create a physical body"

I am a being that was born long ago by the great concentration of {CHAOS } and {PRIMORDIAL CHAOS } on one point. There were several reasons that led me to decide to seal my soul and my memories into a stillborn baby.

By sealing my memories I grew up as a normal baby, by my fifth birthday I understood the value of money and stopped asking for things that a normal child would ask of their parents.

When I was 10, I stopped caring about my life because I found it boring. If it weren't for my family being sad if I died, I wouldn't mind dying.

At the age of 12, I became interested in anime at the recommendation of a friend, then began reading mangoes, manhuas, and mangoes.

When I was 15, I started reading novels, I stopped watching anime even though I still saw some anime that were directly animated from novels or manga.

When I was 17, I went to college.

At 18 when I came home, I found two men stealing from a woman, at which point I didn't care because they were just stealing, but those men weren't happy just stealing from her and trying to rape her, and when I saw the woman's face, I realized she was one of the few friends I had in high school and the one who told me about the animaes. Realizing it was her, I moved quickly and hit one of them with the backpack I was carrying at the time, then tried to hit the other in the same way, but he reacted too quickly and he pulled a knife out of his pocket and stabbed him in my heart. So I died on June 15, 2019.

"Because I tried to save her with how weak she was at the time? I see, though I didn't understand all the mortal emotions, "I said as I understood why I tried to save her by being so weak.

The reason I decided to live as a human is that when I saw them being happy, sad, angry, etc., I didn't understand why they were happy to achieve things that are considered easy for me, also because they were sad when one of their loved ones died. I wanted to feel those emotions so I decided to become human.

"Well, at least I got my goal, but in addition to them, I also understood their values, and I also feel very bad about what I did in the past."

In the past, when I was just born, several beings like me were born, but they were all not smart and they were just as strong as me, but they were born without the control of a law, which led them to attack me instinctively because I was the only one with control of all the laws, then I killed them all and it was very easy because even though they were as strong as me, not one of them had control of the laws.

By killing them, I knew they'd be born again in the future.

So I decided to understand all the laws I was born with.

After millions of years I managed to evolve the laws of {CHAOS } and {PRIMORDIAL CHAOS } to [DESTRUCTIVO ] and [CREATION ].

I waited millions of years for them to be born again, and I planned to destroy it with destruction, because with it I could erase them so that they would never be born again, but in the end I decided to store all their energy and throw it into another dimension for a new universe to be born.

To see that the new beings born from the new universe were not like the ones I killed, I decided to see the future of the whole new universe that had countless different dimensions. When I saw the future, I saw that most beings born had intelligence and some could control some laws but not on the same level as me, but there were three beings I couldn't see their future from, so I decided to keep them asleep because I was too tired to deal with them. This is why I feel bad today, I didn't realize that these intelligent beings would be worse than the beasts I faced in the past.

After what happened, I decided to see the new beings that lived in my home universe. Travel all over the planets and most were in ruins and on most intact planets there was only simple life like plants and animals that I didn't find interesting.

After searching for a long time for life I came to a blue planet where I found the living things known as humans.

I've been watching them for a long time and I found them very interesting, especially what they called emotions. So I decided to seal my memories and be a human, but first I decided to make a home because humans also had one. And then I realized that the human body couldn't stand my soul force, so I decided to build my home with all my strength and all my understanding of the law. At the end it was the first time I was trying so hard on something other than understanding the laws and for the first time I felt happy, it was a strange feeling but I felt very good. Name my house Eden though it is as big asa small world.

Before I became human, I decided to throw away memories of the future of all dimensions because they didn't seem important to me because they weren't necessary to me. Besides, if I went into that dimension, those three beings would wake up and I'm tired of being attacked. I finally decide to give these memories to humans in the form of dreams and that's how anime, manga, novels, etc. And then I thought of some way to become human and decided to take the body of a stillborn baby and seal my strength from the soul and my memories into it.

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