19 Crazy Sister and a Broken Lover(part 11 )

Talk with otome

after cooking some nutritious dishes , i just waited for her waking up

otome finally woke up and she was confused when she saw herself in her bed , she was waiting for kazuki and wanted to tell him everything after receiving all those cds and letters , moreover she could not believe rinka had done that knowingly , she acted so victimized , otome had thought of finding her a way out but instead they had forced her everyday ,she felt so broken , and then kazuki started ignoring her too , all she wanted was to run away so she started finding it in sex and then she even got pregnant willingly

everything had gone that way but suddenly one day she heard from her mom that kazuki had come and left her a package , at first she thought it may be something she had asked him but probably dont remember but she was shocked by its contents , it contained all the thing she have given him since childhood , since they become friends , toys , bands , even things one might throw away with time , kazuki had kept them in perfect condition , even the doll she gave him as a promise of there marriage and there were lots of cds

when she checked contents of cd , she was stunned and morever there was a letter explaining what had happened , how rinka was raped and broken and how she had felt jealous of her and otome , how she had tricked her and how much kazuki regretted not speaking up , he felt so much pain seeing her that he ended up ignoring her and then he when found out she was pregnant , he could not take it anymore , he had decided to leave home and also told her that she should forgive him for being a loser and a coward if she could

after reading that, otome cried whole night , next day when she saw rinka , the only thing in her mind was anger and how she had given so much for her and yet she had done this to her and she went on and slapped rinka in public and ignoring her

and when she heard call from those old men , first thing she did was threaten them to go to police and for all the recording she had of them blackmailing her and she had not wanting to do anything with them anymore

she was threatened but she didnt back down , all she was felt pain thinking of kazuki whom she had not even heard from that day

and then she had finally decided to get abortion but after that she felt weak , still she wanted to see kazuki so she had somehow dragged her to location of way of school but when she met her , she only saw his cold gaze and wanted to tell him something but somehow passed out .

and now she had waken up , she is in her room feeling all sad and thinking its a nightmare

" hey you are awake finally " kazuki said looking at otome

" cmon sit down , i cooked some nutritious food for you , since you had gone through that , you need recovery " i said giving her the food

but instead of eating she starting crying " kazuki "

saying my name like that , i feel i am the bad guy here

" yes what is it , speak now , sign who told you to come even after you had the abortion , i was really worried back then when you passed out "

she kept on crying " i wanted to see you , i was afraid , i was really afraid of you really leaving like you said , i couldn't reach you , i could not see you , i though i thought i lost you "

" why do you want to see me , you should feel disgusted with me , my sister made you lose your virginity and get raped by bunch of old men , if you weren't associated with me , would she ever target you , sigh now i really regret back then saying we would be your friends , if i knew my sister will turn out this way , i would have just ignored you that day when we met and let you save from this harsh thing " i said that but it was all the thing from the past soul feelings and thoughts

otome started crying more " noooo , dont say that , i was happy when you said you will be my friend but but " she started even crying more badly

sign i know , it must be hard for her going through all that herself , i just keep thinking of myself but she have suffered too

" hey otome , when i say the first cd of you losing viriginity and getting raped , i was broken , i felt sad , i asked how can you do that , i could not even face you , i saw your tears yet i could not bring myself to ask you why , all i could do was hide and cry " i said with all the emotions i had , it was sad , painful , heart breaking

" i wanted to tell you too , i came to saw you that day but i couldn't , i was afraid " otome said

" but then those cds kept coming of you , i started breaking up inside , something in me changed , whenever i saw you i couldn't even bring myself to speak so ignored you and cried alone , i was just a loser thats it , i thought of many things ,why , why would you do this but i couldnt think of anything , after a certain period , i could not even see the cds they sent , i will just cry and think its a bad dream "

otome thinking of it started crying " i was broken, when you started ignoring me , i was more broken , i wished you comforted me , told me but you gave me cold shoulder and i had to do that those disgusting things , i couldnt do anything , and hen i thought maybe its fine , i started breaking up inside too "

i looked at tears and i sighed with pity " but then one day i followed rinka and i found out the truth , she forced me that night to sleep with her , and told me everything , she told me you were pregnant , i was breaking apart , i wished for death , of all the reason it was rinka who did that to you , who acted all victimized and took advantage you and i knew you did it because she was my sister , because of me , if i hadn't made you my friend that day , it would have never happen , i started hating myself , i wanted to die , thats why i could not take it anymore , i packed at left and than i gave those cd and letter to you to make you realize there is no need to do that anymore , that i dont deserve you , there is no need to care about me and that i am a loser who kept quiet even knowing all of it and i dont deserve you " while i saying that tears were falling from my eyes

keeping all these thoughts and emotions is really no good , one should say when one feel like that instead of keeping it all inside , or else it will be too late

i put down on my knees and bend down " sakuragi otome , i had wronged you and made you do things that i cannot atone for , i shall live with this regret for rest of my life , please i hope you will just forget me and live a better life from now on "

after that as i stood up , i saw otome struggling to get up i went ahead and helped her " hey why are you standing , you should rest up , please "

but when i was helping her , she just cling to me and hugged me crying " no dont say that , dont leave me , did you forget our promise of making me your bride , do you not care about me anymore now that i am dirty and not a virgin anymore , please dont , i even got an abortion so i could face you " she said that and kept crying

honestly i wanted to walk away but those feeling were real and words were real , this women is kind and good and she even went as far for just little sister of this body previous owner and kept getting raped over it , if i could blame anyone then its this cruel world , this world is just too dark , there is noone to blame

as i thought i just hugged back " okay , i am not leaving you and i dont care if you are not virgin too , i just regret and feel heartbroken knowing you did that for my sister sake and thats what you got in the end , i would probably do anything you want me to do in order to make up for it but i am afraid you will be sad and hurt being with me , that you will regret it "

she just hugged back and said " stupid , i love you , i love you , i wont ever regret being with you , even when those people defiled me , i was thinking of you , i wanted it to be you , i felt so much pain thinking it was not you who did to me first time and other time , i wanted it to be you " as she said that her tears are falling like raindrops

" sigh , i am really sorry ": i said and then i went ahead and kissed her

after a small kiss , i laid her down on bed and somehow she feel asleep after that kiss

life really cant be underestimated , i keep thinking i would just walk away but i could not , knwing i had done that to her and now its similar to me running away like previous body owner

after that i went to her pc and saw it was connected to internet , i checked it and it was true she had all these recordings and proof of them blackmailing and forcing her in exchange of letting rinka go