TRACES: OF MY PAST

I am Erica Smith or you can call me Jessica. She was my identical twin.Even if I live her life I still miss her.Because she died in my place.I think that I needed some time and I think that is the reason I agreed for living her life. I was Jessica for the outer world but only my brother, my cousin and one of our mutual friend knew my true identity. I was ready to take revenge on them who killed my parents and my....my sister after that. I had never expected that she made such life decisions that cannot be reversed. If only that day she hadn't been in my place then she would have lived her life. And I still believe that she is alive somewhere because when she slipped down from the bridge i don't think she would have died because even though she didn't participate in games but she was an excellent swimmer. One thing was for sure that she was alive and that is the excuse I have been telling myself from the past 2 months. Yes, I was the Mafia Queen. And I think it was partially my fault that she lost her life. The faceless MAFIA QUEEN . I only had my sister and my elder brother after our parents' death. We always thought that it was an unfortunate accident. Where my brother was lucky enough that mom succeeded in protecting him. But he was traumatized that he didn't speak to anyone after waking up.He woke up after 12 days.When he accepted the fact that our parents were dead, 8 years had already passed.At that time he told us the truth. What he saw on the night of the accident before fainting due to the car flip.

Back then he was only 12 and we were 8. It was the 16th of October. We were enjoying our holidays at granny's house but he was with mom and dad. He still remembers that day clearly. He started having nightmares about that night. He was so scared back then. That was the day our lives scattered into pieces. We grew up together.But after our parents' death I felt so lonely that I stopped talking to anyone. He also didn't spoke to anyone and between all this there was Jessica who was left all alone but she still grew up very well. She was such a innocent soul. She was a total opposite of my personality. She was so caring,kind,sweet,sensitive and she was so calm and she would believe anyone easily she was a little clumsy but lovely. Whereas I was such a bold,tough,independent,cold to others.I was clever and I was a good observer and a quick catcher. I was good at studies and so was she.But she would not participate in anything other than studies and I did everything I enjoyed. I loved playing games.

It was her mistake back then because she would trust anyone easily that once she fell in love with a guy who was sent to spy on me because our enemies got a clue that I was the Mafia Queen and they thought that Jessica must know something but I never told her anything about my being the Mafia Queen. I always kept her away from such things.And after that they tried to kidnap her but i went in her place and they were that much of a fool that they could not differentiate between me and her. And that became their biggest mistake before dying by my hands.And I told her that he was cheating on her. After that she was so heartbroken but she controlled herself well.She was sometimes childish but she was mature at sometimes.When times were hard for us she was the one who would give strength to everyone.Even in high school she was called the ANGEL WHO LANDED FROM HEAVEN. And some bitches were jealous of her and bullied her because everyone praised her. She would always help everyone even her bullies but when I came to know about this they all stopped after getting a proper beating from me. After that they didn't dare to touch her.We were not in the same schools because people would get confused even our friends and teachers. So we studied in different schools until I decided to go to the same High school as her and she was happy to hear that. Because that was the time I decided to train myself to become the Mafia Queen without her knowing.