1 A Very Demanding Death Wish

The last thing I remember is ... Hm, funny that I can't remember. On my birthday I always made a wish and it was always a death wish, but it was a very demanding death wish, I always wished to die, but not just to die, but to disappear completely from life. Everything I've ever done or would ever do, all actions and consequences will be erased. I don't deserve a family, I still think that now and always will. That's why I always wished for them to have a life without me, without knowing me, without having to endure a pain like me, I bet their lives would have been much nicer without me. When I took my last breath, I don't remember what I saw, I only remember the wish I made, that every money I spent, every happiness I felt would come back to them and every pain I caused wouldn't only heal them but undo them, that's what I wished for, I knew I was dying but I don't know if my very demanding death wish will be granted or not. I hope so, but why am I alive if it was?

"You aren't alive in this world, you're at the epicentre"

"Hmm"

"Aren't you going to ask about me or where I'm or something..."

"I don't care."

"Oh...it's not like I haven't heard this before, but it's the first time anyone's ever started or rather had a conversation like this."

"Can't you read minds?"

"But you're not thinking anything."

"From what I have heard, I do not seem to be your first guest, or whatever you want to call me, so that means they all had the same questions, shouldn't you introduce yourself by answering all that, like who you are and what this place is, before I ask you."

"Who do you think I am?"

"I do not care."

"Oh come on, at least try"

"Nope"

"Please"

"Hmm are... You... God..."

"Oh yeah, let us just say I am a god and as a..."

"Hey, time out!"

"What?!"

"It looks like you are just trying to avoid an explanation of who you are"

"Yeah, most people think I am a god, truth, devil and all that, so I do not have to explain, it makes it easier."

"How do you respond to who are you?"

"I tell them to guess who I am and based on that I always say yes, I am God, devil, Jesus and all that and no one asks any more questions about my identity and asks about their situation or the world or the truth of life or whatever, like you who did not ask any questions at all about your situation."

"All right, explain my situation to me."

"I fulfilled your very demanding death wish and erased your existence from your world when you died, but to avoid the paradox of your soul, we must send you to a fantasy world of your choosing."

"We?"

"You are really demanding, most people would say oh I want to go here, but you came out of nowhere and we"

"Answer"

"There are BILLIONS of deaths in a single day, including the souls of Uborn, even if only a quarter of them get a unique wish like yours granted, that's still a lot."

"Do you read thoughts in their lives all the time?"

"Of course, not all gods or whatever you want to call us can read minds and we can read them if we want to, but the 3 most important wishes of a human are always heard by one of the gods or whatever..."

"I see"

"....."

"I got that about the gods, just call yourself a god, I don't mind, go ahead."

"Haaa... Like I said, there are 3 main wishes, the first wish, the constant wish and the last wish or the final wish, you're the first one where all 3 wishes are the same. I'll give you 2 wishes except that I told you about another world of reincarnation in another world or that you can be reborn or that you can reverse time"

"The first, reincarnation into another world"

"Most people..."

I'm not most people, haven't you learned God?"

"May I ask why and of course what I mean, why not reverse time, I can understand reincarnation, if you exist so much"

"You don't understand, I've often thought about reversing time, but I've never wasted my desire on it, because it's not just existence I hate, maybe it's the whole world I hate, it's as simple as that."

"Maybe?"

"Just fulfil the wish."

"You haven't decided"

"I've"

"The world"

"I don't know, just send me to another world that I hate"

"Hm"

"Even in fantasy there are no worlds I love, I hated my world the most because knowing my world doesn't change it, but if I know the other world is different I can get confused and I can avoid both, which I can never do in my world no matter how many times I rewind time."

"I wish I could have seen your life before I snuffed it out so I could understand you, I want to understand you"

"Ironic that a god would want a wish from a man."

"Yes ironic indeed, well I send you and reincarnate you randomly into a fantasy world you hate, for the first time I couldn't understand someone even though you weren't hiding anything at all, I wish in the next life you get what you want so I can understand you and your feelings better."

And so my very demanding death wish was granted as I stood in front of a high school advertisement sign written in Japanese that I can read. I started walking, but as soon as I did, I saw a pretty cute girl and my heart suddenly skipped a beat, what the hell? Why do I feel... She saw me ah I should go to school as soon as possible and suddenly open the bag I was holding and when I did, I saw the name in the notebooks written as 高須 竜児, Takasu Ryūji, that's what it means. Wait a minute, I heard it, I guest, don't tell me that my very demanding death wish led me here, don't tell me.