1 To be touched, to be loved, to feel anything at all {YoonJin}

istg, Yoongi could step on me and i'd be thankful

'I just nicely leave this for y'all: 0:25

You're welcome c:'

'he ready to sleep in my bed'

'two words: phat ass'

'wait, he's not wearing—'

'y'all are really weird…'

'that looks huuuge O.O'

'do not look down challenge: FAILED'

'I'd be his bitch for free, and I'd be ha-'

"What are you up to?" Yoongi quickly closes the YouTube app on his phone as he turns his head to look at Seokjin. He's sitting on the couch, and he was so occupied he didn't notice when his hyung sat down next to him.

The elder's scanning his face, his eyes glancing at the phone in his hands for a second before he looks back at him again. "Reading comments?" He adds with a small smile.

"Maybe…" Yoongi trails off, feeling that his cheeks are burning.

"What did they write?" Jin's question is genuine, it makes him feel even more embarrassed to tell the truth.

"Just the usual stuff." He replies, relieved that he's not stuttering.

"Then why are you so red?" Jin asks, his smile turns to a mischievous one, his eyes start sparkling with joy.

"I've read a compliment about myself." Yoongi tries, and he isn't completely lying, the comments are praising him…

...even if they do it in a kind of weird way.

"Ooh, I see!" Jin says, and Yoongi can sense that he wants to bicker with him more, but maybe there's something in his face and eyes that stops Jin from doing it at the end. "Well, you're a good dancer and an even better rapper, of course they're gonna praise your skills." Jin gently pats his shoulder before he stands up from the couch, and after a kind smile he leaves him alone.

Yoongi's glad for it, because after his only hyung's compliments, he's even redder than a few moments earlier.

He glances at the phone in his hand, remembering the things the fans wrote about him and his… body part. Yes, he knows that their fanbase isn't just fifteen years old teenage girls, but he didn't expect these… lustful and horny comments.

Well, to be honest, he should have expected this response. The whole song they performed is about the pain of addictive love and temptation. They had to make choreography which fits the lyrics.

And Yoongi hates it. He hates dancing it because it's too sexual, and it was hard for him to learn it, and show that passion and lust with his movements, not to mention his facial expressions. When he asked Hoseok how he does it, what he's thinking about when they perform this song, he replied with "I just… think about those times when I'm with someone… y'know..."

Yoongi needed a few seconds to really understand what the latter was talking about, and he's sure he was blushing, so he quickly mumbled an "Okay, thanks." and left.

He didn't have the guts to admit that he has zero experience in this field. Yes, he mentioned his 'tongue technology' in one of his songs in his mixtape, but he used it because it fitted in the lyrics.

He really hopes that no one will find out this secret of his.

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"You're still awake?" Jin asks Yoongi when he steps into their shared room. The younger is laying in his bed, scrolling on his phone with a frown.

"Would you like to go to sleep?" Yoongi glances up from his phone. Jin can't help but smile; Yoongi really is a good roommate. To their own surprise, they get along pretty well. They spent more than one night talking about what was on their minds, fears, expectations, wishes… they always listened to one another, giving advice whenever needed.

"If you don't mind." Jin replies and walks towards his bed, climbing under the sheets.

"Nope." Jin hears Yoongi, and a moment later he turns off the lamp next to his bed.

For a few minutes, only their breathing can be heard with a little bit of squirming, Jin guesses that Yoongi is squirming under the sheets. He almost falls asleep when Yoongi calls him.

"Hyung?" His voice is only a whisper, but Jin can sense that he wants to ask or talk about something that is important for him.

"Hm?" Jin turns over to look at Yoongi's direction.

"Do… do you read the comments under our videos?" Jin frowns at the question, this isn't what he expected.

"Not that often now than I used to be, but yes, I do."

"And… Do you read them under your fancams too? You know, the ones where the camera only follows you." Jin finds it cute how Yoongi described it.

"Mhm, sometimes."

"Did you ever get… uh…" Jin's frown deepens; it's pretty unusual that Yoongi becomes shy when they're talking privately.

"If you're asking if I get compliments about my handsome face, then my answer is yes, I do. Quite a lot, actually." The effect is immediate, Jin hears a grunt from the other side of the room, and he can't help but chuckle a bit.

"You're the worst, hyung." Yoongi says and takes a deep breath. "But no, I'm not asking this. It's about…" He trails off again, making Jin more curious.

"Yoongi-yah, you know you can ask or tell me anything. I promise I won't laugh at you or make fun of you." Jin tries to reassure his dongsaeng.

"I know, hyung, but… gosh, this is so embarrassing!" Yoongi says with another grunt, and Jin starts to get a hint of what the latter wants to talk about. A flashback comes into his mind when they were on the couch, and he asked Yoongi about what kind of comments he read. Yoongi blushed and mumbled something that he read a compliment about himself. Jin thought then that Yoongi read something about how good he's dancing or how well he's rapping.

But now, as he's listening to how the latter is stuttering and all, another option comes into his mind.

Oh.

"Yoongi?" Jin speaks up, and after he hears a hum from him, he continues. "Did you get thirsty comments under your fancam?"

The silence is long, and Jin wants to break it, but Yoongi prevents him.

"...Yes."

Jin doesn't really know what he should say after this. He wants to know more details, but he's scared that Yoongi would see it like he's trying to make fun of him.

"Do you get these too?" Yoongi asks after a while.

"Well, I've read a few…" Jin replies, and he feels that his cheeks start burning. He remembers how he reacted when he saw them for the first time. It was pretty similar to how Yoongi is acting at the moment.

"How can they write things like that? It's so weird!" Yoongi pulls him out with his statement, and Jin sort of agrees with him. They sometimes do things to tease their audience, but this kind of reaction - the thirst comments - is a bit too much for his taste.

"I feel so awkward when I read about how they wish they could have sex with me." Yoongi continues his rant, and the elder knows it's better to just listen to him. "They make it seem like I'm an expert when in reality it's the opposite!"

Yoongi stays quiet for a short while, not knowing about the effect his words have on his hyung, then, to make Jin even more shocked, he adds, "Like, I've never gone further than kissing someone else, for fuck's sake!"

Jin tries to comprehend everything he heard, the meaning of it hits him like a truck. Yoongi… Yoongi is a virgin?

Maybe Yoongi already realized what he just said, as Jin hears him whispering, "Please don't tell this to anyone, hyungie."

"Why would I do that?" Jin asks, and although he knows Yoongi doesn't see him, he still pouts.

"I don't know? To tease me?" Yoongi takes a deep breath, trying to calm down himself. "Sorry, hyung, I know you wouldn't tell it to anyone, I'm just- it's so embarrassing!"

To ease the mood, Jin says what comes into his mind, not even thinking about the consequences. "Well, if you feel like that, I could help you out to change that."

A few seconds later Jin realizes what he just offered, and he wants to slap himself. His face and ears are burning, and now he's glad that Yoongi doesn't see him.

"What?" It's obvious that Yoongi is in shock, Jin clearly hears that in his voice. He's not sure what to do now. Saying it was just a bad joke, or stick to what he said, and wait for Yoongi's answer.

As Jin still doesn't know what choice he should make, he waits.

"...hyung? Are you serious?" Yoongi's voice is uncertain, but Jin is a bit relieved that he even got some kind of reply.

"Do you want me to?" Jin feels that he became sweaty, his heartbeat quickens, his breath catches in his throat.

Yoongi doesn't know how he should answer that. Jin is his only hyung who he adores and looks up to. He admits that he's handsome, because fuck, he's not blind, and they've seen each other naked more than once, so Yoongi's aware of his… remarkable size too.

But Jin is still his hyung, and they are still idols, a part of a seven-membered group which limits their personal lives to that point where they barely have the opportunity to have sex.

Aish, get yourself together, Min Yoongi!

"I... " Yoongi takes another deep breath, exhaling it a bit shakily. "I do, hyung."

Jin sits up in his bed with wide-opened eyes, even his lips part a little. "Really?" He wants to see the younger's face, but there's a shelves-unit between their beds.

"Under strict rules, but yes." Yoongi replies.

Ah, yes, Jin thinks, it's important to talk this through before they'd go further. It's one thing to talk about relationships or telling how was the one-night stand to one another - Jin also realizes that Yoongi's always been just listening to the others -, but it's completely different from the two of them are going to have sex.

"Yeah, sure. We can talk about this tomorrow?" It's more like a question, and Yoongi hums in agreement. Jin takes a deep breath and lays back down in his bed, pulling up the cover to his chin. "Goodnight, Yoongi."

"Goodnight, hyung." Jin hears him whispering. He's still awake even after the younger fall asleep, and it takes him a long time until the darkness finally reaches him too, pulling him into the world of dreams.

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Even though their schedules ended, some of the members stay at the company. Namjoon is in his studio, already working on a song that he wants to put on their next album. Hoseok and Jimin are in the practice room; they're learning a combined choreo of their solos. Jungkook is on his way to meet with his friends from the '97 group chat for a nice dinner. Taehyung is the only one besides Jin and Yoongi who's at their dorm, playing video games on his computer. Thankfully he always uses headphones, so he will probably not hear anything at all.

After they are done with their night routines, they sit down onto Jin's bed.

Jin notices how nervous Yoongi is, and he's not alone, but he's the eldest for fuck's sake, he has to be the calm, collected one. He takes a deep breath and locks his eyes with Yoongi.

"Okay, so, I think we should talk about the details. Are you okay with that?" He asks, and this is already enough for the younger to blush. Cute.

"Yes, hyung." Yoongi whispers. "What would you like to know?"

"Hm, let's start simple. How far did you go with your partners?" Jin hopes that the rapper has at least a tiny bit of experience. They never talked about this part of their lives. They're always so busy, their schedule is always so tight; practicing, traveling, filming the music videos or Run BTS episodes… He doesn't even know how he made some time for himself for the one-night stands.

"Uhm… kissing?" Yoongi snaps him out of his thoughts.

Fuck. This is going to be a long run. At least Yoongi is old enough to know everything in theory, he just doesn't have experience.

"Anything else?" As Jin notices that Yoongi's blushing harder, he sighs. "Yoongi-yah, you have to be honest with me. I will not laugh at you. I just want to know what are the things you did with your partners and what are the ones you would like to try."

"Why? I thought we're just going to have sex." Yoongi says, looking at anywhere but Jin.

Jin slightly shakes his head, another sigh escaping from his lips.

"Oh, but you missed out so many things!" Finally the younger looks at him, his brows furrow. "There's so much more than just quickly get over with it." He says, and his mind goes wild, imagining how he would eat him out, making him scream as he cums.

Don't go there yet, Jin thinks.

"And you want to show me those too?" Yoongi asks with a raised eyebrow.

"Well, you're a virgin, and I'd like to do justice for what you asked. I won't just fuck you so we can get over with it."

"Oh…" Yoongi trails off, not knowing what to say. A part of him wants to say that he changed his mind. But the other, the bigger part of him wants it. He wants to know how it feels to be with his hyung.

...maybe Yoongi has a slight crush on Jin. Nothing serious, really, but Yoongi sometimes caught himself staring at him a bit longer, and yes, he likes his plump lips too, just like Jungkook, but he's better at hiding it (well, the maknae doesn't even try to hide it, he boldly uses every opportunity to stare at Jin's lips). He's aware of how good-looking Jin is, not to mention how much he loves the way Jin takes care of all of them.

But that's it, Yoongi doesn't have romantical emotions towards his hyung. They're still best friends, group members of BTS. This whole situation is weird, yet it isn't.

"So, back to the question I asked earlier." Jin snaps him out of his thoughts. "What else did you do with your previous partners except kissing?"

Aish, fuck it, Yoongi thinks.

"One time we… we jerked off each other with some guy, but that's it." He finally admits, his face is burning, he's sure he looks like a tomato.

Jin just hums, acknowledging what he heard. It's not much, and Jin wants to know why Yoongi is still a virgin, what's the reason he never went to that point with his previous partners.

"Okay, the next thing I'd like to know if there's anything you don't want." Jin says after a short while.

"Like what?" Yoongi asks with a frown.

"Like, for example, do you have any areas you want me to avoid? Like your earlobes or your nipples…" Jin trails off, and giving the small 'o' Yoongi's lips are forming, he gets what he wants to know.

"Hm, I'm not sure yet… I mean I've never even gone that far with anyone…" Yoongi doesn't even want to care about the fact that he's blushing. Again. Or maybe he didn't even stop blushing.

"Well, then please let me know if you don't like anything I do. So I won't repeat it, okay?" Jin shows him his small, unique smile, and it makes Yoongi's heart melt.

"Okay." Yoongi says quietly. He's not sure what to do. Are they going to do it now? He prepared himself - he did a little research and spent more time in the bathroom to do the preparation - just in case. It wasn't too pleasant, but he wants to do this in the right way.

Jin lets Yoongi think, it's obvious he's nervous. He doesn't want to rush anything. Yoongi is his dongsaeng after all, even if there are only a few months between them. Jin knows how insecure Yoongi feels sometimes, and he wants to take care of him.

"So…" Yoongi starts when the silence starts to be too much for him, "Are we gonna do it now, or…?" He trails off, biting his lips nervously.

"If you want to." Jin replies, showing a small smile to the younger.

Yoongi looks at Jin, scanning his beautiful face, letting his mind go wild, the lust slowly starts to bloom in him when his eyes focus on the elder's plump lips.

Jin notices it and leans a bit closer. He glances at the younger, just getting the chance to see how he licks his lips. When Jin is sure that Yoongi won't drag away, he moves a bit closer again. Their breaths mingle, it makes his heart beat faster, and he notices how Yoongi's breathing quickens, hot puffs of air tickling his skin.

"...I want to." Yoongi whispers, and it's enough for Jin to erase the remaining distance between them, leaning closer until their lips finally meet. It's just a peck on the lips, but Yoongi never felt what it's like to feel his hyung's plush lips, how soft they are. Lust ignites in his belly, and his mouth unintentionally opens a bit wider, wanting to feel more of Jin.

And Jin gladly gives the younger what he wants; his hand reaches up to his neck, gently leading him so he can deepen the kiss. A small whimper escapes from Yoongi's throat, his mouth falls open more than before. Jin uses the opportunity to slide his tongue between his lips, leaning even closer towards the younger, pushing him onto the mattress.

Yoongi moans, already feeling a bit overwhelmed, the kiss is so good, Jin's lips are addicting.

"Are you okay?" Jin asks, pressing his mouth against his after every word.

"Yes." Yoongi half whines, and maybe he should feel embarrassed, but he's too lost in pleasure to care about it.

And they're just kissing.

Jin gives him one last peck on his lips before he lowers his head, giving feathery kisses on his cheek, jaw, down to his neck.

Yoongi has to press his mouth shut to not start moaning when he feels those soft, plump lips on his sensitive skin.

Jin slides his hands under Yoongi's shirt, gently caressing his abdomen, leading one of them up to his chest while he moves the other to his back. Shivers go through Yoongi's body, a small whimper escapes from his throat.

"Hmm, so sensitive" Jin whispers, his hot breath tickles his skin. Yoongi wants to say something, but he gasps when the elder bites his neck, licking the mark right after to soothe it. He hears a soft chuckle, and it sends shivers up on Yoongi's spine, the hair stands on the back of his neck.

Jin's delicate fingers smoothly wander on his body, caressing his chest and stomach. Yoongi strokes the elder's hair with his hand, enjoying what he's getting. He unintentionally moves his hips when Jin slides his thumb under the hem of his boxers, earning another chuckle from him.

Jin tries his best to savor every moment of this, how Yoongi reacts to his touches and kisses, how his cheeks are flushed while he makes the cutest whines and moans. He decides it's time to go further, so he quickly takes off Yoongi's shirt - and his own too - before he trails down with his kisses, making sure to run his tongue over his nipples. The quiet sighs and moans are music to his ears, Yoongi's breath hitching in his throat makes Jin's blood boil with pleasure and lust. He slowly slides his hands on the side of Yoongi's body, stopping them at his small waist, just at the hem of his underwear. He lifts his head to look at Yoongi. His hair attached to his forehead, his eyes are half-open, his usually pale face is cherry red - it reaches his neck and the upper part of his chest too - while he pants for air through his parted lips.

Gorgeous.

"Can we go on?" Jin asks, not sure that he can actually stop if the latter says no. For his relief, Yoongi nods, and he can't help but smile. "I need your words, Yoongi-yah."

"Ye-yes, hyung." He stutters a bit, but it's hard not to when he's already so lost in pleasure.

"If it's too much or anything, tell me, okay?" Jin promised him that he won't do anything he doesn't want or like, and he wants to keep that promise.

"Okay."

Jin looks at the younger for a few moments, thinking through how far he wants to go. When his decision is made he locks his eyes with Yoongi's.

"I won't fuck you tonight." He starts and Yoongi wants to argue, but when he sees his expression, he stays quiet. "I think that would be too much for the first time. I'm gonna show you a few other things, though, so don't you worry."

Yoongi pouts, but still nods. He's glad that Jin said yes to this whole thing, and he's perfectly fine with what he came up with. He has to admit that it's better this way; he appreciates that his hyung doesn't want to rush anything. He's curious about what kind of things Jin wants to show him, but he's too embarrassed to ask.

He doesn't have to wait though as Jin lowers his head and starts kissing the lower side of his abdomen, down to his V line, his fingers playing with the hem of his boxers. Electricity rushes upon his spine when the elder slides his thumb under the fabric, it makes his member twitch.

It doesn't go unnoticed by Jin, who thinks that it's time to move on. He curls his fingers at the hem of Yoongi's underwear and slowly starts sliding it down. He hears Yoongi's breath hitching in his throat, but he doesn't show any sign of what kind of effect it has on him.

No, now he wants to give all of his attention to Yoongi's cock. It almost slaps his face when he pulls the boxers lower. He looks at it with lustful eyes; it's fully hard as he can tell, and it's not small at all, but his own is still bigger, curled up to Yoongi's abdomen. Jin runs his tongue over his lips as he gently curls his fingers around his member.

"Ah" Yoongi lets out, closing his eyes while he leans back his head into the pillows. He touched himself more than once, but it's so different when someone else does it, and he can't even remember how it felt when his partner jerked him off back then.

Jin's fingers are soft, and he's so gentle, only slowly stroking him. It already feels good, and he hopes that he won't come too soon, that would be so embarrassing. He slightly opens his eyes to look at his hyung between his legs, and he swallows hard at the sight.

Jin looks at his cock like it's a meal, a treat he wants to taste. A question forms in Yoongi's mind, but he doesn't have time to ask it as his hyung leans closer to his member and perks out his tongue, licking his whole length with it. Yoongi arches his back, already craving for more. Jin licks him again, from the base, up to the tip, taking it into his mouth in the end. It's warm and silky and wet, and Yoongi can't help it, a long and shaky moan escapes from his throat.

Jin's plump lips slide down on his shaft, letting more of his cock into that hot wet heaven. It feels incredible, Yoongi has no idea how long he can take it before he comes.

He slightly jerks when he feels the elder's fingers at his balls, taking them into his hand as he starts gently rubbing, playing with them.

He takes another shaky breath, opening his eyes to look at what Jin is doing to him. Jin takes this moment to let his shaft out of his mouth and locks his eyes with his. Yoongi can't do anything but stare back at him, watching as his member slides back into the elder's mouth, disappearing between those plump, sinful lips. It's so mesmerizing as his cock sinks deeper, the tip touches Jin's throat.

"Oh God." Yoongi moans, lolling back his head into the pillows. It's so hot and wet and so good, Jin certainly knows what he's doing. Suddenly Yoongi feels a bit embarrassed, wondering if Jin is enjoying this. He doubts it for a second, but then he remembers how he looked at his member, and it washes out all of his negative thoughts. Jin's the one who gave him the offer in the first place, he's definitely not going to do anything he doesn't want. All Yoongi has to do is take it, savor every moment, hoping he'll never forget it.

Thanks to Jin's good care, it doesn't take too long before Yoongi feels the hotness in his belly, letting him know he's close. He gently tights his grip in Jin's hair.

"I- ah, I'm close, hyung." He says, trying his best to not cry out loud when Jin hums while his dick is still in his mouth. When he realizes that the elder won't stop, he tries to warn him again. "Hyu- fuck, hyung!"

Still, it's no use, Jin is still sucking him off, curling his tongue around him, perking the tip of it into his slit, his fingers massaging his balls. The warmth becomes stronger in his belly, and a few seconds later his whole body tenses, his mouth falls open as a long, shaky moan escapes from it.

Jin closes his eyes and eagerly swallows Yoogi's cum, enjoying the hot liquid's saltiness. It's been long since he's done something like this, so he milks out every droplet he can. Yoongi's body jerks a few times, his orgasm is long and intense. Jin is proud of himself that he caused this much pleasure to his dongsaeng, and he wants to make him come again.

When Jin's sure that Yoongi's orgasm ended, he takes out his - surprisingly - still hard member from his mouth and hovers above him. Yoongi looks at him with glistening eyes, his cheeks red and his lips are parted. He slowly opens his arms, and Jin gladly hugs him, turning themselves to the side.

"You did so well, Yoongi-yah." Jin whispers, one hand stroking into the younger's hair while caressing his back with the other. He gives a kiss onto his forehead. "Would you like to rest a bit before we move on?"

Yoongi can't form a coherent word, so he just gives a small nod before he snuggles his nose into the crook of Jin's neck, inhaling his sweet, calming scent. It feels so good to be in Jin's arms. He's usually not the type who craves physical contact, but now, after the best blowjob he ever had, it's nice to be taken care of. He suddenly becomes sleepy, tired, but he knows that he shouldn't fall asleep half-naked (he only now notices that Jin adjusted his boxers after he was done).

He also wants to give something to Jin as a sign of gratitude. But what? He doesn't have the experience, but he still wants to do something for his only hyung.

Jin likes the closeness of the younger, he appreciates this rare occasion. He's not sure if Yoongi would like to go on, or he just wants to sleep.

Maybe that's why he's surprised when he feels Yoongi's soft lips against his neck, giving him small kisses. It feels nice, he closes his eyes, letting himself to enjoy the moment.

"Hm, someone's eager tonight." Jin softly says, a smile forming on his face. "What did I do to get this treatment?" He asks jokingly, a quiet hum escaping from his mouth when Yoongi gently bites his neck.

Yoongi pulls back and locks his eyes with his hyung.

"I want to give something to you for what I got." Yoongi whispers, a cute little pout present on his lips, his cheeks have a nice shade of pink.

Jin shows him a fond smile, sliding his hand from his hair to his face, gently caressing it.

"It's not about me, Yoongi-yah. You don't have to give me anything, I do this because I want to. I don't see helping you as a burden."

"But…" Yoongi struggles to say out loud what he has in his mind, he feels too embarrassed. He takes a deep breath and opens his mouth again. "Only I had an orgasm, and you… you didn't."

Jin's heart clenches in his chest. His dongsaeng is so cute, aigoo.

"As I said, my main focus is you, to make you feel good and show you what you missed. I can take care of myself, you don't have to worry about it, okay?" Jin asks quietly, caressing Yoongi's cheek with his thumb.

"Okay." Yoongi replies and closes his eyes, leaning his head into the touch.

They stay quiet for a while, enjoying each other's closeness. It should be awkward as they aren't together, and this is not a one night stand either, but, to Yoongi's surprise, he doesn't feel that way at all.

Yoongi closes his eyes and snuggles closer to Jin, and a few moments later he feels that his hyung pulled the blanket onto themselves. He's almost already asleep when Jin gives a kiss onto the top of his head, murmuring a 'Goodnight', then he feels two arms around him, one sliding under his neck, the other resting on his waist.

A satisfied hum leaves Yoongi's lips, and he quickly lets the tiredness claim him, leading him to the world of dreams.

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Yoongi would've never thought that there are so many ways to feel pleasure. Well, he knows that sex isn't the only way, but when he first said yes to this deal with Jin, he didn't know his hyung is going to show him practically all of them.

Not that he wants to complain.

After their first occasion, whenever they have some free time and the other's don't want to do something together, Yoongi and Jin go home - they always make sure they close the door of their bedroom before they end up in one of their beds -, and Yoongi experiences a new way to feel pleasure.

Jin always goes slow, giving an opportunity to Yoongi to say no if he doesn't want something. He loves seeing the younger when he's so lost in pleasure; gasping for air through his parted lips, his cheeks and even his chest are flushed, whining and moaning when his whole body shudders through his orgasm. Sometimes Jin becomes giddy and makes Yoongi come more than once, and maybe he'd feel guilty about it, but the pride that blooms in his chest, the way he feels like this side of Yoongi is only his own buries his conscience.

After a few times, Yoongi asks Jin to show him, to teach him how he can make him feel good. It really warms the elder's heart, and although he says no at first, Yoongi's determined, so he eventually gives in.

And Jin has to admit that his dongsaeng is a fast learner. From now on he's sure that his 'tongue technology' he mentioned in more than one of their songs - and on his mixtape - isn't an exaggeration at all.

If the rest of the members noticed something, none of them mentioned it so far, which is a relief.

Jin thinks that his relationship with Yoongi didn't change… that much. No, he doesn't catch himself staring at him for too long, or wonder about the younger's moans and whines when he ate him out for the first time while he's showering after a long day of dance practice.

Absolutely not.

He has no idea if Yoongi sees him differently though. He acts exactly the same as he always does. Jin knows he should see this as a good thing, but the tight feeling in his chest says otherwise.

As the days become weeks, Jin is aware that he can't avoid to actually have sex with Yoongi. He's more than ready, he showed him basically everything else he knows except that part. A few days passed since the last time they were together, and now, as he's laying on his bed; they ate some takeout after they got home from dance practice, then he went to shower, and now he's waiting for Yoongi to come back from his turn.

Jin hates to admit, but… he's nervous. And it's ridiculous, because he's the one who has more experience. Also, they're best friends who agreed to have this… arrangement. He promised Yoongi, and he's going to keep it.

Just as this thought comes through his mind, Yoongi steps into their room, closing the door - Jin hears the click sound of the lock - before he comes towards his bed and sits down at the edge of it. Jin notices the slight blush on Yoongi's face, it makes him smile.

They silently look at each other for a few seconds, and Jin wants to break it, but before he can say a word, Yoongi climbs onto him, sitting into his lap. Yoongi hovers above Jin, grasping the pillow at each side of Jin's head, not letting him move.

Jin is more than surprised by Yoongi's boldness, but he doesn't move; he's excited, he wants to see Yoongi's next move.

Yoongi's looking at him with his cat-like eyes, and Jin feels like the younger sees deep into his soul. Jin starts wondering, what does Yoongi see in his eyes? Fondness? Excitement? Fear? Lust?

...love?

Kim Seokjin, don't be stupid! Jin warns himself. No, he can't fall in love with Yoongi. He's his dongsaeng, his best friend, his roommate, and they're both members of BTS. They're idols, they can't afford themselves to be in a romantic relationship, especially not with each other.

But… why does his throat tighten because of this thought?

Whatever inner war Jin has in his mind, Yoongi doesn't know about it, and he chooses the best - or the worst? Who knows - moment to lean closer to Jin, pushing his soft lips against Jin's. It's hesitant, Jin senses it, but he gives the lead to Yoongi. All of this is about Yoongi, and at the most important part, Jin is going to do whatever and however the younger wants him to.

Yoongi lulls his head to the side, opening his mouth a bit to let Jin's tongue slide in, meeting with his own. Yoongi feels that the elder slides one of his hands at the back of his neck, while he caresses the side of his body with the other. Jin's hand soon finds its way under his shirt, soothing his skin with his long, delicate fingers.

They break the kiss, and Yoongi quickly takes off his shirt to throw it onto the floor, letting Jin sit up just enough so he can also pull off his own. Jin hugs Yoongi tightly while he lays back onto the bed, smashing his lips against the younger one's, giving him a passionate, hasty kiss.

Yoongi feels Jin's hands on him, caressing his back, then he moves them to the side of his body, lowering them, grabbing his ass at the end. Yoongi only pulled on his boxers in the bathroom, hoping that they're going to end up exactly to the point where they are now. And, to his luck, Jin doesn't wear more clothes either, having only his underwear too.

While they're still kissing, Yoongi slightly moves his hips, rubbing his growing bulge against Jin's crotch. Jin bites his bottom lip, a low groan escapes from his mouth in the process.

"What are you up to, Yoongi-yah?" Jin asks between the kisses as he tightens his grip on the younger's ass, earning a whimper from him.

Yoongi leans back a bit and locks his eyes with Jin.

"I want you, hyung." He replies with a low tone, a bit raspy as he tries to catch his breath.

Jin doesn't need more explanation; the lust and desire he sees in Yoongi's eyes are more than enough for him.

"Mhm, I see." Jin says casually, and without any warning, he quickly sits up and pulls Yoongi close to himself, laying him onto the mattress. He can't suppress his chuckle when he sees how shocked Yoongi is, looking at him with wide-opened eyes. "Then we should go on, shouldn't we?"

Even if Yoongi would like to reply, he can't do it as Jin leans closer to him, giving him a passionate kiss, nibbling his lips with his teeth.

Yoongi lets himself enjoy what Jin's doing to him, completely getting lost in pleasure. They've gone through this process more than once, but they always stopped before they could actually have sex. Yoongi welcomes the feeling of being taken care of by his hyung, the kisses on his chest and abdomen, the gentle caresses Jin gives him before he preps him with his long, lube-covered fingers.

For distraction, Jin takes Yoongi's dick into his mouth, slowly moving his head, sucking it harder when he pushes another finger into the younger's hole. Jin only lets Yoongi's cock to slip out from his mouth when the younger warns him that he's close. The elder doesn't want Yoongi to come too soon.

When Jin feels that Yoongi is loose enough, he pulls out his fingers and moves to the edge of the bed, taking out a condom from his nightstand.

Yoongi's still under the effect of Jin's ministrations, he can only watch with half-opened eyes as his hyung unwraps the condom and pulls it onto his hard member with practiced hands, stroking it a few times with his still lube-covered fingers. Yoongi's mouth waters by the sight in front of him; Jin is a really handsome man with a perfect body. Broad shoulders, eye-catching collarbones and nice chest, nicely toned abdomen, and his remarkably big dick is just the icing of the cake.

Yoongi will never admit how long he's been waiting for this moment.

Yoongi opens his legs wider, letting Jin settle between them. Jin puts one of his hands onto Yoongi's waist while he lines himself at the younger's entrance with the other. Jin stops his movements and looks deep into Yoongi's eyes.

"Are you ready?" Jin asks, a tiny bit of hesitance present in his voice.

"Yes, hyung." Yoongi replies, grateful that he's not stuttering. Jin leans closer and gives a long, soft kiss to Yoongi, resting his forehead against Yoongi's at the end.

"If you feel like it's too much, tell me, okay?" Jin says as he drags away a bit and gently grabs Yoongi's legs. Yoongi gives a firm nod and takes a deep breath, trying to relax.

Jin slightly tightens his grip on his thighs and pushes forward, only stopping when the tip of his member goes through Yoongi's rim. It stings a bit, but Yoongi can bear with it. He knows they can't avoid the pain completely, but Jin prepped him thoroughly, so it's not that bad at all. Also, Yoongi recently found out that if he feels a slight pain mixed with the pleasure, it turns him on even more.

When Jin makes sure Yoongi's fine, he starts pushing again, nice and slow, stopping whenever Yoongi's breath hitches in his throat.

"You okay there?" Jin asks when the younger hisses about halfway.

"Mhm, 'm fine." Yoongi whispers, inhaling a deep breath, and Jin feels how Yoongi's inner muscles relax after a few seconds. "We can go on."

Jin only hesitates for a moment before he continues what he started, slowly pushing himself inch by inch until he's fully in. He leans closer to Yoongi, resting his forehead against the younger's, taking deep breaths. It already feels amazing for Jin, his instincts make him want to move already, but he holds it back. He knows Yoongi still needs time to adjust to the feeling of being so full. Jin is aware of his size, and although he prepped the younger, it's never the same like a real dick goes in.

Yoongi's already sweating, the slight pain, the stretching he feels just gives more to the pleasure. He tries his best to relax his inner walls so Jin can start moving without hurting him.

As Yoongi opens his eyes after a short while, he sees that Jin is staring at him, scanning his face. Only their breathing can be heard in the silence, and a part of Yoongi is scared of this… intimacy. But he collects all of these thoughts and locks them into a box, hiding it in the back of his mind. He'll take care of them later.

To distract himself from these thoughts, Yoongi closes his eyes and moves forward, pushing his lips against Jin's, just a small peck before he lays back his head into the pillows. He barely opens his eyes when he sees that Jin is leaning towards him, and a moment later they're kissing again, but this time Jin licks Yoongi's bottom lip who opens his mouth wilder, letting Jin's tongue inside his wet cavern. The kiss soon starts to get heated and messy, and Yoongi loves every second of it.

"I'm ready, hyung." Yoongi half-moans into the kiss, slightly moving his hips as a sign.

"Mhm, are you sure?" Jin asks teasingly and bites Yoongi's bottom lip, earning a whine from the younger.

"Ah, hyungie, plea-" Yoongi can't finish his sentence as Jin deepens the kiss, a low growl escaping from his throat.

"You have to bear with the consequences if you'll call me like that again, Yoongi-yah." Jin warns him in a low tone when he breaks the kiss and drags away from Yoongi, sitting on his heels while his hands find their way on the younger's mid-thighs.

"What are you gonna do? Punish me?" Yoongi asks while he still tries to catch his breath after the intense make-out session.

"Hm, you'll see." Jin replies with a smirk, it makes Yoongi swallow hard.

Jin slowly pulls himself out from Yoongi's hole, then he moves his hips forward at the same slow pace, closing his eyes as he enjoys the tight warmness around his member. He looks up at the younger, checking out if he's alright; it's Yoongi's first time after all. Thankfully there's nothing Jin should worry about, because all he can see on Yoongi's face is pure pleasure. Jin goes slow for a while, not just because he doesn't want to cause any pain to Yoongi, he also wants to enjoy how his cock slides into the younger's hole, it's hot and wet and so perfect, he can't even recall when was the last time he could allow himself to have slow, intimate sex.

Also, Yoongi's moans and sighs and cute little whines are music to Jin's ears. He can't help it, he's kind of proud of himself that he can make the younger to become so vocal, so needy that he starts asking for more.

Just like how he's doing it now.

"Fa-faster, please!" Yoongi sighs as he looks at Jin with half-opened eyes.

A part of Jin wants to tease his dongsaeng, but he promised himself that he's going to do as the Yoongi wants him to, so if the younger wants him to move faster, then he'll do it.

A satisfied sigh leaves Yoongi's lips when Jin quickens his pace, not too much, but just enough so he can feel the difference.

"Ngh, so good! " Yoongi moans when Jin changes the angle - Jin lifted up his waist a bit -, so his thrusts now go deeper.

"Yeah, you like that, huh?" Jin starts thrusting faster, enjoying how Yoongi cries out loud in surprise. Jin slides his hands from Yoongi's waist to his mid-thighs, pushing them towards Yoongi as he leans closer to him. "How about now?"

Yoongi can't reply with coherent words, he's too lost in pleasure as Jin finds his sweet post, all he's capable of right now is to moan, long and loud and clear. But Yoongi can't help it, it's so good, better than he has ever imagined it to be.

Jin leans closer and kisses him, it's sloppy as he's still thrusting into Yoongi, but the younger likes it nonetheless.

"Please, hyung, to-touch me!" Yoongi pleads when Jin trails down with his kisses to his jaw and neck. His cock almost hurts, waiting to be touched.

"Hm, so needy tonight, I see." Jin whispers into Yoongi's ear, nibbling his love at the end. Yoongi wants to snap back, but Jin finds his prostate again, and he ends up moaning again. Yoongi feels that Jin takes off one of his hands from his thigh and a moment later those long fingers are curling around his painfully hard member. He lets out a shaky breath, enjoying how Jin starts stroking his shaft, the elder slides his thumb at the tip of Yoongi's dick from time to time to drive him crazy.

After a few minutes, Jin's hand is moving at the same pace as he shoves his cock into Yoongi, the younger's whimpers and moans becoming louder with each deep thrust.

Jin looks at his dongsaeng, trying to carve the sight into his memory.

Yoongi's hair is attached to his forehead, his eyes are only half-opened, his cheeks have a nice shade of pink as he gasps for air through his parted lips. The pinkness reaches his bare chest too, his nipples are hard, the muscles under his skin dances as he takes his breaths. Jin licks his lips as his gaze wanders to Yoongi's cock he has in his hand, it glistens with precum.

"You're so beautiful, Yoongichi." Jin says between his thrusts, feeling the hot knot that appears in his stomach, letting him know that he's close.

"Ah, hyungie!" Yoongi cries out loud, squeezing his eyes shut as the pleasure starts to become too much for him.

One, two, three more thrusts, and Yoongi breaks into pieces, his cock's twitching in Jin's hand as hot spurts of cum pulsing out of it, covering Jin's hand which still strokes him, guiding him through his orgasm.

Yoongi's inner walls are clenching around Jin's dick, making it harder for the elder to thrust himself back in.

After Jin is sure Yoongi's orgasm ended, he lets the younger's dick go and lifts his hand to his face, licking the cum off of his fingers before he puts it back onto Yoongi's waist. His nails make small crescents into the younger's flesh as he tightens his grip and starts moving his hips with more intensity, shoving his dick as deep as he can.

"A-ah~, hyung!" Yoongi moans, his voice cracks a bit as he's oversensitive after he just came. His little cry is only fuel to Jin's fire, the desire and lust what burns inside him, boiling his blood, heating up his skin.

Jin's close, he feels it, he's at the edge of it, and he starts moving faster than before, chasing his own release. Yoongi clasps his palm against his mouth, trying to suppress his moans as he feels that he's almost fully hard again, his orgasm building up incredibly fast compared to that he just came a few minutes ago.

"Go on-ah! Come for me." Jin says between his thrusts, lifting Yoongi's waist just enough so he can go deeper, and after a few more times he hits the younger's prostate, Yoongi cries out as he cums for the second time.

This time it's too much for Jin too, and after a few more sloppy thrusts, he stills, his semen shooting into the condom while a long, low moan escapes from his lips.

Yoongi barely registers that Jin pulls out himself; he closes his eyes, and the next thing he notices is that Jin's wiping off the half-dried cum on his abdomen with a warm washcloth. He's too tired to feel embarrassed when Jin cleans him thoroughly at the lower side of his body, and maybe he dozed off for a short while because when he opens his eyes again, he's covered with a blanket and Jin's laying next to him, staring at him with a heartwarming smile.

"What is it?" Yoongi asks, hoping the elder doesn't see his blush (he does).

I fell in love with you.

You're beautiful.

Would you like to go on a date with me? For real?

So many answers Jin would like to reply with, but he's too scared to say any of them out loud.

"I'd ask you if you'd like it or not, but recalling how much you moaned and that you came twice, I think you pretty much enjoyed it." Jin finally replies. He's glad he's not stuttering, or that his voice is stable, because his chest hurts.

But he's a coward, and he's not going to deny that. Even if it means that he has to make the lamest jokes ever.

"You're unbelievable, hyung." Yoongi says as he rolls his eyes, but he can't hold back his smile. "To answer your unanswered question" he starts, and Jin lets out a quiet chuckle, "I really enjoyed it." He finishes with red cheeks.

"Well, if you truly enjoyed it as much as you said, we can repeat it from time to time..." Jin trails off, chewing on his bottom lip.

"Uhm, yeah, I think- I think we can do that." Yoongi says after a few seconds of silence, looking everywhere but at Jin's face.

What's going to happen to them after all of this? Neither of them knows, but they still want to try. Who knows, maybe after a few months, Jin finally gathers enough courage to ask Yoongi out for a date.

And maybe Yoongi says yes.

Maybe they spend more and more time together, going fishing, or having a nice dinner, or just enjoy each other's company. There's a possibility that after a while, Yoongi and Jin confess their true feelings for each other.

And maybe, just maybe they'll end up being together for real.