1 [1: End of an era]

Noise. There was noise everywhere. The speakers were blaring, body's were grinding against each other, drinks were being poured, drugs were being used and dealt and I stood in the middle of all of it. Plastered.

My best friend, Xander Michaels—school bad boy— was watching me grind on some random dude that was drunk as well. His jaw was clenched and his knuckles were white in his clenched fists.

I saw out of the corner of my eye him moving toward us, eyes hard and stepping angry. If they could, his ears would be blowing smoke. "Alright buddy, lay off a bit. Harrison, let's get you home."

Xander was carefully leading me toward the door, I was whining like a child, wanting to go back to the party. He denied my requests and lead me toward the car, usually I was the one dragging his ass to the car, but not tonight, tonight I was fucking wrecked. My mother had recently passed away from Lung Cancer and I needed a relief, an escape from reality, Xander stayed sober so I wouldn't drink myself to death.

My father was god knows where so I was living alone, no siblings and no other family, just me. Sometimes it got lonely, so I usually stayed with Xan. Not tonight though, I was being driven home.

"Alright Harri, we're here." I opened my door at the sound of his voice and almost fell out. Xander rushed over and helped me toward the door. "My god, you're going to hate yourself in the morning."

I chuckled lightly, I'm sure I would. I'm so glad that school ended two weeks ago, finished our Junior year and now we're technically Seniors.

When I refocused onto the world around me I was being placed on my bed. Xander was taking off my shoes, I sighed. Now or never right. He won't believe me, I'm drunk. Oh well.

"Xan..." he looked up at me with a small smile, his eyes soft and light, "I love you." He chuckled and stood up to take my jumper off.

"I love you too Harri," his voice was kind and caring, friendly.

"No, I'm in love with you." I told him more forwardly. I was confident in my words, he stopped completely.

"You're drunk, you don't know what you're saying." He said with a sad gaze at me. My heart broke, I knew it.

"No, I am Xan! I really am." He laid me back, eyes softer than ever. Tears gathered in my eyes. "Xander! Don't leave! Please! I really mean it." I started to cry, hoping he'd see I was sincere.

"Don't cry Harrison. It's okay. I love you too. But, you won't remember this; will you?" His eyes were that soft blue once more. Sometimes I love being alone with him, he's caring and kind. Not hard and mean. He's really not a 'bad boy' at heart; he's just popular. He's never been mean to me, so that's an upside I guess.

"I'll try Xan. Help me remember." I mumbled while straddling his torso, his eyes were wide, his breathing was uneven. Was he...actually turned on?

"Harrison, I can't." He went to push my off but I leant down and forced my lips to his. Tears made their way into my eyes.

"I've always wanted to do that." I mumbled, suddenly a lot more sober than before. It was as if something clicked in his brain. He quickly and swiftly pushed me into my back and pressed his lips to mine. I smiled lightly and kissed back.

He started to grind into me, causing friction to rub between us, setting off a fire in my abdomen. I moaned lightly when he ground down in the perfect place.

He started to kiss my neck, more moans making their way from my mouth.

Slowly we removed our clothing and soon we were both bare before one another. "I love you." I whispered, I didn't get a reply, but I felt a tear on my face.

"Please remember." He mumbled before pushing in. I gasped in pain, "I know. It'll pass baby, it'll pass." I whimpered in pain as he pushed in to the hilt. His cock still, letting me adjust to this new sensation.

"Move." I mumbled. He started to move slowly, pain erupting throughout my body. I started to whimper in pain as tears made their way down my face. He stopped for a moment, "K-keep going, I'm okay...it's okay." He hesitantly nodded before taking up his previous actions.

"Almost there baby, almost over." He whispered in my ear. There was a moan next to my ear and then I felt my insides warm slightly, he had spilled into me.

I started to doze off, "I love you Xan." I whispered to him as I fell asleep and felt him pull me into his side as he too fell asleep.