one of mine

After the sermon,and the service came to an end i felt a light pinch on my cheek, knowing who it was I turned to face Blossom my childhood friend who happens to be married to one of our child hood friend with their daughter whom I call heaven she came to Sit on my lap,who insists on calling me mum.

mum,heaven started and I gave her a kiss.how was your class did you enjoy it?the delight in her beautiful hazel eyes told me she did.

she smiled and nodded all this while her parents looking at me made me guess what they were thinking,ever since we were child I always got scared of associating my self with kids I never wanted kids not because I disliked them it was just an unprecedented fear,But that changed when I carried heaven in my arms the day her mother gave birth to her her husband who happens to be soldier rarely has time for the family I appear to be close relative being three awesome besties we've become so close that some even wonder if she's my kid and surprisingly we look alike at least that's what I hear.

"I'd love to to stay with Aunt rhoda" mum can I heaven's voice woke me from my reverie she was asking her mum.

of course you can if your aunt want you to,i felt blossoms gaze on me which read just a word are you alright I know I had not been my self lately not like I would after the horrible night mares and sleepless nights I keep experiencing this days,but who was I to tell the only one I could trust or talk to,blossom has been busy lately I jus had to exercise patience but till when.

mum can I,this time heaven asked me,of course you can only if you promise to be good I replied her

blossom I think we should greet father,so we can leave early,I said and she nodded I've never been the type to leave church early especially first Sundays like this,I just had to leave,i knew I had to say something to avoid others suspicion of my attitude and escape others interrogating me,we all took turns greeting Rev.father Morris and left for our various house heaven with me

my house being a thirty minutes drive from church,we got home before I could tell heaven to change she already went to the room I fixed for her ever since she loved staying with me,change already,while I went to change as well before going to the kitchen to fix something for us to eat I decided to prepare fried rice and some meat balls since I had bought the ingredients earlier today as I chopped the onions absent mindedly,I heard the voice a familiar one after all we're all alone

mum your hand,heaven cried I was shocked at her reaction only to see my hand bleeding profusely I must have carelessly chopped my hand while I was thinking

Heaven on the other hand had gone to get me the first aid box I watched as she rolled the bandage round my wound

since lunch was ruined decided to take us out where my mind could actually be free,we went to the nearby restaurant we're we bought chicken and chips, I remembered I promised to take heaven to an amusement park so I decided to take her just to while away time we took picture not like heaven wouldn't have convinced me to.

it was getting dark already I had to take heaven back to her parents,as we left for their house I felt like I was being followed but I ignored that replacing it with my paranoia spirit heaven must have seen my confused state I could feel her gazing at me and she asking me Everytime if I was okay I had to smile I wasn't going to ruin our moments together with my ill mood .

Getting to the gate of the luthras I gave a honk and we got in as the gate opened,I could see blossom already,wasn't ready to wait long all I wanted was to get heaven safe home and head back home,I parked.

Highlighting from my car I led heaven to the door and was about leaving when I heard heavens voice

mum aren't you coming in how was I to refuse seeing the eagerness in her voice I wish I could and wish I did before blossom came and dragged me all the way in I wasn't ready for a fight and play I might have kicked her or playfully tickled her till I was satisfied but now is no time for that I knew what I was n for some kinda interrogation she's so good at her job being a lawyer I actually meant we but right now as I was being dragged in I felt like the accused thinking on what to say and how to plead with the judge and be let go

What's being happening to you Iately,I hadn't realized we were in her room already if not for the fact that she had talked raised my eyes up this time, planning to say nothing but all I could read in her eyes was I've known you too long for you to fool me don't you dare try lie to me yet I could see the fear of the unknown of a great friend in her eye she was getting scared as well I couldn't force my tears back as they gushed out uncontrollably I knew I wouldn't stop somehow it didnt,I don't think I can tell u now I started but I saw it this time and it looked real,now I could see the real fear In her eye more than what I had seen earlier,she couldn't speak this time as our eyes met speaking the unspoken words in us I was okay with the fact that I didn't have to say much for her to understand what I meant by that she knew,it was terrifying but the silent was much more usickling I just had to go at least for now we both knew that but she wasn't the type to let me go worried I wished she had just left me.