1 chapter 1: replacement?

replacement. That's all I am to my parents. A replacement for my brother. Me a pathetic excuse of a daughter is now a replacement for a an angel who was worthy of his throne. Father made the choice that Kai would take over the kingdom of Aurelia, and that I was just a mere excuse of life, a waste of space, nothing more nothing less. But Kai was always there for me he always kept telling me that I was the exact opposite of what my father says, that I am a blessing sent from the sky that I was special that I was loved by him and only him.

And now that he's gone it is my duty to take over the kingdom of Aurelia. I always thought I was too weak to do so but Kai said I was strong enough to do so. Before he passed he told me to take care of our Kingdom. The more I think about it the more I want to just cry and just leave everything behind. Knowing that I loved my brother more than anything in the world. To cry knowing that the only way I can repay him for always being there for me, for making me feel loved and special is by ruling over Aurelia making it a better place to be at than it already is. I needed to make sure that Kai's wish is fulfilled making sure that kingdoms from all over the land to come and visit each other in peace.

I'll make it come true. I promise you Kai.

"Young Olivia, wake up you have a meeting with Michael today in about two hours" the voice said, taking the blanket away from me, tucking the cover away from me sending the cold air onto my skin making me shiver, I opened my eyes stating at the man before me. Like. Kai's butler who's now my butler. I've heard about how special he is I've met him a couple of times already knowing a lot of things about him. He was the polite, calm and well reserved, he definitely had a scary look but I know he means well. Kai did a right thing choosing him as his butler if only he was here with us.

"Good morning Luke" I yawned getting up from my bed looking at his direction, he already went ahead picking my outfit for the day. My schedule was packed I had meetings left and right and I also have to announce to the kingdom of what had happened. Making an announcement to the whole kingdom letting them know that I am in charge. I wish Kai was still here with me so I wouldn't have to go through all that torture but I can't turn back now can I? I am unable to go back in time and prevent his death and I certainly don't wish to witness it again.

"Good morning my lady, I hope you had a good night's rest, breakfast is ready it's best if you go eat before it gets cold, then you can come back and get ready for your meeting with Lord Solomon which is exactly two hours away" he said setting my outfit at the end of my bed for me to wear later on. I nodded my head and fixed the covers of my bed. "Thank you for reminding me Luke and yes I did sleep well" I replied as I walked to the vanity getting the brush to fix my half tangled hair "did you get a good night's rest Luke?" Waiting for a reply as I finished brushing my hair.

"I did sleep well my lady, thank you for asking. Now breakfast is waiting, it would be a shame if the food got cold" he said, waiting patiently by the door

"I'll be put in a bit Luke you can go on without me I just need to do something real quick" he nodded and left.

Walking over to the full length mirror beside my desk examining my face and examining my long brown hair seeing if there was anything I can to fix my appearance seeing as I was already already good enough...I think I sighed "I wish you were still here Kai" dropping my head and shaking it as tears threatened to spill out I held them not wanting to seem weak on my first day as being queen of Aurelia.

Walking into the dining room and seeing a plate full of food I walked towards my seat. Luke was standing at the side with his eyes closed, posture straightened chest out and face titled upwards, hands placed behind his back. His face remained emotionless it was like he was trapping his emotions inside a box not letting a single one show. I turned my head looking at the plate in front of me. "Thank you for the food Luke" I said before slowly starting to eat. Mother and father always told me that eating fast was unacceptable and was not how the princess should act. It was gross and rude to the family's name. Sloppy, messy and shows that I acted like lower class people and not royalty..

"You are most welcome lady Olivia" he replied , his face still emotionless. "Have you eaten yet Luke" I asked because I don't want him to go around starving myself. He shook his head "why not? Aren't you hungry?" I asked he chuckled "young Olivia it would be very impolite of me if I ate with the soon to be queen of Aurelia and plus I would be breaking a rule. Your highness's are supposed to be dining with family and other royals" he explained. I for one thought it was a very stupid rule, maybe perhaps I van change that rule since I am the soon to be ruler of this kingdom "well when will you eat? It's not ok for you to walk on an empty stomach it won't do you any good". I replied

"I eat after I finish my chores around the castle it's not big deal really" "anyways you should probably go get ready for your meeting now that you're finished" moving towards the table taking my plate and silverware to the kitchen. I got up heading towards the stairs. I swear to God he better eat it would be so rude of me to to let him starve like that. Makes me wonder how it went with Kai. Oh another thing about Kai is that he is super nice he was always good and fun to he around, always made everything fair thays what I liked about him that he always put others before himself he was selfless and caring. Traits I wish to have as time goes on.

Sinking into the warm water, the liquid over my skin calming my nerves it stressed me out to have to give a speech to the kingdom and what was worse is I had to lie within that speech to tell the people that Kai died while he was on a mission that father sent him on when in reality he died in the hands of father himself, he died protecting me from him. No one knows about what really happened except minus me and father. It's all my fault if anything if I wasn't so selfish and caught up in my own needs this wouldn't have happened it could have been prevented. I wanted to get out the kingdom and explore the world I wanted to live a normal happy life.

such selfish needs yet Kai was the one who died at the hands of father all because father got mad at me got my selfish needs. I was greedy I was ashamed of that i was ashamed because I am the reason my beloved brother died. Ugh if only I wasn't so caught up in life things would have gone differently Kai would still be here. Wiping away the tears that started to fall down my cheeks I began to wash my body, all the bruises and scars from the past that I got from father. I washed them with care. Pain was the only thing I had been able to grow used to. Life was a lie, love was a lie a damned lie that would lead you to happiness but in the end it leads you to misery, it leads you to death, murder, and lose the only thing you ever cared about. Love was something I never wanted to experience ever again for as long as I shall live if the person that I love ends up dead. Dead like my brother who taught me how to love how to cherish everything and every moment I had. He would show me love and kindness spoil me with such good only to be harmed by it at the end. So love really has no use. It's not worth it. It has no point...

I don't ever want to experience it ever again.