1 The Great Loss

Losing someone is unimaginably tragic. Your entire life is shaken for such a mislay of fate, undaunted with chances, doom by miseries and sadly if the person is likely to be your wife, a distinct partner whom you have married for a lifetime. Naturally, moving on, is such a tremendous decision; for changing our fate is not just a one blink of an eye adventure albeit it is wary and gruesome inside.

"Hi there, are you okay?" His grandma curiously asked him.

"Hmnn...not at all, still! and will never be." Sebastian answered greasily.

"Come on, its 2016, the world is round and so, life is!" Then she left murmuring.

According to the neighbors, years ago, Sebastian's wife died and he was not around when it sadly happened. Rumors widely spread that his wife all the way secretly carried a burdensome illness till she suffered hard and died. She did not tell him about those long- standing struggles and suffering. Sebastian, 28, a company foreman lost her wife that early and been swallowed by guilt. He was always drunk and not a day or two when he forgot his things elsewhere and found nothing when he goes back. In fact, he frequently pushed and fought people in bars, streets - for even the littlest issue matters to him. Getting bruises out of people's punches made his life a little popular in their place. Most of the time he slept along the roads, staring to nothingness without him knowing the oft-repeated flowing tears on his dainty haggard cheeks .

One day, when he was awfully alone by the street, he prayed deep inside for some miracles to keep her back to life, side by side, caressing some memories and restart that silent togetherness into meaningful days to remember till he slept and forgot the painful world and he woke up shrugging his shoulders, alone in a strange old park. He felt extreme dizziness while scratched his head and putting his hands akimbo. As the twilight started to give in, he was amazed by the bulb lights that all of the sudden brightly lighted the entire park.

" I just woke up and there's sunset again?" He strangely asked himself.

As the cool wind kept whining his messy hair, he slowly walked through an alley of bricks by the brink of the cliff. A small bamboo pole on the right alley led him below to a bumpy zigzag direction that was getting darker as the twilight camouflaged his sight on that creepy descent, barefooted. Moments later, he has heard the rustling of leaves and the flowing water few meters away from where he was standing. The dark and foggy place made him chilling and bracing himself while slowly moving. The terrain was stony and sandy as his feet felt the watery grounds. He was confused and a little lost and sensed out of track until...

"Oh goodness, there's... I guess a light in the middle, its maybe one of the houses of some locals here." He thought while walking so fast towards there.

The cover crops and 'makahiya' plants have been hurting his feet as he ran and more determined to reach the end of the light. He was sweating a lot with his trembling hands, getting almost there, until he slipped his left foot on a hole that numbed his body of pains. With a blink of an eye, out of the blue, a woman's hand had touched her right shoulder and tried to pick him up, and as the crescent moon shed a little of its light on them had fairly helped them see around. Sebastian turned his head and saw the woman's face, the dearest amongst - his beautiful wife. Tears have been torn his tormented heart for years into pieces and so he embraced her so tightly like a century had never passed. He missed her a lot.

" Karla!" Without any other words but her name alone was whispered on her ear, he cried so long up until he collapsed and was kicked by a passer by on a very noisy street. There were cars and urban people running within the city life.

He crazily ran and got back home.

"Where have you been? I was looking for you just like yesterday, and the rest of those years back then. Hmmn and today too you ran like a lightning that we seldom see you that way. Why? Hope we'll get to see you like this on and on, call this a miracle!" Grandma Tere smiled as she breathe.

When grandma Tere went out, most of the neighbors approached her, asking about him. The old woman was just shaking his head and smiling.

Sebastian was still in shock but part of him was very happy. He locked the door and windows as he knelt in front of the altar, holding a crucifix and recited the "Our Father." The only prayer he kept on rewinding, believing God will grant him and to at least help him survive from missing her.

" God, we saw each again today-but in my dreams. I still wasn't able to tell her about it. Please, one day even if I know she's nowhere but let her stay with me a little bit longer in my dreams. I wanted to fix my life...and will never burden her of crying and always picking me up when I fall in my dreams. Please Lord, before you I sincerely ask...to let me speak words I should have said and not just to mention her name. Grant me this prayer oh God, please."

His tears again rolled so fast as he slightly bit his lip of recalling some painful feeling. There was a sober hope with a painful reality.

"Seb, come out now, your food is calling you haha, I'll go buy some groceries. Come out now." Grandma Tere insisted.

He got out from his room, at least had eaten a handful of food and for the first time he took a serious bathing. With the 'bimpo' he used to clean him around turned him out into a human being again.

" She's crying, I guess I need to fix my life for her too. I shall."

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