2 I Thought

On my adolescence day, I feel so lonely and need to be loving by someone. I end up with a person that has a 10 years old age gap with me.

When we were hanging out to have a sight seeing on one of the best lake in the city, the rain poured on us and need to find a shelter immediately. From that place, I gave him my first kiss and my first ever hugging with a man except my brother and father.

I was fell in love with him, and accepted the age gap and all the weakness on him.

The relationship between us started to getting deeper and deeper each day until he decided to work at another place.

"Okay, just go to work. Don't ever cheat on me over there" I said through the phone before the plane took him away from me.

The long distance relationship took my thought away, kept on text or having a phone call in the middle of the night. There he goes, couldn't control his desire, and trying to taught me about sexting and phonesex.

He texted me at 9 pm, "I'll call you, but get ready, pull up your clothes first". And what do I do? I did as I was told.

Trough the phone call, he took control over me, I should pinch my nipple hard until I moan.

Yes, that's the very first time I moan over someone. A moan that full of pleasure and desire.

Because the long relationship between us, once we met at his place, he told me about give a peck kiss on his dick, and playing with my nipples.

Yes, he was my first boyfriend who told me about lust and pleasure, about a man need and lust.

Nothing last forever.

On my second year of junior high school, he cheated on me. I feel guilty over my body and swear I would never ever be in a relationship with someone older than me.

I thought, one year is an enough time to maintain to another step of relationship between us. I thought, he will be the one I would marrying in this lifetime. I thought…