8 8th

When we were home again I watched a little TV till 8 pm and went to the bathroom to brush my teeth. Heather also helped me to bath and wash myself. Then I got to bed. The next day I woke up from a nightmare about my mums car accident. She was driving home from work and a drunk driver hit her with his car. She crashed against a tree and was hurt badly. Of course I wasn't there but I was in the hospital with my dad afterwards. I saw him cry and talking with the doctor, screaming at him and I didn't really know what was going on. I was just worried and kinda numb. I didn't know what to do. So I just sat there watching my dad be sad and angry. My heart beated to fast when I sat in my bed after the bad dream. It was only 6 am and I should just turn around and continue sleeping but I couldn't. I was too nervous and awake.

So I stood up, got to the bathroom, purred water in my face and brushed my teeth. As I got back in my room I wanted to pick out a black band shirt but of course I didn't had one. I missed my emo self already. Sighing I found a black T-shirt and some black pants with pink shoes. Heather maybe will look at me strangly because of my clothing choose but I didn't care. For breakfast I had bread with ham and cheese this time and an orange juice.

I was allowed to watch some TV in the morning while Heather knitted on her scarf. On TV was a funny serie about kids and their adventure. After that I watched Heather knitting a little and liked the fact that she was making a colorful scarf. I got in my room then and played with lego. Short after I built a house with a garden and flowers.

For lunch we had fish with potatoes and cream sauce. It was very good. As dessert I ate some cookies again. In the afternoon I considered if I should tell Heather about my nightmare in the morning and told her in the living room. She said that it was horrible what happend to my mum but it was only a bad dream and I shouldn't worry about it. Also she asked me if I often had nightmares and I answered that they were rare. I wondered how it would be to have therapy at my age because of nightmares and forgot about that thought again. Wouldn't be fun probably.

We got out to that handicraft work shop then and Heather bought some colorful paper for crafting for me. At home again I handicrafted with the paper and managed to make some fish and plants to built an aquarium. When it was finished I showed it proud to Heather and she put it on a cupboard in the living room. If it wasn't out of paper it would nearly look real and I smiled. It was 6 pm when we ate toast for dinner and a muffin as dessert.

In the evening we watched a kids movie and Heather fell asleep. So I was very quiet when I got upstairs to brush my teeth and dress in my pyjama. When I was in bed I heard her how she stood up and walked around a little but it was all silent again when I fell asleep. This time I didn't had a nightmare and I was glad about it. I slept all through till 8 am and washed my face in the bathroom then. Getting dressed in a colorful shirt and blue pants I wondered what I will do today.