9 trauma

"Is this what this tattoo was all about?"

I wondered.

"Putting it simply yes"

"This part is where I am kinda lost myself"

"Why does Saotachi has this on his hand?"

"I kept thinking for a reason since I saw it on your hand, but never found a clue"

I see...

Yami was actually overthinking things as well, but she bore it herself.

Seems like she is used to dealing with these things I feel so bad.

"I'm sorry."

I said it as soon as I felt bad about it.

"You mean about earlier?"

"Yes, I was under too much stress and I throw it on you I feel very bad"

"Very well since you feel this way you should apologize by taking a rest we can continue on later"

We ended up deciding to end our discussion at least for now.

I head back to the room they gave me.

"Huh…"

That wasn't a sigh of relief, but rather it was a sigh of feeling burdened.

I tried to confess myself not to overthink things, but I couldn't even rest well that night.

"It's already morning...?"

I am not fond of daytime rather I really like nighttime.

Waking up almost 9 am wasn't something I planned, but it was because of the smell.

Yeah, you read it right I woke up from the smell.

An omelet smell.

Since I didn't really eat much last night it is common sense that I felt very hungry in the morning.

But, man waking up this way is not something that I thought I will experience ever in life.

I got myself ready and head immediately to follow the smell.

And I arrived to find out it was in the hall.

The hall is like a place where they have this really large long table where they obviously serve rich people on their occasions.

"So, the real question is why are we using this right now?"

"Simon is really energetic today because we have visitors"

Yami said after coming out of nowhere.

She is wearing funny pajamas.

"More like you never get visitors haha..."

I joked after realizing I made an unnecessary comment.

"Either way let's not disappoint Simon and eat as much as we can"

Even though at that time I wasn't completely feeling happy, but I let my guards off after getting this family-like atmosphere.

I felt almost like I have never experienced such a thing.

We finished our colossal meal.

"I'm so full."

I said having the last bites still in my mouth.

"Meet me in my room when you finish"

I started asking myself.

Why her room though?

Why am I having this same feeling I got on that island?

This is troublesome...

I reached her room to ask her straightforward.

"Why is it always your room?"

She smiled.

I wasn't quite sure what type of smile I should consider it.

Then she started walking towards a bookshelf.

Drawed a book.

Then there was a little vibration in the ground.

More like a tiny earthquake.

Suddenly a passage in the underground started appearing.

I got really scared.

For some reason, I've always had a trauma of narrow places.

I don't even remember since when.

I felt like for some reason I couldn't breathe there.

"What do you plan on doing?"

I asked Yami out of feeling sudden pressure.

"I understand what's written on your hand and you need to know what it says"

I interrupted.

"So what?"

I continued

"What does this has to do with this narrow path?"

Yami replied.

"To make it short you must head there with me to believe what I am saying otherwise I don't think you have any evidence isn't that correct?"

She is right, but that's still not enough reason for me to face my trauma.

"I can't."

My head filled with fear and anxiety I couldn't bear with the atmosphere.

So dark.

So dead.

"Are you going to give up?"

"That's right."

"I'm going..."

I tried as soon as possible to leave the room.

Being there I felt like I was so close to faint.

My heart beating so fast.

I felt like vomiting.

Why am I even this afraid?

I don't know...

I have no memory...

"Don't!"

A hand suddenly held mine.

It was Yami.

"Are you going to give up this easily?"

"Do you plan on leaving things unsolved?"

I tried to unhook her arms.

"Leave me, this is something you can't understand!"

"even if it is a trauma you have or not you have no other choice!"

Then Yami took a little sigh and said.

"Satoshi is in danger you are in danger this world is going to end you must find clues to stop Aletheia find him and kill him"

And then there was a moment of silence.

A very long one.

What is she saying?

Why do I feel like I heard this somewhere?

My fear.

My trauma.

Everything.

I felt like it disappeared.

I am not sure why I felt this way...

Is it because I am now feelingless?

I removed Yami's hand, but this time it is different!

My legs felt like they were moving on their own.

Towards the basement.