1 PROLOGOUE

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PROLOGOUE:

Hanggang kailan? (Until when?)

That's what I often ask myself, how long will I be patient for our relationship. or Is there even a relationship I'm still holding?

Ako maghihintay na para bang! Wala nang papalit sayo. ( I will wait for sure! No one will replace you.)

Tss! Is it true? The way I heard the music now? I think he is just waiting for the time to leave me. Or maybe he already left me, but I just don't realize it. I just holding the same person I have before, but I am still holding the same man, I loved before? I don't know.

Hanggang sa dulo ng ating walang hanggan! (Until the end of our eternity!)

In that chorus hits me. Does he need space? Why on earth he left me? Is he don't want me anymore? I will give it but why? I thought until the end? But it's not. I won't hold him anymore, I will let him go, if he just said it early.

Maybe? We were in the middle of things happening, but he gave up. He was like a fake tie, he didn't even last long, while you only got tired once, but suddenly he gave up.

Hanggang ang puso'y ng wala nang nararamdaman. (Until the heart feels nothing.)

Is it true? Does the heart really lose its feelings? Is he falling out of love with me? Is he tired of me?

Has he become numb? Did it really happen like that? All I want is a perfect relationship for both of us.

But nothing. Did it suddenly disappear?

Did it just disappear like a bubble?

For two fvcking years, it's just like that, after those fvcking years it's just like that. I didn;t even know, where the problem start? I just woke up one day, he already tired holding me.

I can't understand why those things happen. I just--don't understand. I'm seeking for a better future, with him. But unfornately he just ruined it again. I maka a lot of mistake, but I didn't include him, because I still beleiving that it is just a problem, that we can find a solution, and not a problem we regret in the end.

Hanggang sa dulo ng ating walang hanggan! (Until the end of our eternity!)

Did it happen? Did we reach it? Did I reach it? Because If I am, and if its a YES. I wish I wasn't at the counter of this bar right now, drinking a liquor while listening to that song that hurts me again and again. There would be no tears if we really reached eternity.

Because honestly, if I don't see him happy in our relationship anymore, I will let him go. He can simply ask me?! But why on earth he needs to hurt me like this. I'm done with his bull$hit?!

Not while we were, he was doing something wrong. He makes a mistake while he's still mine.

I hope he just said it, because I will do what he wants, even if he asks that he no longer wants our relationship anymore. If we doesn't work anymore, he just simply tell me that 'I'm already tired, lets end this.' and done.

As simple as that! But why didn't he just do it?

What happened and we ended up in this situation? I don't remember any reason why we ended up like this.

I thought so, really.

It's us! We were all the way to the end, just like that, cupid's arrow changed its path and went in a different direction and I should have been the one making him happy now.

That's why it's not anymore. Not anymore, because I know he's not happy anymore. He can't fight anymore.

Maybe I'm the only one fighting, maybe I already know, but I'm denying itd. I also know that love is no longer the reason why we continued our relationship.

Maybe I have a reason for that, and there's two reason why I still want to hold it.

Maybe I really want to fix it and continue. Second, because it's been a long time, and it's hard to give up.

I get my phone in my bag. I want to delete all the memories for good, so I decided to post the last word in my mind right now. I will not deactivate my social media account, but I want to restart again with the new version of me.

"The saddest thing about (Pag-Ibig) love is that not only that it cannot last forever, but that heartbreak is soon forgotten." status set by Rose. This is the last word in my mind right now.

Signing in to the new me.

TO BE CONTINUE.