There are million reasons why I should give you up

"There are millions reasons why I should give you up. But the heart wants what it wants." Hi guys. This is Arya. I am 25 year old kid. Welcome to my world. I just wanna tell you that don't judge people. You would never know how much they are broken until you step on their shoe. I was a girl born and brought up in a conservative family in India. My family was so orthodox and they always follow some rules. I followed them without asking anything. We were happy. I was happy even though I had not have freedom to do things I love. One day everything was completely shattered. I didn't have time to think what to do. I always thought that going with a flow helps you to avoid stress. I decided to do that. But when I realized that it took me to the point where I could not revive myself. You would understand life when you see someone's death, if the person is very close to you, one broken relationship, one relationship doesn't have the clear future. Love could break you. Break you to the point where you would not find the scattered pieces. Same time it could heal you. But it would not heal you completely. You would always have the broken pieces with you to remind that how stupid you are. How stupid you are to allow someone to break you completely. I was broken into pieces completely by someone whom I love very much. I have few questions for you. Have you ever regreted for trusting someone? Have you ever cried in the silence and smiled in front of people? Have you ever thought that death could take you away from the pain you are going through? Have you ever lost someone very close to your heart? Have you ever depressed without a reason? Have you ever felt empty? Have you ever felt that life is meaningless and everything is meaningless? Have you ever experienced the fear of being alone and the thought of not having someone? If your answer is Yes for these questions, I would proud say that I am just like you. Once again welcome to my world. Do not judge me. I was just trying to escape from this pain caused by love....