Chapter 2

Christy

"That's what you say all the fucking time! Why can't I live my life?!" I banged my fist on the table.

I was just explaining to mum how I was going to Steve's house and it was a big 'NO', before I even had the time to finish.

"Watch it young girl! You won't talk to me like that! I can't have you my daughter, wear clothes that exposes half of your body! Your body is your pride and glory and you must preserve it!" She shot up from her sit.

"Glory and what? For once in your life forget about godly stuff! You can't strangle me with religion! I can wear whatever I want! And go to whereever I please!" I yelled.

"Go to your room! Right this seconds!" She said sternly with her fingers pointing the stairs.

"I'm not hungry by the way," I stumped upstairs and slammed my door before collapsing on my bed.

"How I wish you were still here dad," I reach for the picture on my nightstand, hugging it tightly close to my chest with my eyes shot so I could picture his beautiful face.

'You gotta be strong' those were the last words he said to me. He was a devoted soldier, fought wars and came back alive, I thought he was going to come back like he always does, but he never did. He promised! He even swore! B-but.

I can remember the ten years old me, praying every morning and night asking God to bring him back but he never came back, God refused to grant my wishes, mum would always say God answered the prayers of little kids more than that of the adults. But when it came to my turn he turned his back on me, oh just maybe he didn't exist, it was destiny, that's all, no such thing as God, is all a fairytale!

I don't see why mum would stop me from being who I want to be, because of a folklore! She has no fucking right to influence my decision!

I leaped out of bed and pulled out my only black rip jeans and my only crop top, aunt Misha offered to me in my sixteenth birthday of cause mum won't let me put it on.

I put my LED sneakers on and sneak threw the window.

Zoe was already waiting for me in the park. All I had to do was just hop in. Might be a crazy idea, but a step to freedom.

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The party had started and the music was blasting in the background! I don't recognize the musician or music, it was one of those music mum called worldly, she and her holy remarks. Boring.

Lilly and her friends were talking about musicians and all I had to do was smile and nodded like everyone else even if I had no idea of who Ariana grande or Cardi B was.

"Between Justin Bieber and Zayn Malik! Who is more hotter?" Zoe asked me.

"Uh?" I blinked twice with a fake grin, "Zayn!" I just blurted.

They all let out shrieks as they jumped fan themselves with their five fingers, I was just smiling like a fool. What will I not do for friends? Desperate me.

"Here he comes." Zoe pointed to a boy with bleach blond hair and defined chin, he was pretty handsome, with his unbutton shirt revealing his packs. Tell you what, I don't find him the least bit hot not at all. He looks stupid though.

He walk up to us. "Whoa babe, brought some other chicks?" He stare down at Lilly who had this huge smile on her face.

"Steve" She said in a low 'I'm crushing for you' kind of tone.

"Yo man!" Another boy walk to us, I couldn't tell the exact color of his hair because of the different colours of bulbs but he was just as stupid as the dude standing by Lilly.

His hair was wet from swimming in the pool and he was shirtless, it took me all not to look away.

"Derrick, look who Lilly brought." Steve said with his hand around Lilly's shoulder.

His eyes scan us, starting from Zoe and the others then me, his eyes stop moving as they settled on me before travelling down my bare stomach, all I did was cover my stomach with a nervous smile.

"Whoa I've never seen her before." Derrick said as he took some steps closer.

To be honest I've started hating this place and wishing I had stayed home. Hahaha.

"Is Christy," Lilly added almost carelessly as she was busy staring at Steve's face with her claws running in his hair.

"If you won't mind we have to see some other friends." Zoe and the other girls left.

"Party!" Lilly jumped in the pool with Steve."

"Uh, okay..." I looked around for any help.

"I'm Derrick, do you want to dance?" He grabbed my wrist making me blush this was not from crushing or affection. NOT AT ALL! I just hate it when boys touch me. I slowly broke my wrist from his wet grips wiping it on my pant.

"I know, I'll just head this way." I start for my way to escape but he was quick to grab my hand and pulled me to the dancing stage, it was a hot rapping song. And the dance floor was empty everyone waited for us to dance, Derrick didn't bother he was dancing the whole shuffle dancing steps that ever existed and people were cheering.

After his dance he lock the space between us and I tried to back off but he wrap his hand around my waist and pulled his lips closer.

I really tried to avoid this but he leaves me not choice. My hand flew out of my control and landed on his beautiful face with a CLACK!

A chorus of hiss could be heard, as the DJ had stop playing.

"What the hell?!" He grabbed his check.

"Take your distance boy!" I growl out of my normal shy self. I totally ignore I could be so loud.

"What? Take your distance? You won't start your drama right? You and Lilly came to an agreement so I don't see why I can't kiss you, you're mine for today." He said.

I chuckled nervously, my heart was pounding in my rib cage, what is he talking about do I look like a whore?

"what? I never had such agreement with Lilly." I manage to utter.

Lilly shove pass everyone till she was standing next to me, "listen here Christy this is your opportunity to become popular, I must have forgotten to... tell you but don't make a scene out of nothing." She shrugged.

I looked at the boy who was staring at me with a frown. I really don't wanna stay around him, boys can be dangerous, that I know, and this place is kinda crowded with people who can't stop making out, gross!

"Sorry I can't." I said sheepishly.

"Lilly, you'd promised if I stay away from you I can have any girl I want! what is this bullshit?!" Derrick roared.

"Wo! Lilly what the hell is he talking about what business do you have with Derrick?!" Steve yelled demanding for an explanation.

Lilly was red on the face she glared at me.

"This is all your fault! I guess you'll stay a virgin all your life, saint Mary! Oh let's not forget how you would wear those rags wandering in the halls, you just missed your opportunity." Her words stung with venom and sank deep in my heart.

"I -I don't mean it like that." I really want to be part of those girls but they're asking too much, I just can't have a boy near me, least touch me, I'm not a sexist, neither a lesbian, I just don't want anything to do with boys. yet.

"You don't have your place here, you can't be like us, you're too much of a nun!" Zoe spat.

"But you said I -"

"Forget that! We just wanted to use you, even at entertaining a boy you suck, I bet you're only good at holding a chaplet." Lilly mocked and everyone was laughing, I felt tears welled up in my eyes, and creep down my checks.

"Aww did we hurt Mary?" Zoe fake a pout.

How stupid I was for letting them influence me. I ran out of the luxurious house pushing pass people trying to block their words by so doing.

She is fat, is she from a Catholic school? Is she still a Virgin? That sucks!

I didn't care about where I was going or how ignorant I was of this location, I just wanted to get far away from them, as possible!

I sobbed as I ran down the street to no where. My little marathon came to an end as I tripped and fell.

"Ow!" I cried out, my pant was now stain by mud, and everywhere was dark, I only saw silhouette of trees from the reflection of the moon light, underneath me was dried leaves from how the prick my skin under my jeans pant.

I got up and tried to brush my Jeans while wiping my eyes, I looked around blankly, not like I could see much from how dark it was.

My heart start to pound when I discover how lost I was, I should have stayed at home and forget about the party they were just trying to ditch me, mum was right anyway they are bitches!

I just hate it when I can't do stuffs and people mock me. Is not my fault if I don't know cardi B or Zayn Malik I wasn't brought up that way, Mum wouldn't let me listen to other music than hill songs and others! Is just dumb! If I listen to 'tell me you love me' or others I wouldn't sell my soul to the devil!

The huge Crack from the branches snapped me out of my thoughts, I freak out, springing on my feet and start running not knowing what was after me. All I had in mind was the what ifs! I duck past the trees and branches and ran further in the woods.

I slipped and rolled down a sliding soil, the rocks and dried switch hurting my skin, I screamed as I fell, then I knock my head on a rock and pass out.