Chapter 1

Chapter 1

Being a Famous Writer is not what a wanna be in the first place. Cause all in All, I Just want to Write Down all my Stories in my head. I Just want to create my own World where all my dreams comes to truth, and lasly, I-I Just Want to escape this life...

"TanTan!?— TanTan!? Where are you!? Are you asleep?" I get panict when i heard my Mother Voice. She can't see me Writing again or else she will Sell my Laptop throu online group! Again! Argh! I must hide this real quick or else i will not update my Ongoing Story for a Month!

"TanTan?" My Mother Call my name once again but its different, cause now. She's stepping into my room. And with the look she gave to me and the way her scent sting even from this far. Door to my Bed.

I Can literally tell that she's drunk. Again.

I blow a deep breath and walk to her. "Mom, Are you drinking with the guys over the street again? " My tone was calm for now, cause i know if i scold her now their is no a good ending for us.

My Mom Laugh and tackled my arms as if i'm not fucking serious. "TanTan, What's up to you this Nigh?...hmm? Do you think.... Your Mom Is, Drunk— Worgh!!"

I sigh before sullen look to my Mom who's now vomit my Shirt with some blessing of her. Now, this is the endline. "Mommmm!!!! "

"I Told You Mom Stop drinking! Right!? Why won't you listen to me!? " We are here now to her room. I'm Cleaning her with some wet towel i used when she is drunk. "Look at What you do to my Shirt! Argh, Now i'm gonna re-sched my laundry day Tomorrow, Thanks Mom. " I Sarcasticly said that make my Mom Laugh,

"Is That Shirt came from your Dad? "She ask that make me Stun for a bit of second. And With that she get her Own Answer either. "No Wonder, Its look like expensive. " She Smirk at my pout face.

"That Bastard, If he think i can't compete with him in gifting you expensive things then he's Wrong! tsk. " My Mom Said out of the blue that make my eyes shine like a diamond shape.

"R-Really Mom!? Y-You Would gift me!?" I Ask unconsiously. she Nod two times while crossing her arms with pride. "Ofcourse! I'm your Mom TanTan! If your father can give expensive things, then i can do that too! " She Said with strenth that make my eyes shine even more.

"But Ofcourse its not this year, Your Mom is a jobless person, right? so maybe someday i can make true that promise. " My Mom voice became so thin and sad with those words even its feel sarcasm.

"If Only Your Dad did not left me and go with the Other Guy M-Maybe i'm still me before. Happy and Motivated for the sake of my family. Not this D-Drunked woman every day and a hindrance to my precious Son. " Now Her tears cannot fall back to her eyes. its flowing down right away like a river in a mountain that make me feel sad every day i see my Mom crying with the same reason and with the same person that she can't let go over the years.

"Mom, P-Please, let go Dad. H-He is Happy with Tito Lucas now. Please be happy too with your life and not this one. " I plead to my Mother who's now looking at me angrily.

"Its Easy for you to say that, but its fucking hurt here!" She pointed her heart. "-And how i can forget your Father did to me when my own Son is showing a gay personality. " The last she said was a whisper but i literally hear that loud and clear.

Mom pointing is about Writing. She believe writing novels is a gay personality. She said that to me last year when she found out that i'm a writer. That's Why she doesn't allow me to write again cause she remembering the sin of my Father to her.

And for the second time i heard it again, My Personality and my Conscience is at war now in my head. Fighting of what i am and who i am. cause all in all, I don't see my future with a girl but in a man arms. happy and full of loved bonds.

But i know this is not Right. For the Society not either but in the Eyes of my Mom it is, And if i tell her now that i'm into guys and not with the girls, I know she cannot handle the shock and the pain anymore so i must hide it along side with being a Writer.

"Mom, Its Time to sleep. I have classes tomorrow and its Midnight Already, Goodnight."

To Be Continue...

Trivias#1

'TanTan' is a cute name for our Nathan, That been called to 'her' by her Parents and close friends,

Drinking with side streets with guys in the middle of the night is legit in the Philippines,

Byeeee! Mhuahhh

XD <3

A/N: Tagalog is start in Chapter 6 :*