1 Wally-san

On his day-off, Wally-san planned last night to go to the bathhouse at the morning since he wanted to have the whole place for himself for once. When he got there, he was met with the expected. Sure enough, no one was here in the morning but, regardless, the house was open with only one employee.

"Good morning, Makkun!"

"W-Wally-san! G-good m-morning, Sir!"

Wally-san greeted a young man that got out of the employee restroom in the back of the reception desk. It must have been the sound of the chime on the door that made him notice that there was a customer outside.

The young man, Makkun, was flustered to see Wally-san at this time of the day, since usually Wally-san takes his baths by the night just like other customers. Makkun couldn't believe it. Who would've thought that Wally-san, his special person, of all people would be here alone.

He was a young adult that looked around his early 20s. he had black hair and dark brown eyes, with creamy white skin that looked foreign to Wally-san's but he never noticed it till today. He thought it might be from a Turkish origins but he didn't want to ask anything about it.

"Yes, I will be having my bath right now."

"Uhm! O-Of course, h-have a great time, Wally-san!"

"Thank you. I will, hehe. By the way, is the place empty right now?"

"Oh. Ah, Yes! It's usually, um, not open at this time but..."

Makkun was head over heels for Wally-san for a long time by now. If there's ever a way for him to make Wally-san happy then he will do it without consideration of his own suffering. The reason is simple yet complicated once you start explaining the reasons behind his extreme love and admiration for Wally-san.

Usually the bathhouse is only open after evening so they could cut down on the energy since not many people will have time to go in the morning in the first place. Mostly they are not missing any potential customers by doing so. Technically, the bathhouse was still closed but there's no sign to mention that on the door. Makkun would have to go some days early in the morning to clean up the house alone and while he did finish the bathrooms, there was still more cleaning needed in the locker rooms and the mahjong room. The main door for the shop should be closed but Makkun needed to open it to let the air circulate.

Makkun was embarrassed to tell Wally-san why the bathhouse door was open, and so he simply welcomed him to the bathhouse because he couldn't turn him off for any reason. That would kill Makkun's heart for sure.

"since the boss isn't satisfied with the current fiscal year, he thought it would be better to open early."

"huh... I didn't know that bathhouses have fiscal years..."

Wally-san was wondering why would a local bath have any interest in following a business plan. But obviously, Makkun was lying to hide the fact that he left the door open.

"I, uhm, yes. It is weird... Hehe."

"Must be hard on Yamazaki-san to have a business and take care of everything including his employees' livelihood, huh?"

"I don't mind, honestly. I like the boss, and I owe him a lot. So it's not a real bother to help him with everything."

Even though these were Makkun's real feelings, he did feel bad about casually pronouncing them in a conversation that was not real. Makkun does feel grateful for his boss since he was a complete idiot when he started working here. So he doesn't mind opening the shop early to begin with. Then again, Makkun is still not sure what his feelings towards his boss really mean. But, what he does know is that his feelings for Wally-san are much stronger.

"Well, It's really great to hear that. I will see you later. If it gets lonely, you wouldn't mind joining me when you done with everything else, hehehe!"

With a heart warming smile and a laughter that tore Makkun's heart in agony, Wally-san headed to the locker rooms. Makkun laughed genuinely, as always, to whatever funny thing Wally-san said this time. It didn't matter if it was the most unfunny thing he's ever heard, Makkun would love nothing more than to have any excuse to vent out his extreme happiness when Wally-san talks to him. Smiling is a completely logical method to hint that you clearly enjoy someone's presence around you.

ーUnfortunately, his smile came into an abrupt end as soon as he became alone.

"JOIN?! HIM!?! ME?! ALONE?!! NAKED?!!!"

It was currently more logical in Makkun's mind to take off all his clothes and run out of the shop than to join Wally-san for a bath...

"Just what was Wally-san even saying?! Was it a joke? Clearly it was a joke! I mean... he clearly wanted the bathhouse all for himself, right? He wouldn't know that I was here in the first place, would he? No, no, no, of course not…!"

It was that time again for one of those obsession-powered confusions and nitpicking that Makkun would have to suffer through after talking with Wally-san about anything that had the slightest chance of doing anything together. Even though he was smart enough to realize what he was doing, he knew also that he was too weak to force himself to not overthink stuff that Wally-san would say.

Makkun also knew that Wally-san would never have came here because Makkun was alone this morning. It simply made no sense. It was more believable that he was only joking around about joining him and it was only coincidence that Makkun had been the one cleaning up today.

Deep down Makkun knew all that. Deep down he understood that Wally-san is someone who has no interest in him. He knew that it was all in his head from the beginning. But he was too weak to give up on this little happiness he had in this world that was against him. He can't come out yet to anyone; his family would cut him off completely. He loved his family, yet he couldn't bare the fact that he was a complete disgrace to them and he needed to give up on them completely if he is to pursue that lonesome road that claims happiness yet for some reason he's not sure of, he just can't swallow that claim.

He knew already. As if he went through that path before, glittering with life and promising with happiness, but for Makkun, it was more closer to burning everything he holds dear for that path of freedom. Coming out wasn't an option. He would have to let go of Wally-san and all the people that he knows and maybe no one would ever hire him again. Who knows? No one can tell, and hence no one including Makkun, that he has accepted the suffering of this World. Because he had things he wanted to protect, because whatever was up in that path filled him with fear and ushered in his heart complete blindness that said to him: "what he has right now is surely more valuable". He also knows that he will surely wonder what would it be like there for the rest of his pathetic life. But he would forgive himself when he regrets it at the end of his days.

But...

After monologuing, Makkun wasn't aware of how much his heart was damaged. It was all of the big talk about doing the right thing to make everyone happy with him, that was eating Makkun's heart along with his soul too. Once Wally-san left the reception and went inside, Makkun's heart was torn down to its final threads and it finally understood that it will never heal and it finally realized that its owner completely abandoned it. And so, it needed to end it all... It needed a break, a separation from this reality. Either be it death or anything else, it was not going anywhere until it completely was satisfied with an answer...

It was his heart alone that took that decision. The decision to take Wally-san on his offer. It was the madness and insufferable agony that his heart was in that made Makkun move subconsciously towards where Wally-san headed first.

"hm? Why am I walking? Huh, I think it's not really me anymore... More like, I don't have much control right now. I guess that's fine then. Whether it goes well or not, maybe dying selfishly wouldn't be such a bad thing after all. I mean, I do deserve it for at least trying to be a good kid and an employee, right?"

All these unusual feelings and questions were racing into Makkun's mind as he was taking off his clothes in the locker room. His brain was completely done, his mind won't turn around anymore. It's all what his heart always desired and he couldn't change that. He was contempt with whatever fate throws at him for what he is about to do. It's because he can't keep fighting himself anymore and because he knew that it was now or never. There was no way Makkun's heart could live this fake existence anymore. It needed the answers behind that door and it needed them from the special person in there. Because, Makkun's heart was right now, a heart with unparalleled will.

As he stood naked in that locker room, he grabbed the slide door and hesitated. It was the death of a dear friend of his, his self that fought ever so long for him to stay in the shadows. He apologized to himself before sliding the door and proclaiming along it the death of his efforts and helpless sad self.

When he slid the door open, the warmth of the steam from the bath comforted his extremely anxious soul, along with smothering his sensitive body with the conditions needed to escalate any human near for some awful desires he longed for his whole life. Makkun was now certain that he needs to satisfy himself with the other person inside the bath no matter what the consequences will be, disrespecting himself and worst of all disrespecting the person that he had so much admiration for.

To him, it was do or die. He was seriously contemplating the end of his life, after this wish that he wanted ever so badly to fulfill. He knew that he was filled up with hormones and that he wasn't like that in reality but he also knew that he can't stop his disgusting self. He made his peace and walked inside and reached a heavenly sight that made him make peace with his end.

Makkun witnessed a fat, manly nude figure with a above average belly curve inside the hot spring... snoring. The position where its chest would be looked rather bigger than what a man would have but certainly less fatty than what a woman would. It was everything he couldn't even dream of. That figure was as peaceful and angelic as nothing Makkun's ever seen. That snoring, lovely figure belonged to Wally-san. Makkun was done with everything and tearing up from seeing that special person in his life. He wanted to make something happen with him but he can't lie to himself anymore. There was never going to be anything that will happen between Wally-san and himself. That's why Makkun decided that he shall atone for the crime he's about to commit against his beloved Wally-san by killing himself after having his virginity lost by none other than Wally-san. Makkun never even thought of violating his beloved at all. He wanted to give him his body to make sure that he was not going to regret it if he never knew whether Wally-san wants him that way. He didn't see the hypocrisy of his actions. If he really wanted to know, then there were many other ways possible. Yet, he picked the worst one.

Hesitantly, Makkun approached the main bath in the center where Wally-san was, and he was astonished by what he saw under the water.

"Wally-san… I just can't believe how badly it is now… I… I want to do this now"

What Makkun was talking about wasn't anything wrong with Wally-san. It was his erection… Wally-san wasn't very active in that area and it didn't seem like he was looking for a partner either. It was most likely because he wasn't ready to financially support a family, that was also his traditional approach to the picture of a healthy family… or so Makkun thought. "If you are going to build a family, then you can't figure it out midway; that's how divorces happen" something Makkun's father would always say when someone started talking about marriage. Makkun was sure that phrase would be agreed upon by Wally-san as well. But…

Makkun: "Wally-san is already in his early forties… "

Was it really his financial conditions? It is not unheard of for citizens nowadays to completely forfeit their hopes of building a family with their loved one from the ground up, since it takes at least around 28 million yens to support a child till college graduation. Anyone would find that extremely sacrificial and the kid just grows up resenting you for not being around at all for work's sake. But, who really knows what your child will even grow up to be?

"No, this was not it", Makkun thought. He just assumed that because he wanted to believe that Wally-san was not interested in women in the first place. It was at least comforting to assume that. He was just going to convince himself that it is the truth until at least he finished what he set out to do right now. He already accepted his fate and is going through with it no matter what.

"Wait! There's still time to back out!". That was completely true. Makkun still has time and because of that he could still pretend like he literally was here for a bath. But, Makkun never thought of that at all, it was only his subconscious that was aware of that fact. Makkun was never planning to hesitate after he slid that door open, and all his consciousness was left there waiting to torture him and drive him to his end when he was done here.

Makkun was glad that Wally-san had an erection already, he didn't have much to do after getting it up except to ready his hole to endure it. He started applying some kind of lotion he kept hidden inside the bath. The reason for it being here was to be kept a secret to all minds, and Makkun was planning on taking the events that happens in this bath alone when all customers leave to his grave. Needless to say, Makkun's explicit fetishes all take place in a bath setting. "This is the kind of person I am, so no wonder I don't deserve to live". This is how Makkun rationalizes his actions.

Makkun finally sits foot inside the bath and approaches the sleeping Wally-san from the front, very quietly that his breaths are not heard. The possibility of Wally-san waking up is only growing the more he's approached. Makkun was well aware of that but he also knew that Wally-san might have stayed up a lot the previous night to get a chance to sleep in the bath, since he heard that Wally-san loves to do that but it's inappropriate for understandable reasons.

Makkun: "Please, be wet dreaming, please…"

Slowly, very slowly, Makkun tries to make measures as to make out where Wally-san's crossed legs are from his direct vertical viewpoint, which is difficult because the angle of the light will be different from water to air. He's trying not to think of the mortality of the situation that he is in. Wally-san is snoring while he's face is directed upward leaning his entire body against the wall of the bath and he's warm breathing can be felt by Makkun's genitals, exciting Makkun.

Makkun: "There's absolutely no way to back out now, this situation is far from explainable"

ーThis is it.

Makkun, shakingly, puts his hands on Wally-san's shoulders for support. He senses the delicate, yet manly figure of Wally-san's shoulders with complete contempt of his actions, wishing death on his disgusting self and internally apologizing for the Middle-aged man he would give his life for. He senses the hypocrisy of his proclaimed sacrifice and slowly bends his kneecaps entering the water. Very cautiously, Makkun tries to place Wally-san's erection inside himself, wishing that it enters smoothly and easy without need of his hand to guide it, and it does. Wally-san's penis is not thick but has a normal length to it. It completely slips inside of Makkun thanks to the lubrication applied beforehand, and not a single inch was left outside. Makkun is in a entirely new kind of pain, so difficult to comprehend at a moment of intense shock and panic. His own penis and balls had no place to stay except hardly pressed with lubricant against Wally-san's belly which made it even more difficult of a situation. Makkun subconsciously tried to ease his pain but before he knew how much the shock was catastrophic on his own body, his legs gave up from extreme terror and pain and collapsed leaving Makkun in an impossible situation and at the mercy of his own desires.

Makkun thought: "I'm dead now either way, might as well go out with no regrets."

His arms still aren't dead yet. His genitals are pressed with no way else but he enjoyed it. He hugged him with all his remaining strength and heart, and started moving his legs with everything he got… gasping for air in the hot steam, Makkun's insides are pushed further in with Wally-san's throbbing cock making him groan with unique clash between pleasure, desire, pain and fear. Simultaneously, Makkun's penis is rubbing against Wally-san's very defined round belly, erecting it quickly with heat and devastating pressure.

WHEN SUDDENLY! And while he was completely enslaved by his own desires, Makkun heard…

"Uwegh… Ughhaa… Whwegh?! … Wha…?!"

… a familiar yet panicked voice to him… It was a half-awakened Wally-san with an awful and depressing voice that felt like he was expressing the most enjoyable and failed torture in his life. To him the world should've resumed in his fantasies, an alternate harmless world of wish granting dreams where no one could nor is allowed to enter nor look at it except with Wally-san's permission… And Makkun ruthlessly shattered it… NOT!

Wally-san was asleep while dreaming of his fantasies. Fantasies about holding someone in his arms and being joined together in love, which is why he was erect. He was a very simple man. He only wanted someone to hold him just like those romantic movies he watches alone while being peer pressured into hiding it from his circle of friends. This was the sad existence of Wally-san. Brought up in a traditional family, any kind of unusual feelings that he might have developed were nothing to be taken seriously and shoved down in his heart for the better of the family as a whole. To be in a questionable relationship is to bring shame to his family, and pride was everything for them. But, being single in his forties also brought him sore eyes from his family, interrogating him of selling his pride to satisfy his lust and desires. His friends also believed that but were happy that he was still playing around in his age while most of them are already married while the others just sleeping around. Wally-san never denied what his father accused him of and laughed it off as he was hanging out with his friends and Makkun heard him multiple times before.

Wally-san: "Haaa… Haaugh.. Uh.. UHH!"

He was still convinced that he was dreaming or he only fooled himself to believe that to hide his shame of longing to finish himself off. His eyes teared up, red faced, fully shamed by his own desires, he wanted to continue, believing that it was not his fault and believing that it was all a dream. A wish that was never coming true.

Wally-san, without noticing, started grabbing onto the body embracing his naked self. Full of confusion and mixed emotions, he only had control of his own consciousness while his body moved on its own. Makkun gifted his body for Wally-san's desires that Wally-san's body was truly moving on its own to make use of that gift immediately. The old body of a man that never spoiled his pride before and one that was being spoiled by the only man that ever truly loved him. Wally-san's and Makkun's bodies were extremely sensitive because of it being their first time and they were both close on finishing off.

Makkun: "haa haa haa Haaa haa Wally! Wally! Wally!"

They're completely embracing each other. Makkun leaning in onto Wally-san and firmly hugging him with his eyes loosely focused, as if he's trying selfishly to keep hold of someone he doesn't want to be separated from ever again. As if he was looking for a part of his heart that he forgot that it existed till now, and fearing that he would never find it again if he lets go.

Wally-san: "I… I-I'm.. is this… it?!... I can't… It… It's Haa hhaa Aaah…"

With only a little before he climaxes, Wally-san noticed the call of someone he knows, which he couldn't believe it was that person's voice, calling for his name with yearning and lust. He only now realized that it was all real and Makkun was the warm, soft body on top of his cock. He was now really ready to go, clutching Makkun's body with all his emotions in place and moving his left arm down to grab his partner's right rear and moving his right arm a little up to press Makkun into his chest harder as a way to say: "thank you for letting me inside of you" and a little part of Wally wanted to make Makkun feel that he wasn't going to face the world alone once he realizes what he has done.

Both:" AaaAAAAAAAAAAAAAaaaahhhhhh!!!"

They finished together. Makkun's loins were filled with Wally-san's hot sperm, it was very warm and thick as if it was cream from a new bottle. Makkun came on Wally-san's stomach so intense that Wally-san had felt it like a jet that drove over his belly with no difference in heat between it and hot water that it came out into. They were still hugging for the moments that followed ejaculation, breathing heavily pressed against each other's naked warm skin.

Makkun finally was released from his libido that enslaved him and came back to his senses to truly understand how fucked up he really was. He had made a continuous disregard of all moral principles and took advantage of his own weakness and of the middle-aged man that he wanted for so long. This was not a case where he could blame it on his urges or desires. This was the result of his own weakness at rejecting the monster inside of him, punishable by death, he thought. But, it was not really. That was just Makkun's excuse to escape from the reality of what he has committed and trying to erase it by convincing himself that atoning for a crime like this will bring him back to being the human he once were this morning. The human that he murdered already before sliding that door. This was also a wishful thinking.

People can't really atone for their sins. Sins are a part of the monstrous creature inside the hearts of all humans, and they can't disappear by atonement. The sins are actions that people commit and they pay for it by easing the chains of the monster inside of them and the more sinful a person becomes the more of a monster they transform into.

As he realized that he needs to let go of the body he was clinching, Makkun's heart was about to be split from sorrow and despair. He thought that he could do it, that he could let go of everything for Wally-san and then immediately end it all somewhere where no one can see his monstrous self off, and he truly believed it. But, Makkun didn't take into account that he has to leave what he has finally found and what he has always wanted forever. He was disgusted with himself but his heart couldn't let go of Wally-san's embrace. He wished it could last forever and he was aware of how unbelievably monstrous he had become, to ask for more when he has already took by force what was never hisー

Wally-san: "Makkun… Is it… ?"

Makkun's eyes open wide. His whole body was exhausted and needed breathing, but when he heard that question, he couldn't make a sound. His body was really there still on top of Wally-san's with his insides still enveloping his privates. Makkun was frozen in fear of what will happen. He was such a coward that he just wished death upon himself to escape the world where Wally-san wishes him eternal torture for what he has done to him. He knew that he stole something that no one could recover and could not be priced or replaced.

He only wished that it could be a little merciful. He was aware that people like him should never have their wishes granted anymore. Wally-san grabs Makkun from below his arms and adjusts the boy on top of him to face each other. Wally-san's penis slips out in the process while Makkun's penis is still against Wally-san's round stomach. Their eyes finally meet, Makkun's heart throbs at how beautiful Wally-san's green eyes are and Wally-san sees his reflection in Makkun's dark eyes, full of despair and regret. They were eyes that are easy to look at, and simply they spelled sorrow with an unfiltered apologetic expression. What do you say to someone whose balls are pressed on your belly button and your dick was just inside of them?

Makkun and Wally-san were both breathing heavily giving that the hot steam was preventing regular oxygen from them. But, Makkun started breathing better than Wally-san and stared at him breathing while mesmerized by his green eyes… Full of adrenaline, he otherwise wouldn't ask anything from someone he technically raped. He did not notice that Wally-san did want it by the end too but he had to ask him… he did notice that Wally-san's right arm had pushed him at the end in to further squeeze him into his flesh but he also was just assuming that that's what people do in the heat of the moment.

It was not enough for him to believe that Wally-san had any feelings for him specifically. Anyone would be excited to have anybody embrace them if they're having sex for the first time… Makkun noticed that Wally-san goes to this bathhouse which is inconveniently far from his apartment but he only did because his other friends were going too and he would have to go to a smaller one near his house instead. So, why did Wally-san come to this far bathhouse alone?

Makkun: "I… I don't ask for forgiveness, but I need to know if you wanted it too at the end?"

Wally-san: "... "

Makkun: "... I… sor.. I-I have to go"

ーThis was it.

After Wally-san had nothing to say, Makkun finally understood that his life needs to end and he quickly tried to get his legs to start moving again from their slumber. He immediately pulled himself up and got out of the waー But, he couldn't… Something was pulling him in. No, a hand was holding onto his right arm. Yet, it did not pull him in either.

Wally-san's was not entirely sure why, but what he was doing was something that he thought that he had given up on long ago when he first started having these feelings. He truly believed that if he let go of Makkun now that it would be over for sure and then he wouldn't be able to keep his promise…

Wally-san: "... I a … Mak … wai...t. "

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