1 Unnamed Pains

she sat near the mattress in tears,tongue tied ,hurt, feeling empty.How could you do this to us ,our love and the beautiful memories we share together.We made promises to each other but you didn't keep them and you have the audacity to stand infront of me to say sorry when you did what you did with a huge,fat smile on your face and you are not showing remorse for your actions ,she shouted.

"Keabetswe ,stop, please let me explain it's not what it seems like, said Sanjay beggingly.

Sanjay ran to kea and held her tight so much that she couldn't breathe.She tried to fight him and escape from him but she couldn't her love for him prevailed and made her feeble.She felt so weak unable to move a muscle and said"Tell me the honest truth".Slowly and gentle he let her go,wiped her tears kissed her forehead and said"please forgive me"those words made her so frail and she broke down into tears.He carried her to bed and sat by her side until she was calm.

She walked into the shower stood there while water ran down her body with questions running through her head with no one to answer them.He walked in stood behind her"Am sorry"He whispered.

She turned and looked at him,her tears were hidden by the water running down her face.She felt a resentment within her and she wanted to let the monster in her to awaken .He carried her and laid her on the bed and affectionately stared deeply into her round blue eyes.Her heartbeat was like a horse racing,heavily breathing.She rose up grabbed her night robe and tied her hair up.Sanjay rushed to stop her from leaving the room.He stood infront of her "kiss me"He said lusting over her touch.She was yearning for his touch.Her skin was soft as saple.At that juncture she wanted nothing more than him.His hands on her skin made her loose her morals it made her weak,made her give in.No"She replied.She opened the door and ran.She wanted to run away from this agitation.Her eyes were filled with tears,her vision blurry but she didn't stop running.She ran towards the lake her favourite place.A place she went to for tranquil and undisturbed peace.

The water was as silent as the night,the breeze brushed through her face making her calm and relaxed.She felt good,relaxed and unburdened.

She laid down on the grass looking at the sky.The clouds were shaped in different ways.She saw a unicorn,she looked on her left she saw a flower,you would swear she was loosing her mind.Finally a smile appeared and she looked good wearing that smile.

Her smile brought warmth,it brightened the room.The world became better when she smiled.She melted his heart when he captured her smiled.

For a moment she felt content. Finally she could think though her feelings were clouding her senses.

kea!keabetswe she heard voices shouting her name.Her heart raced.It was Sanjay and his friends desperately searching for his better half.Where could she be?He knew her favourite place but doubted she could be there under the circumstances so just to be sure he decided to go and find her.

Kea I have apologized profusely but you are still crying.My angel I know words won't make you smile nor will they take away the pain I have inflicted on you but please calm down."You are my world"he said looking deep into her eyes,My angel and my smile keeper.Wipe those tears now and come with me I beg of you.Come with me back to the house and we will talk about this,I want to make things right.He stood up and have her a hand.They walked side by side but she was as silent as the night.

Sanjay called out Willowy."hey I have been looking for you glad I found you.Can I have a word she said looking at him,she didn't even acknowledge the fact that Kea was right there standing next to him.He turned steadily towards her,"Go,I will be in the room when you get back"she said walking away.