14 14 - (Sebastian) Another "normal" day ...
That's what I thought ...
(Aug.27, 2018)
04:30 PM
* drawing a flower on my notebook
In the end, Ellyn didn't show up. Until Friday, I gave some excuse for me to come home early, hoping she would show up here. But every day, I arrived and I saw the clothes in the same place where I put them for her to see and use. And I kept waiting until I got to sleep, but nothing.
Yesterday, Ian and Stella called me, asking if I could go out with them to some place, so we spent time together talking like before Ian's "accidental onslaught" with her, but I ended up refusing in the expectation of Ellyn showing up. But it was the same thing.
Today...
- Man, she was very brave to have shown up in front of the school.
Ian came here to spend a few hours here, talking to me, reading some of my mangas or playing some online game with me. His presence is not the best, but I feel more relaxed talking with him than with Stella and Naomi implicitly wanting to rip my leather off.
- I would say audacious, but you are more right.
- Dude, you're lucky.
- Since when having the possibility of being beaten by a girl lucky?
- It depends. There will always be people who like it. Maybe you are one of those.
- You and your misrepresented thoughts about me ...
- But now, seriously ... How did you feel when she appeared there?
- I was surprised. And desperate. And nervous!
Ian is looking at me with a suspicious face ...
- You can say a thousand things to Stella and Naomi, but for me that I can find a girl who sells foot pictures for pervets , I have a conviction that you and this lady ... Ellyn ... You two had something like a secret.
- Why do you insist on that? I was just helping her .
- Of course, that's what is expected of you. But did you need to make it too clear? Like, the way you said it to them, it seemed very desperated.
- Desperated because I couldn't face Naomi, much less Stella, who looked like she was going to rip my leather off.
- Dude, they would accept one time or another. It's not like it hasn't happened before.
- Yeah. The difference is that now ...
* looking to the side
- ( laughs ) Ownt ~~ You're worried about what Naomi thinks of you, right?
- ( sigh ) Is that so in my face?
- I bet 5 dollars that almost everyone at school already knows that you are slightly interested in Naomi. - And you would win easy ...
- The concept of privacy no longer works for me ...
- I agree, but this is no longer your fault. Even because everyone prefers she calm down with you than tossing a fan of paper on everyone .
- Since when did I become a line of defense?
- What I mean is that ... Why did this Ellyn decide to appear now and why do you think you needed to pay attention to her instead of Naomi?
Honestly, I'm getting tired of having to lie about Ellyn to my friends, especially Naomi, who doesn't think I'm a liar.
- Ian, it's a Ellyn's personal thing.
- And because it is personal, did you just decide to listen to her, even after a few years without seeing each other? - Worse than Ian is smarter than Stella.
- Yeah. That's why things were going to be so complicated for me to say to them.
- Dude, you have to go for it. It is not wrong to help people, but there must be a limit to that. - I can understand that point, but it is much more complicated if I told the truth.
- You look like Naomi talking to me about it.
- No. I had to be more curvy and have those ... - Ian started to make a gesture with his hands near his chest, so I understood what he meant and I feel that my hand wants to punch him in the face .
- Ian.
- Sorry ~~ But look ... If even she, who is a little slow, noticed and already told you, why don't you try?
...
- I dont know...
- Sebastian, the only bad thing that can happen is you think more about what you doing and it is not so wrong if you choose the most calm and rational way.
- Do you think so?
- ( laughs ) Look at me. I only need to bury myself on the floor every time Stella is leaning against me and that is why I didn't stop talking to her or anyone else. I stay the same , even when I finally accepted that I fell for Stella. So, if I am the most unreasonable and I help as I can, why wouldn't you do the same?
For a few seconds, I was thinking about what Ian said. I don't usually think about what I doing because the person may not want my help. Generally, those who ask me for help there at school are students who have forgotten something or are unable to do certain things that they themselves don't have the will or courage to do. It is not as if they are very fresh people , but it is that depending on how they think about the things they do, it may seem like an offense or something more complex that only they would understand. When someone like my help, they feel protected or safe from their dilemmas. And it is only for a few minutes that they can realize that it is worth trying .
* looking at Ian
- Sebastian, if you're going to kiss me, at least take me to dinner first.
- ( laughs ) Go to hell, go!
- But then ... Will you try?
- Not dinner. To think before helping , yes.
- Hehe ~~ Good ... But please, forget the kiss part.
- You joking and still have a foot behind. You huh ...
After that, Ian and I talked about the school and some other things, like anime, mangas, series and things like that. In general, it was a good afternoon of conversation and helped me to see some things. I think I owe him a cookie instead of dinner ...
...
(Aug. 28, 2018)
06:00 AM
- Pass the butter, head of the wind.
- It's there, Cassie.
* passing the butter to Cassie
Apparently, things are normal. Cassie cursing me affectionately, my mom having breakfast with us and my dad getting ready to go to his work . In addition, I already received "Good morning, Sebastian ~~" with stickers from Naomi and my "Wake up, you bastard!" from Stella and Ian. As much as the beginning of last week was very "crowded", I think this week will be a little quiet. Of course Cassie is still curious about Ellyn, but I don't think that will be a problem for her. Even because ... I 'm not sure that Ellyn will return.
- We are going!
- Take care, you two!
- Alright, mom.
After a few minutes, Cassie and I ended up leaving the house and I already see Ian in front of the house waiting for me to go to school together, looking like a ship moment that some girls at our school are saying to me and him sometimes.
We were walking at the same slow speed, talking about some things from school and other things that he likes like that cute dwarf Komi-san, I think that's the way it is said. I only read about 20 chapters of her manga and I admit I liked it. But it was long enough to get to school. Anyway ... Another "normal" day ...
03: 40 PM
After the bell rang, I received a message from Naomi asking me to go to the student council room because she had a request to make. For me to go there, I bet it's helping a club with something specific. Coming from her it seems ironic, but I have to take into account that it is her order as president of the student council, so I don't have much to do.
...
* knoc knoc
- Come in.
- Good afternoon everyone ~~
I greet the members and they end up greeting me back. From the way they are moving, I think they are very busy and Naomi must also be because of some papers piled up on her desk.
- Good afternoon, Sebastian ~~
- So why did you call me?
- Sebastian, this request I'm going to make is on behalf of the student council. - I got it right.
- Fine. What it is?
- Well, the teachers announced that during this week there will be a collective cleaning for all the rooms used by the students, including the clubs , and the students will be able to help with the cleaning to receive obrigatory hours for extracurricular activities. Because of this, they have made a calendar for the days that the rooms will be cleaned.
- Everyone is here tidying up the room. - One of the members ended up talking loudly for me to hear.
- Got it. And I'm here because I'm going to have to clean some room, right?
- Well, some students who are not club members are going to be asked to clean in some rooms chosen by the teachers . However ... There is a specific room that I would like to ask you to help with cleaning.
- Fine. What's the room?
* knoc knoc
- Come in.
I look back and ...
- G- Good afternoon, President Naomi.
- Good afternoon, Claire . Come on.
I wonder if coincidence is something on purpose or something that will follow me throughout my life. .. I think the first option seems more right for me.
- Claire, this is Sebastian. That was what I was talking about. - Naomi and her way of talking about me behind my back ...
- Nice to meet you, Claire ~~
I extend my hand to Claire, but she steps aside, looking a little afraid .
- S-Sorry . Nice to meet you...
- Sebastian, I would like you to help clean the room used by the Club of Supernatural Studies . - Naomi speaks calmly and I'm sure I'll help.
- Fine.
- A-Are you sure, Naomi? - Damn, she must be very afraid of me ...
- Yes. Besides, Sebastian is not the type to make excuses for not doing something. - I thought it was cool and offensive at the same time.
- Relax, Claire. I help with what I can.
- O-Okay.
- Then you can go. When finished, you two come here for me to register that you are cooperating with the collective cleaning, right?
- Right, ma'an.
...
Claire and I are walking side by side towards her club room. One thing that catches my attention is her walk. She looks like she's withdrawn, placing her right hand on her left arm, as if she's afraid of me. I don't know why, but I think it has to do with that mess they made with her last year.
* looking at Claire
The funny thing is that she doesn't seem to be one of those withdrawn girls that I see in some media. Claire has short brown hair , she measures my shoulder height, she has a normal body for a teenager of her age, but she has dark circles under her eyes and her way of walking makes her look like a scared little girl all the time.
- S-Sebastian ... - And her voice sounds very feminine, but in a slightly depressed tone .
- Yes, Claire?
- I didn't need to accept it just because it was requested by the president.
- Relax, Claire. Don't think I'm doing it just because she asked me to. I would help you if you asked.
- O-okay... So... I thought you would help your classmates on cleaning your classroom.
- Actually, the people in my class threw me out. - Anger because I denounce those who keep throwing garbage on the floor.
- R-Really ?
- Ah, taking the part of the exaggeration and replacing it with "they forced me by free and spontaneous pressure"
- I-I see ...
- But ... What about your club people? Will they help with cleaning?
- N-No. They don't go. - Huh ?
- Why?
- W- Well, the club room was not included in the cleaning schedule. And to guarantee their hours, they will clean their rooms or other rooms that they need. - It must be because of the bad image created by the other students of her club.
- And do you intend to clean your club room even if it is not on the calendar?
- Y-Yeah...
Now I understand why Naomi asked me to do this. Not being on the calendar, the club does not receive cleaning and this will not provide such obrigatory hours for members.
- Well , I'll do my best.
- N-No need. I can clean it up, but I need someone to push the heavy stuff out of there.
- I understand, but I help other things anyway.
- T-Thank you , Sebastian. ..
...
* looking at the whole room
I've seen themed rooms because of school festivals that have had here at school, but if that participate room of the best decorated room contest, this room will win easily. I see the curtains in the room with some Egyptian symbols , the shelves are divided into sessions like "Mythologies", "Fictional tales", "Fictional terror" and others, the tables have some details that make them look like those old castle furniture, full of details, materials like a lying spider , covers very similar to those bloodiest vampire films that don't shine in the sun, and other normal things like a television and a themed computer. If there is dirt, I would leave it to maintain the mood of the room. Ironic because it is well ventilated to be something "dark".
- S-Sebastian, I need your help here.
- Ah yes.
I walk over to the shelves and I see Claire taking some books off the shelves.
- I-I would like you to help me take out the books and pull these shelves over there so I can wipe the floor here.
Well, get to work!
...
04:20 PM
In the end, Claire and I cleaned almost everything. I helped pull the shelves so that she cleaned thw floor and the windows next to it , cleaned the shelves and some dusty books, took out the spider webs on the walls, pulled the computer and television to clean on that part of the floor and put the bookshelves back in place. It seemed easy before cleaning, but who knew I was going to get tired. I wonder if Claire would be able to do all this before they close the school .
Now I am opening the windows to let the smell of cleaning out to get a more breathable air.
- H-Here , Sebastian.
Out of nowhere, I see Claire putting a can of coffee on one of the tables for me.
- I didn't have to.
- C-Consider a thanks.
- Fine.
I pick up the coffee can and start drinking. When I finish taking a little, I notice that Claire is sitting on a chair, taking a small sandwich out of her bag.
- So ... How did you hear about this club?
I ask Claire, who ends up turning her gaze to me .
- W-Well, I joined last year. I- I heard about this club because of a ... friend. I-I like a lot of fantastical things. S-So I stayed.
- I understand. Is that...
- It's just my way, right?
In that moment, I realize that Claire started looking at the floor in a different way, as if I were judging her.
- No! It's just ... I think this club is cool.
- Oh really?
- Yes. Fantasious things are pretty cool when you realize that at some point, maybe some things are real. - Even why a girl fell from the sky in front of me and used powers in front of me, so besides being cool, it's very interesting.
- T-That's cool.
- I was surprised that you club have almost all the works of Stephen King.
- Ah. It's just that one of the members really likes his books and other independent horror books .
- And you read this here?
- Y-Yes ...
At that moment, I noticed that Claire was getting excited when speaking, but ended up being silent.
- What is it, Claire?
- Yeah ... I-I don't ... I think it's good to talk ...
- Do you think I won't be interested?
*silence
- It's just ... I-I'm not used to talking about it with people I don't know. S-Sorry ...
...
- Claire, until you make a wrong judgment, I like to listen to people and help them. If you think I'm not going to like what you're going to say, rest assured that I stay tuned. I know it sounds strange, but I'm good with this.
Claire looks at me for a few seconds, making an expression of concern .
- Sebastian, don't have to expect to make me trust you .
- That's not what I meant ...
- C-Calm down . It's not that I don't trust you ... It's just that I'm ... not much to be around some people...
* silence
- I see, Claire ... I'm sorry if I ...
- N-No need to apologize ...
Claire looks pretty overwhelmed by those words. Of course, after that situation, she wouldn't trust anyone, including me. And ironically, these are the kind of people who ...
* wind blowing through my spine
Whoa . What the...
* looking out the window
...
ELLYN?!
