13 13 - (Sebastian) Relax, Sebastian ... Relax ...
********** Sebastian's perspective ***********
04:50 PM
After a while, Naomi, Stella and I decided to leave for our homes, but the three of us took the same path that I took to go to my home. From what Naomi said, our mothers must be at my house talking and I already imagine that it would take them a long time to finish this conversation between them. Now, we are walking slowly down the street, talking about ...
- Hahaha ! Did she really go away?!
- Well, we just ate something , talked a little and after that , I don't know what happened and she left.
- As much as I defend you, I think it was deserved! - Stella, have a little pity , please.
- Stella, you don't have to exaggerate. - Naomi, your angel!
- Okay. But not diminishing your "punishment" for not saying about her, I think she left was a good thing.
- Why do you think that? - I'm curious to know.
Ironically, Stella glances at Naomi. Not even sure if Naomi was with the same anger or was just kidding ... If Stella is that "plays" when it comes to these things.
- Stella, as much as the girl left, Sebastian was just himself . You don't have to tell him that.
- Really, Naomi? Weren't you angry about what she said? - This conversation is getting strangely uncomfortable for me.
- If it's Sebastian's taste, who am I to complain? - Don't make that gesture of trust.
- Why do I feel I seem to be guilty of this?
- You are partially guilty, you retard!
- You two. Can you calm your spirits a little? - Thank you, Naomi!
I think it's much safer to be talking to Ian than to these two together. In addition to the girl stuff they keep talking about, the fear of I saying something wrong and ending up being hit by Stella is real. I like their presence, but sometimes ...
* looking at the trees
- Have you become a tree lover, Sebastian?"
- ( sigh ) Don't bother, Stella. Can't I just look away?
Out of nowhere, Stella approaches me and takes me by the arm.
- (speaking quietly) I think there's something more interesting to look at and it's on your other side ~~ - Obviously Stella must be talking about Naomi.
- (speaking low) Next time, I'm going to make you and Ian stay together.
- HEY!
* Stella pinching my arm
- Oh, disgrace! It hurts, damn it!
- Come on! Stop being a baby! You have size but there's no way you be a awesome behavior!
- And this is a problem ???
- Isn't that right, Naomi?
Stella and I look at Naomi, who just looks the other way, pretending it's not her and still whistles.
- I think that's a yes! - In that I agree with you , but not the part of my way, Stella.
- I don't think ... - Huh ?
- Really, Naomi?
- I prefer a thousand times someone kind and honest near me than an asshole like some boys from school. - Ironic because I think I'm an asshole and Nomi will not want to let me say this.
- Hmmmm ~~ - Disguise that face, Stella.
- W- What, Stella?
- Nothing, Naomi ~~
Too dangerous for me ..
* deep sigh
- Sebastian, please forget what you heard.
Naomi grabs my shoulder and looks at me nerves to ... That look so innocent ...
- Okay ~~
It's hard not to look at her and disagree with her ... Angel ...
- Kiss. Kiss. Kiss .
- (Naomi and Sebastian) STELLA!
...
After a few minutes, we ended up arriving at my house, with my mom and Naomi's mom in front of the house waiting for us. Stella just stared at the two of us and ended up accelerating her pace to leave Naomi and I in a complicated "couple in formation" situation in front of our mothers.
But to our relief, Naomi's mom was just waiting for Naomi to go to their home together. Of course, even so, they were teasing us both before they left ... I swear it sometimes makes me want to bury my face in the ground, but seeing Naomi's face when she's ashamed is something that clears the world's worries ... At least, my world ...
After that, I just kept hanging on with my mom and dad teasing me until I finished eating and went into my room . But now that I'm inside ...
* seeing Ellyn's clothes and a letter
She didn't come ... I don't know why she left that way yesterday. Of course, just because she came here in my room only twice, it doesn't mean that I know she'll be back. But apparently, I don't know if she'll be back. Of course, the situation with Naomi, with Cassie in that court food and here at home, and with my mother, would not stop me from helping her. It is not as if this has happened before . But I don't know ...
* knoc knoc
- One minute.
As a precaution, I take Ellyn's clothes and put them in my wardrobe and take the opportunity to change as well. When in doubt, better remedy.
...
*opening the door
- Huh ?
- Can I talk to you?
- Yes. Come in, Cassie...
Cassie ends up entering my room , looking around in disguise but not so much and ends up approaching one of the windows in my room. As I must already imagine what she came to do, I will follow the wave to see how far it goes ...
- What is it, Cassie?
- A-Are you okay? - She will never admit right away that she came to ask about Ellyn.
- I am fine...
- Well, was your day good ? It was bad?
- My day was good. And yours? - Yeah, there's not much to do.
- Was good.
- Good, Cassie ...
...
- And I know you came to talk about what happened yesterday with Ellyn in the court food.
It didn't take even 3 seconds for her to change her expression.
- Yes, that's why.
- Fine. You can start.
- Ok ... Where do you know her from? - How many times do I have to hear this?
- She's a friend of mine from elementary school. - From another world, of course.
- Why did you two meet?
- Why did she want to talk to me and we took the opportunity to chat there. - More because she was hungry.
- And what did she want to talk about? - Too curious, but I don't blame her.
- Talk about school time, news after school, these things.
- Only that? - No, but that's what I need to talk about.
- Only. Satisfied?
Cassie just sighed and closed her eyes for a few seconds.
- Sebastian, when are you going to stop playing the fool with me, huh? - Huh ?
- Wait, how?
- Look. You're already doing this.
- What? I am not doing this.
- Yes, it is. Because I have a slight feeling that you are hiding something.
- Do you prefer to believe in your "slight feeling" than in my word?
- Yes. Because I very much doubt that a girl like her would just talk to you about your school days without wanting anything to do with you. - What do you call female instinct?
- Cassie, that's all. She wouldn't want anything else that you're thinking about.
- So ... Why were you nervous when you saw me there?
- It is not obvious? Beacuse I don't have to do this in front of a lot of people . And ended up doing why you don't want to believe me when I tell you the truth or don't want to accept the fact that ...
- From what? Speech!
- How do I do this because it takes some needs ...
- Need? Help anyone without even knowing why? Being naive why don't you want to see what people want? She is not so different from anyone to think that you can simply "help" her just because she was someone you met.
- Cassie, are you just like that because you think she can trick me like Allison?
- OF COURSE YES, YOU IDIOT! How many times has this happened and that you simply ignore what has already happened ?! Often times! And still want to continue like this?
- She's not like that!
- And how can you be sure ?!
- Because ... Because ...
- See? You don't even know! And though convince me that there's nothing weird between you and her!
- And there is nothing strange! When are you going to accept this?
- When I ...
- Are you sure she is a good company for me ?! Stop it! You don't have to watch over me all the time.
- Of course I do ! You are my brother and I don't want you to just pretend that nothing is happening because you do something for others than for yourself!
That's what I hate ... When they think that ...
- ( Sigh ) Cassie, I'm going to make it very clear. Me and Ellyn are just friends that we can talk to after a long time. Only that. If you don't want to believe that, that's fine with me.
- Will you continue on this?
- I will.
...
- And you believe that she just wanted to talk to you, just like that?
- Cassie.
I try to look at her as seriously as I can to see if she understands , and from her face, I think it will work.
- ( sigh ) Look, I'm not going with her face. - Do n't tell me!
- You don't have to go with her face. Just accept it as soon as I just had a normal chat with her. And she is not a bad person. I guarantee that.
- Does Naomi know?
- Yes, she knows. Stella too.
- Hmph ...
- Already?
- Sebastian, for God's sake, don't be confident of that, okay?
- Are you calmer now to say that?
- Not at all.
- ( sigh ) Okay. I know it's not quite your way of saying it's okay, but you're going to accept it , okay?
- I won't ... but I won't be pissing you off ...
- You didn't convince me, Cassandra.
- Okay ... If you want to get screwed, go!
Cassie decided to leave my room and didn't even look at me. Well, knowing her, she won't take it easy. But if Ellyn doesn't come back, she won't even have a reason for Cassie to stay that way with me.
"You are my brother and I don't want you to just pretend that nothing is happening because you do something for others than for yourself!"
I hate it ... When they think I don't understand what's going on around me. Obviously I understand, but I will not be saying for nothing. Not everything that seems has to be said as if it were confirmed. That's where mistakes and misunderstandings begin . And I don't want to do that. When it happens to me involved, I just act naturally, but I never like to start it ...
* deep sigh
Relax, Sebastian ... Relax ...
...
* looking out the window
I kept thinking about what Naomi and Cassie told me. And they are right. As much as I was trying to help Ellyn, I just went without much questioning. I am not like some school boys who do everything for women. I find this disgusting when it comes to achieving something. I can help anyone, but ... It's like they said ... without even asking.
Another world, Gachas, powers ... It is something surreal that many would not believe and many would freak out. But the way Ellyn said, it doesn't seem surprising to me because there are so many stories on these that made me think "Okay, one more time". But when she used her powers on Cassie and me ... I keep wondering why I felt "weird" ... Since she fell in front of me, I didn't have that same feeling until last night.
* remembering the first time I saw Ellyn
I need to know more ... I need to know why ... I need to know how ... I need to know ... Who is Ellyn ...
I hope to talk to her soon ...
