11 11 - (Naomi) And I will do the same for him...
...
-Ah ... Hi, Sebastian ...
- Eh ... Sorry, I hadn't seen you ...
- It's alright. I'm sorry ...
- No need to apologize. I ... Eh ...
It's hard to be serious with him when he makes his polite gestures.
- Sebastian, relax ... It's okay.
- Fine...
Sebastian looks different. Generally, when something like this happens, he laughs right away, knowing that we will stay until one of us accepts the excuse of other. Not to mention that he's not even looking at me, turning to the side...
- Sebastian, are you fine?
- Ah yes. I'm fine . - As I said...
- Did something happen to you?
It took about 3 seconds for Sebastian to start looking at me directly.
- Yeah ... You're mad at me, right? - Wait, what?
- N-No. Why did you think that?
- Is that you didn't answer my messages and from what Ellyn said, I thought you would not accept that "affront".
- Where do you want me to start ? / - "For the girl in green!"
- I think I got some wrong impression then. - For sure.
- I didn't answer you because I didn't want to talk about what had happened by cellphone. I didn't want to give the wrong impression.
- Even my "good morning" was something you couldn't talk about in person?
- "Yes, you dummy!"
- Fine. I admit that I forgot.
- Right...
- And I didn't take what Ellyn said seriously. Like, it's really like you to do that kind of thing. / - "Where?"
- Really ? You made that face, so ...
- Not wanting to be rude, but If I was angry with you, I would not even be talking to you now.
- Or you would ignore me until I admit I was wrong ...
- Isn't it the same thing?
- No, as far as I know. / -"It makes a difference? "
- Okay ... So, you're not angry. That's good... - I'm glad he understood.
- So, Sebastian ... What are you doing around here?
- Ah ... I was going to the student council room.
- Well, I was going there now. Do you want to come with me?
- Are you sure?
- Oh really? I already said that when you want, you can go there.
- Ok ...
Funny that even after 2 years, he still keeps that polite way of himself. It's praiseworthy, but it bothers me from time to time, especially when he already knows that he doesn't need to be polite to ask me for some school-related things.
- Let's go ~~?
...
We started walking towards the student council room . Even though I was acting as usual, I have a slight feeling that something must have happened to Sebastian. I wanted to know, but I think it would be unpleasant for me to keep asking, since he always says what bothers him at times like this. But for him not to speak ... It must have been something very personal .
- So, how was it yesterday with Ellyn? / - " What?"
- Ah ... Yesterday, it was ... weird. - Huh ?
- Weird? Why? - As much as I didn't want to ask, I admit that I will be too curious if it is the reason he is "like this".
- Well, it was no big deal. We went to eat something and then she left.
- The way she was, I didn't expect her to just ask you to eat something.
- Well, I thought that too ... - That look of his ...
...
- What is your relationship? / - "Hypocrisy achieved successfully!"
- Relationship?
- Yeah. Like, you've been friends since before high school, so you're very close, in my view.
- Obvious way of seeing things. - / "I agree with him."
- That's what I thought just seeing her way. Am I wrong?
- Well ... it's not wrong ... But and you wouldn't say we're friends. More like acquaintances.
- Hmmmm ... I see. Was it because of that it was "weird"?
- No, it's just ... Things didn't go so well ...
I don't like it when he speaks in that low tone , implying that it was quite depressing for him. I don't know why but this is making me worried ...
- What happened?
...
- Well, there was a situation that left her ... "thoughtful", so to speak. And after that, she left. - Thoughtful?
- Yeah ... I don't know why and she said nothing but goodbye.
- "Oh DRAMATIC GIRL!"
- Wow ... Don't you think she overreacted?
- I thought about it too, but she looked at me in a ... sad way .
- Hmmm ...
- And you ... tried to talk to her afterwards or something?
- Well ... I can't contact her.
- Hmm. I understand.
- And even if I do, I don't know if she would want to talk to me. - That's weird...
- You think that because you don't have the courage to ask her, right?
Sebastian, who had been looking forward most of the time, turned his gaze on me with a look of understanding.
- Actually ... I didn't ask much of her.
- Let me see if I get it right. She asked you for something and you said "yes" without question, right?
- Yeah ...
- You know, there is no easy to helping people when they are not sincere. Even more so when it comes to someone who just appears of nowhere.
...
- What I mean is that ... If she said goodbye, I don't think she did it because you were to blame.
- Why do you think that?
* patting Sebastian on the head
- Hello, Sebastian? Earth calling Sebastian Rodrigues to help people in need of help.
* Sebastian's laughs
- You helped her without question and gave your time for her. I would be happy if someone did that for me, but it wouldn't be fair if I told only a few things. So, if she went, the only thing that goes through my head is that she must have gone through something that you reminded her of. I only tell you if you wait or chase after her... She'll tell the reason in some point.
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Durant and this time we met, Sebastian always be imported to help others , no matter what it was. I've seen him do it without question and from time to time, it generated some problems for him, but everything was resolved with time . Even though this Ellyn is someone who has spent years without seeing him and has given me a thousand reasons to be alert about Sebastian, in the end, we always need someone like him to listen.
- Do you think so, Naomi?
- We are sentimental people , Sebastian. One thing I needed time to learn was this.
- Yeah ... Maybe you're right.
- So wait a minute and you will see that things will get right.
- Okay, Naomi...
* watching Sebastian smile slightly
Honestly, seeing his light smile is something that ... works better than happy thoughts.
...
After a few seconds, we arrive in front of the student council room and see shadows moving under the door. Happy thoughts ...
I open the door and see some members seeing something on one of the computers. From the sound, I think it must be one of those videos of people getting hurt trying to do some stupid challenge from that "app".
- Good afternoon everyone.
- Naomi! Glad you came soon.
- Hey, guys.
- Hey, Sebastian!
- So ... what was that did see you people I expected rem get ?
I walk towards my table and Sebastian places his backpack on a chair near the central table in the room. Anyway, just another normal day ...
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03:45 PM
In the end, it was another normal day at the student council. More requests for maintenance or aleatory things. But what I found strange is that Sebastian was attentive to the requests that I shared for him to confirm or deny. I haven't seen the documents yet, so I'll check after he's done.
- Sebastian, can you help me here? -
- Sure~~
* watching Sebastian walking around the room
- "He will suspect something if you look at him like that."
One thing you wouldn't understand is that he is a little too "slow" to care about these things.
- " Are you going to play dumb? You didn't even ask about him and Ellyn. And another ... Why did you defend her? "
Sebastian must make some preliminary judgment about things, so I don't want to give the wrong ideas or that leave him in doubt.
- " You are getting to yourself ..."
It is not because you see my thoughts that you must think that I make sincere decisions. Sometimes saying what people want is the best thing to do.
...
You will not going to say anything?
- "I already said."
Huh ?
- Naomi, can you help me with something here?
One of the student council members called me , turning my attention back to what I was doing.
- Fine.
...
After a few minutes, we ended up doing everything we could. All order papers, organization of weekly class tasks and other things. So, I decide to take my cellphone and see a message .
- (Message from Nozomi) Where is she?
* sigh
- (Message from Naomi) She said she was going out today.
- (Message from Nozomi) Do you know where?
- (Message from Naomi) I don't know.
- (Message from Nozomi) Okay ...
- (message from Naomi) Just that? You don't want to know ...
- (Message from Nozomi) I don't want to. I just want to talk to her.
Nozomi ... Even though she's my older sister, she acts like she's a little girl, full of freshness and things like that. I don't blame her for her way, since she didn't take our parents' divorce business very well and now uses it as an excuse to get by, as if she were alone in the world . But that is not true...
- (Message from Naomi) Do you want me to let her know?
- (Message from Nozomi) No. Bye ...
* sigh
- Naomi, is everything okay?
Out of nowhere, Sebastian ended up approaching me, looking with concern.
- I am fine.
- Fine...
And he realized that it is not so ...
My sister and I haven't talked to each other in a while. The last time this happened almost 2 months ago, very close to the day I was back as a Gacha. As she is a universitary student in Madison, she used to show up at the mom's house on the weekends, but the last time she went there, she ended up fighting with our mother because she hadn't tried to keep everyone together. I defended my mother and Nozomi started saying things to me that make me much angry. The other "I" took over control and ... when I returned to the control, Nozomi slapped me in the face. After that, we started fighting against each other. We only stopped when our father came and separated the two of us ... That day ... It was a hell ...
I didn't want to leave the room at all to see my father's disgusted face. My mom tried to ease the situation, but Nozomi didn't seem to want to know, from what my mom said. And every time I tried to find the courage to talk to her ...
" SHE DOESN'T DESERVE YOUR ATTENTION! SHE IS A LASTIMABLE AND USELESS BEING THAT DOES NOT DESERVE A MINUTE OF YOUR TIME! "
"FORGET HER AND FOCUS ON YOU. SHE DOESN'T MATTER! "
"SHE SHOULD NOT EXIST!"
"SHE SHOULD NOT BE THIS WAY!"
The voices of the "other" I became more and more present and saying horrible things to me. And the worst part is that ... they are my thoughts, but distorted by anger and anguish. I kept withdrawing more and more and the only thing I wanted to do was stay calm.
- Naomi, the people are over. Let's go?
I look to the side and see Sebastian holding my backpack and his, with a smile. The same smile that day ...
I was in no mood to go to class and let everyone see my sad face on that time. Even more than a week before, I had taken off those boys' earrings and hit some students with an "unusual" paper fan. And the voice didn't stop in any way ... Until someone had knocked on my door ...
- (Flashback) Naomi?
I saw Sebastian coming into my room, holding a bag with some snacks. I not had the will to expel him from my room , to why maybe it was my mother who had left him in to cheer me up or something.
I was silent, while he talked if he had brought the right snack for me or if I didn't like it. I knew he wasn't going to stop until I answered, but I just grabbed a snack and a can of soda at the time.
- (Flashback) Why are you here?
- (Flashback) Well, a friend of mine told me that something had happened at school and that you hadn't been to school these days. I thought of coming here to visit you and here I am.
I could only remain silent, while he looked at some bruises on my face that Nozomi left. But after a few seconds, he took a band-aid out of the bag and asked to put it on me. I struggled a little, but ended up leaving, saying nothing.
- (Flashback) You look awful.
I nodded and waited for him to finish putting on the band-aid. And he looked at me, with a neutral expression , waiting for me to say something ...
- (Flashback) You didn't have to come here ...
- (Flashback) But I came. And I will not leave here until I am sure that you will be better ...
I thought he was talking the obvious, like anybody would ... But he was different. He had arrived at my house at 2:00 PM and was quite, sitting on the floor, looking at me with a concern that was scaring me initially, but I had gotten used to it after a while.
- (Flashback ) You can go now. Your parents are not going to like you staying away from home until late .
- (Flashback) Well, actually, they let me stay as long as I needed to .
- (Flashback) Polite way of saying it.
- (Flashback) So, right ... They gave me a suitcase with clothes, in case I went to sleep here.
At that moment, I swore he was joking with me, but then I saw the suitcase and I was like, "What kind of parents would do that?" . And yet, I was trying to believe that it was just a polite way of saying I would stay there until I got better ...
When it was 10 pm, he said that he was leaving and that he would be back early in the morning. At dawn, I decided to go down to the kitchen to drink water and when I looked into the living room, Sebastian was sleeping there , drooling over my mother's sheet. I didn't believe it when I saw it, but after a few seconds ...
" But I came. And I will not leave here until I am sure that you will be better... "
I just smiled. And at that moment, I was not listening to the voice of the "other" me. And I went to sleep.
When it was about 5:30 in the morning, I woke up and went downstairs to my house. And Sebastian was awake, looking around. When he saw me ...
- (Flashback) Good morning, Naomi ~~
That silly smile of someone who thinks he is in a dream ... The same smile he gave and still does when he is close to me ... That was when I realized that ... He was not just being polite. .. He was acting like someone who really cared about me ... He didn't show any weakness or sadness ... He just smiled ...
- (Flashback) Naomi ... Are you okay?
- (Flashback) I ... I'm ... Well ...
And it was enough for me to start to fall down ... Not because he was smiling. But because he was the first person that isn't from my family who was there for me ...
I just fell to the ground, he came running towards me and I started to cry like I never cried in my life ... I screamed, screamed and screamed more ... I kept leaning on him and he saying ...
" Easy, easy ... Everything will be fine, Naomi."
After a while, I calmed down and my mom hugged me . I knew how difficult it was for her, for my father, for Nozomi and for myself. But none of us could take it easy when everything seemed to fall apart for us ... The happy life of a family together that would never happen again ...
After that day, Sebastian and I got closer. We was on the way to school from time to time, his family invited me to eat there in their house, my mother and his mother became friends and even began to be kidding us both saying that we should be together , and for me ...
I started to treat Sebastian differently. He was no longer a friend like any other. He's someone very important to me. Even though he don't know that I am a Gacha and that I am no longer the same one from the time we met, he never stopped for being close to me ...
- (current time) Let's go~~
And I will do the same for him...
