654 A missing piece

Jabi 

Something weird happened to me in the night. I have never felt the way I felt. Something was missing.

My baby was missing in my joy.

I knew it. 

I didn't want to wake Darrien up. 

I didn't want to have to talk about it with him because things were going great. We had a bond that I thought we would lose with Tala. 

Her name is tala. 

I am the one that chose the name. 

I loved it the minute I heard it. 

I should have loved her as much as I loved her name but it didn't happen. From the beginning, I felt like I was going to fail her. I felt like I was going to be a terrible parent. 

I didn't know why.