2 Keep your head held high

I wake up to the sound of someone arguing only to find it to be my parents. I have no clue of what transpired between them but I'm scared to see the anger radiating off of my father's face. It's terrifying and I don't want to go there but I don't my mom to get hurt either . My dad's not a monster but he can get real mad at times. I see him pushing my mom against the door and I'm scared for her. I know that there are men who beat their wives till they bleed. The sound of my mom's skull making contact with the door resonates and I see my Mom crying. I want to take her pain away and comfort her but I can't. I put myself between my parents to get them to stop. It's pretty useless when they are still arguing over something. I say things to calm them down and finally my father stops. I guess he doesn't want to be thought of as a bad person. He says that I wouldn't understand but I know that I could if they let me.

Why do people have to fight and hurt others? What gives a person right over another? No person is someone's property to be beaten and trashed like a useless junk.

Another day, I see my uncle slapping my aunt right across her cheek. I find that humiliating and it still remains etched in my memory but that's not the worse part or the only thing they have to endure. There's always the verbal abuse. I heard him tell her to jump from the terrace and it affected me more than it did her.

How can they live together with such hatred and enmity? Do they bear with each other to preserve what's left of their status in the society? Or is it a custom to get used to it? I would rather they divorce instead of a hellish life they lead.

When the word abuse is used, people just think of either physical or sexual abuse but I think verbal abuse must be highlighted too. Just because verbal abuse isn't conspicuous doesn't mean that it doesn't exist. It psychologically scars a person for a life time. It makes them a shell of a person with lack of self-respect , self worth, confidence, belief, trust etc. Sometimes people even become deluded enough to enjoy being treated without respect. The verbal abuse must be addressed and made aware of, for the people to get out of toxic relationships.

When you feel violated, don't let it happen again. Try to detach yourself from it without making it obvious, making it look like it happened naturally. Grow self esteem and spend time in making yourself the person you'll be proud of. Love yourself. Look for what you lack in yourself and fill it with all you desire so that you'll one day be happy with yourself. You don't want anyone to make you feel alive. You just need you.