2 THE BEGINNING

"A boy was seen walking on the road of Tokyo during winter. He was not having much clothes to protect his body from this cold winter. Yes, that was me, Haruki. Everyone was paying attention to me but I didn't even care about that. I was just living in my own Dreamworld, where I could my true version. " Ah! Poor boy " I heard someone saying. Without thinking anything...I just rushed to hide somewhere. This place is horrifying. People won't stop their nonsense. I don't remember that how much annoyed I felt that time. I didn't choose to life but my bad luck for sure choose me. I tried to commit suicide many times, but at last I used to faced the failure. Once I tried to jump off from a roof but a man pulled me and saved me. Once I tried to kill myself by standing in between the road hoping for someone to hit me, but the cops saved me. See I told ya ..I didn't choose my life. I never wanted to live. Yeah once I was excited to live my life but all the happenings in my past lead me to this way. It's not easy to life. Life is toxic. I always thought this. But something changed my whole life and then again pushed me away in the black hole.

I'll write everything here. After all my diary is trustworthy. I want to express my feelings before dying. I want her back. I want her back. But it's impossible."