17 16| the victim of confessions

Serine

"What if i told you that I love you, would you tell me that you love me back?" -Ali Gatie

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History had begun repeating itself when I was incapable of looking him in the eye once again.

Not because I hated him this time but because he had kissed me.

"Hey what's wrong?" Levine asked.

"Nothing."

"Oh Serine you've been saying that for the past week."

"Because it's what's true." I shrugged. "You've been so quiet since the day I left you to speak with Alexander. And you never told us what happened, so tell us."

"Yeah. You don't look okay and maybe if you'd tell us, you'd feel better." Sarah said.

I sighed and opened my mouth to explain everything that had happened between Alexander and I.

"He kissed you?"

"Oh I knew it." I frowned. "You what?"

"Oh, this is what I get for being friends with two idiots." Levine face palmed.

"Hey!" Sarah slapped her arm playfully. "Haven't you realized that the schools most hottest boy is head over heels for our beloved, hot ass best friend." I knitted my brows.  "Impossible."

"No, no, no, it's possible." Sarah said and I glared at her.

"The only ship that's possible, is yours and Darek's." Sarah was mute after that and jerked her head back. "Absolutely not."

"Absolutely yes though. He was seeking for you last week." Levine smirked and a tiny shade of pink was seen by us from Sarah's cheek. "No, Darek? Pssh- you guys are just saying this to play with me and Rine, don't you dare change the topic." I held my hands up in mocked surrender with a small smile on my face.

"Can you imagine though?" I day dreamed whilst l propped both my hands up, to rest my head on them. "Sarah and her tiny self next to Darek? Ugh! I love!" Levine fan-girled.

"Well then I think it's clear that Alexander McCann doesn't have feelings for me and I'm hundred percent sure. You guys are just trying to make things up, so I can talk and unfortunately for me, it's working for you guys."

"How would you know that?" I heard another familiar voice. I slowly turned around and our eyes locked.

***

"Oh dad," I sighed. "When are you going to wake up?"

"I'm really stressing and I'm worried. I need you to get up from that bed and hug me like you did everyday after school."

"But you're not going anywhere, you have to promise me that. You cannot leave me like mom did and you won't. I know you won't, I trust you dad.There's so many things that I want to continue to with you but how can I when you refuse to wake up from that bed." I held onto his hand, hoping for some type of squeeze, anything, a finger movement but nothing. I sighed softly and placed a kiss on his hand before letting it go and standing up.

I made my way to the door and gave him one last look "Love you." I whispered and opened the door to leave. I shut the door silently and began walking my way to the elevator. Once I got in, I pressed my floor which was to the main exit. I stared at silver ceiling above and thoughts clouded my mind.

When was my dad finally going to wake up and hug me like before? When was school finally ending? 'Cause all I wanted was to be out of there. I didn't want to see Kelly, nor Amber and her third minion. Even Alexander, I didn't want to see him.

I just wish I would have never even ever crossed paths with him because that was the beginning of a tragedy. The day he stopped me from punching Kelly's little pretty face was the beginning everything I didn't want.

I heard the ding of the elevator and I knew it was time to get out. I took a few steps forward and it wasn't til later that I looked straight. And right in front of me was the one and only, Angelo Carson.

Our eyes locked and I stood still in my place. I averted my gaze away from him to right into space. I noticed that he his eyes were still on me and I wondered why. "What? Is there something on my face, do I look that bad?" I asked and it seemed to have snapped him out.

" What? No, no, its not that, it's-" he paused. "I don't even know but it's not that. You look perfect." My lips parted and I smiled slightly and mouthed a 'thank you'  even though I got a feeling he wasn't being honest.

But then I remembered,

"So if I asked you a question about me, you would answer it, truthfully?"

"That's how I answer all of my questions."

But come on though! I was dressed in an oversized black hoodie, with cycling shorts and white sneakers. My dark hair was tied into a pony tail. "If I may ask, what are doing here?"

"My grandmother." He answered and my heart immediately felt for him. "I'm so sorry- for even asking. You don't have to go into detail if you don't want to."

"And you? How about you?"

"I came to visit my dad. I-"  My eyes caught a pair of silver orbs and it took an entire part of me to know I wasn't hallucinating but it was difficult. The figure kept moving closer and I averted my gaze back to Angelo. "I've got I go." I lied.

I wasn't fully lying because I was going anyways but only this time I was using it as an excuse to escape Alexander. "Okay then," Angelo smiled revealing his dimples.

"I'll see you later."

"Yeah." I smiled nervously and after two seconds of trying to leave, I finally did.

I moved my legs as fast as they could possibly go but it wasn't enough. Right as I was about to open the door to leave, I felt a hand on my elbow pull my gently. I fought against it but in the end, we were face to face. Our faces were inches apart and I had already given up my fight.

"What?"

"Serine I'm sorry. I was so stupid, so, so stupid for kissing you- I tried to control myself and I should have. "

"Then why did you? Why did you do something you shouldn't have done in the first place, huh?"

"Because I like you Serine." It was silent.  "I know it's hard to believe but it's true. I like you and I can't stop saying it. "