6 I'll Wait

"You've been what?" I know, over thinking things would not bring such help to me, but I just can't help over thinking things. In the end I have to set aside my gayness. I should always remember that this guy has a girlfriend and just being nice to me. I admit, I'm a bit fragile when it comes to this. I'm quite sensitive when someone shows interest in me and then over think things. It's so lame of me to be like this. Sometimes whenever I look at the mirror, I would always tell the guy behind the mirror; "You're such a loser!" and then it would respond to me. "You're such a loser for calling yourself a loser" Then I realised, I am the loser who's calling someone loser. One time I became a bridge to a relationship between my bestfriend Patrick and Hailey my first love, back when I was still straight. I was very close to Hailey, because back when she transfered to my junior high school, I find her cute and angelic, totaly my type of girl. So I approached her first and eventually we became good friends, so then I developed feelings for her. I just love her so much.

So going back, my bestfriend approached me and asked me to bridge him up to Hailey. Patrick has no idea that I like Hailey. Besides I never told anyone, bacause I'm just not confident with these things before, and Hailey was my first love, ofcourse I have no idea in dealing with my feelings back then. So me "being a good bestfriend", I bridged him up, then they started dating. I can really see that they we're both happy together and I have to admit they look good together too. I am satisfied with seeing Hailey and Patrick happy. As long as they are happy together I have no problem with being selfless. I even said. "I'm happy for the both of you, I wish you guys a happy relationship" At that time, my smile was reaching the ends of my ear, just to show that I really am happy for them but when I came home. I cried all night. So this implies that I'm such a loser, for doing something risky that would make me cry at the end of the day.

"Text me when you're done with school. I'm gonna wait up at the parking lot at the north parking area later." -Kris. After telling me those he walked out, then not so far he turned back, "I will defenitly wait, so don't leave me hanging." -Kris. I guess I have no choice. I just have to say that I have something else to do and then tell him that I need to go home early because there's still class tomorrow.

So the class ended. I feel so fraustraded but I still have to meet him. I texted him that I am near to the north gate parking area. As I was walking by, I saw him sitting casually on the hood of his car, the Lexus LC500. His back is amazing, he look so sexy, you can even say that this guy is good looking, from the back. I guess he noticed me so he turned around and saw me. I was just standing, looking at him, out of words, then I saw him smile. His bright eyes really complimented his brilliant smile. He is breathtaking. As I was walking slowly towards him I noticed that there were 5 empty cans of bannana milk, I guess he really waited for a long period of time. "Have you waited that long?" I asked. "Not that long, I just came here" -Kris. I guess I just have to tell him that I still have classes tomorrow, then leave.

"I'm really sorry, but I still have early classes tomorrow, I need to go home early" I thought that it was a great excuse but then... "Stop lying! Your classes starts at 1:30pm, I asked Jason for your class schedule, and you don't have classes tomorrow, It's saturday and you don't take saturday classes" -Kris. Jason really is a pain in the ass. He brings trouble to me every single day. "But why did you get my schedule?" I asked. "So that I can get intouch with you" -Kris

"What does it have to do with you?"

"I told you, you're an interesting guy. So-I'm interested in you." -Kris

I guess I just have to give it a go, I hope this won't be something that I'll regret at the end of the day. "So where are you taking me?" I asked. "You like food don't you? So I'm getting you something to eat." -Kris. I guess he found out what my weakness.

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