8 "Sweet dreams babe"

The dinner was so quiet. I kept stealing glances on him, and I can really feel he kept glancing on me too. He grab his steak and started slicing it. I decided to go for the pasta first, cause I know I'll get easily stuffed when I go for the meat first. After slicing his steak he set it aside and start digging into his pesto pasta.

When I decided to go for the steak, I tried to grab the other plate of steak which is not yet cutted, but he stopped me and gave the plate of the steak that he sliced earlier.

"I've already done it for you" He said.

"You don't have to" I replied with a bit of shy tone at the end of my sentence.

"Yes, I have to, I was taught by my dad to be gentle, especially with the girls". He said with a very low voice at the end that I could nit even hear it.

"Pardon?" I asked.

"No nothing" he replied.

I don't want to make things even more awkward so I decided to talk by complimenting the steak.

"This steak is really good." I said

"Yeah, I really like their steak here too" he added.

For the rest of the time we really just introduced ourselves, like things about my family and his, our simmilarities, art and his girlfriend. I can really say that he really like his girlfriend. For him she is the best girl. He showed me their pictures when they travelled to maldives. I really want to go there. Someday I'll get myself a rich boyfriend and ask him to bring me there. Just kidding I'm not a 'gold digger' besides I don't need one, I am more than capable of bringing myself there, Its just that I just turned 18 so can't just go and travel the world. For the rest of the time he just share how they met and some senseless stuffs they did that I really don't care, but I really like his voice so I tried to focus on his voice and not the thinga he say.

"So, I guess you always bring your girlfriend here, right?" I asked.

For a moment he stayed quiet and stopped eating. Chewing the substance inside his mouth. I uncontiously stared at him while he's eating. He looks so cute when his mouth is stuffed and struggled chewing.

"Yeah! I know I'm cute." I immediately came back to my senses.

"Did I just said that aloud?" I asked him.

"Nope, I was just guessing. Was I right? You really thought that I'm cute?" I suddenly can feel that my balls are trying to escape from my sac. I just digged my own grave. What the fuck did I do? I just messed everything up. I need to make an excuse though.

"A-actually I-I was j-just k-k-kidding" I stuttered while trying to explain.

"Of course you are, why would a guy think that I'm cute. Unless your not?" he said while having that seductive look in his eyes.

I just looked away and concentrated to the food that was about to get cold, due to the cold tension of the atmoshere between us. I really don't know if he's doing this for fun or he could be doing this just to build a friendship full of jokes or something, or he's doing this 'cause he really had motives. Every action he do just confuses me.

"So yeah! you haven't answered my question yet" I said, awkwardly breaking my voice towards the end. He got a confused face after hearing my words. This guy is just so confusing, or maybe he really is confused. Just like I am, I fully thought that I was straight, but after my first heartbreak I was flipped. Then after being flipped I thought I really am gay, but when I tried to watch porn again, 'the straight porn' I had a hard time. So maybe right now I still am confused if I'm gay or bisexual. It doesn't matter actually, the thing is I like guys, thats it.

"What question?" he clarified.

"If you always got here with your girlfriend all the time, I mean they've got good food I guess your girlfriend would want them too, you know?" I said.

"I've only brought two persons in this place so far. My mom and you. This place is kinda special to me. This is the fave resto of my mom and I, so the person that I should bring here is special too. so to answer your question, nope." Having the 'p' pop at the end.

I am totaly confused right now. What the hell is wrong with him? He rants about his girlfriend being this perfect girl for him, then now saying those words just confuses me. Is he playing my feelings? I am a human too I aslo fall.

Actually I was flattered by his words though, I am trying myself not to go very red cause I can feel my face getting hot and I can feel my body shivering. I really don't know how I got into this situation.

"Do you wanna go and take a walk?" he asked.

He quickly grabbed his wallet and left some money on the table then grabbed my hand and headed towards the exit. We just walked until we reached the top the hill with a tree resting with some lanterns hanging on the trunks. This place is really nostalgic. So relaxing that you wanna escape from reality and just stay here.

"My mom and I usually go here after we eat and go star gazing" he stated.

"We actually don't know how the constelations looked like but we just try to connect the dots and form an image." he added

"Thats cute!" I stated.

"I missed doing this with her" he said.

He broke into silence and just looked into the sky. I can really see the pain in those eyes. I wanted to ask him about his mom but some part of me tells me that I shouldn't, 'cause I have this feeling like its not a good thing to open the topic.

"I missed her, she died last year." he stated. He looked back at me and smiled then looked back up again, he seems like he's trying to cover the pain in through eyes but I can really see it through him. I walked through the hill and sat down then patted the space next to me.

"Let's go star gazing" I suggested. I gave him a bright smile. He gave me a bright smile in return then sat next to me. I can really feel how lonely it could be for him through out these years.

"I guess we just have to connect the dots too, cause I don't have an idea how those fucking constelations looked like." he giggled. For the rest of the night we just tried to play 'connect the dots'. We made up that game, since we didn't know how to name it. We found an elephant, a tiger, he even found an ice cream. As time passed by I found myself lying next to him comfortably. We laughed and shared thoughts then played 'connect the dots'. I never regreted that I accepted his offer. Suddenly we both broke into silence. I tilted my head to his direction to have a glance on him, finding out he was already looking at me.

We just stared eachother's eyes. His eyes still amazes me. They were so captivating. He then moved his body closer to me and his hands reaching my cheek. I can feel my body shiver and got nervous with the situation. Then suddenly I just found my lips next to him. We kissed. I can't believe I'm kissing Kris. Our kiss got deeper and our lips moved in sync. He then found his tongue fighting against mine for dominance. His lips are just so soft and satisfying. He then had his hands on my waist and mine to his face. Our kiss got even deeper. He rubbed his hands against my back while I was on top of him. He then kissed my chin down to my neck which I tilted my head for him to have access. When he touched my soft spot, I uncontiously released moans. I cant explain the feeling of his body heat against my cold chest. I suddenly felt him smiling and saying.

"Found it"

"Hey!" We bursted into laughter because of what he just said.

We decided to break our make out session and head home since it's already passed 11. While we head back to the parking area we held hands and just teased eachother about my soft spot and him being such a childish to see an image of an ice cream from the stars. When we reached to his car, he opened the passenger's steat for me. He's such a gentlemen, thats what exactly how I wanted my man to be.

Then it hitted me he's got a girlfriend and I just made out with a taken guy. So now is he cheating? Am I the concubine now?

Since I told Stacey to take my car home, he suggested to drop me off my house. The ride was so quiet and we just kept stealing glances from eachother. When we had to stop since the traffic light goes red, he grabbed my hand and looked at me.

"Let's not think about my girlfriend or others. For now let's just think about us, okay?" he stated. I just gave him a smile and nodded. Sometimes in life we just have to be reckless and think less and just face the consequences for our actions for us to seek the answers we needed. I just had that thought and agreed to him. He kissed me on the cheek and continued driving while holding hands

When we arrived to my house a shocked face appeared. "You didn't tell me your this rich, I could've asked you to pay for our dinner." he stated.

"You should head home, its really late already" I suggested. When I was about to climb out of the car, he then pulled me for me to sit back again, then he kissed me on the lips. Then added "Sweet dreams babe"

I just nodded and told him to text me when he got home. I hop out of his car. He waited for me to get inside before he left. Going up the stairs I noticed my younger brother Archie looking at me with a smirk on his face.

"I just don't see how would a gentleman let his girlfriend drive for him" Archie stated.

"Or maybe it was not a girlfriend but a boyfriend." He added then made a wave with his eyebrows while having that look, like saying 'gotcha!' Archie is such an open minded person. He was one of the people who witnessed my breakdown, and I know he don't want to witness that again, so he just wanted the best for me. I know he'll accept me anyways so I don't need to come out to him. I really love my brother. I just sometimes hate him when he's being nosy and when he brings his grilfriends to have sex inside our house.

"Shut up" I rolled my eyes to him and just past by him to head to my room.

"Tell him that I'm not into Ferrero" he stated.

I shook my head and disregarded him and went straight to my room. I got undressed and headed to the bathroom to take a quick shower, just to wash off everything that happened to me this day. After my quick shower I got into boxers and short-shorts. I went straight to my bed after drying my hair. I grabbed my phone and saw a message.

"Just arrived baby"-Kris

"Good to know."- I replied. When I'm about to drop my phone, it suddenly vibrated. It was a was a new message.

"Goodnight baby"-Kris

"Goodnight!"-Me.

Things are getting even more confusing. Its terrifying me yet I wanted this feeling. The feeling that someone other than you family and bestfriend cares for you. I mean I should not jump into any conclusions but Its getting into it. Maybe I should just face the problems when it comes. For now, I should just enjoy the moment.