11 Chapter 11 - Missing You

Reina POV

Today, the weather seems to calm itself, but we have not found the book yet. As soon as my wounds and injuries healed, I immediately look for it together with the King and his men. Where would it be?. It was 2 days ago after I got released from the hospital.

Grace, Capital's Gamma, ensured my well being during my stay here. She is very cheerful and adventurous, her mother is a tailor, so mostly of her and my clothes were tailor-made. I got my own room next to the King. I really wanted a smaller one but they leave me no choice, knowing that I'm his mate, so they picked up this room for me. They showed me around the capital and I got to know a few people.

We already visit my pack, together with the King and his army, but, I guess we are very too late. It has been many days since the attacked, seeing my village now in ashes gives my heart a direct pain. I still hope that maybe someone is still alive, but no one.

The King promised me to find the rogues who attacked us. Knowing also that these past few weeks, our pack are not the only one who got attacked, there are other small packs as well. Which I think, kept Derek busy during his work days, but on weekends, he always thought of me by visiting me in my training ground, sometimes he was the one who held as my mock enemy during training. He suggested these trainings, for me to be able to learn advance skills that I merely learn in our pack, also that being said, while I'm staying at the capital, I need to practice more my fighting skills so that I could be prepare, I agreed to him and let, Valencio, his best warrior to train me daily since then.

"That is all for today, Miss" Valencio trying to speak while catching his breath.

"You really is a fast learner, maybe someday, you will be the one whose going to teach me instead of myself" he added, saying the latter part while standing up from the ground after I beat him a while ago.

"Thanks, Valencio" I respond, smiling at him feeling proud to what he just said. I need to learn faster, because I cant wait to avenge my village, I thought to myself. Yes, I am this eager. My blood boiled whenever I think about the day I ran away unable to protect my own pack, and I dont want that to happen again.

Mostly, even after our training time, I stayed here in the arena to practice by myself. But today, I chose to give myself a break after this.

"So, are you going to stay here for a bit or you have another plans for the day?"

"No, I think I'll give myself today a break. And, I dont have any plans for this day except for having a good rest in my room" I said to him, while walking towards the corner of the arena to get a towel. I use the towel to wipe out the sweats I had and get the water bottle to drink. Valencio is doing the same as well.

"I think the King is very busy nowadays, usually at this hour, he get here to have a good look on his beautifully beaten mate's face" he teasingly said those words. I just let a small chuckle at that.

"Not beaten anymore, Valencio, just beautiful now" I smirk at him emphasizing the last word.

"Well then, Miss beautiful-not-beaten, I guess I'll be going now" I nodded to him and smile widely, he really is a good teacher, he is serious in his teaching ways but also did not forget to have fun. How I missed my father.

I walk to the hallway towards my room, and when I got in, I sit for a minute at the edge of my bed before heading to the bathroom to take a shower. It is 7 in the evening now, wow, I dont know I could last this longer for training, before, we start at 5 in the morning and my stamina is done by around 1 in the afternoon, but little by little, I noticed now that I got a stronger stamina.

I soaked in the bathtub for about twenty minutes letting the shampoo's bubble disappear through the air. I rinse thoroughly my body and look at the full size wall mirror, I cant believe I have grown much muscles now, especially in my stomach, wow, I have 4 abs now?, I think I'm gonna run for a physique fitness competition having these, giggling while touching my stomach area, but of course not that manly muscles yet, I tried to control and make my body fit and healthy, in a more feminine way, despite having so many scars around it. Though, there's nothing wrong for women having a good muscled physique, but for me, I still want to look good, maybe to look better for the King, wait, what did I just said to myself?

Thinking about Derek, I am still having thoughts about what happened, before when we are at the hospital, I kinda not forgetting a thing from that. It is not my first kiss, by the way, if you asked me. Before, when I was 18, I got a boyfriend around my pack, though we did not last, because after a year of courting me, I finally accepted him, we dated about 3 months or so, then out of nowhere, he found his mate. So, I need to break up with him. His mate is one of my father's gamma's daughter. It hurts a little, knowing that because of the mate bond you'll end up hurting yourself and the other, what if we try to chose a different path? not to fully submitting to the bond?

"So, do you want, Derek to chose a different path for you then? Rejecting us because of not submitting to the bond? or because he had a girlfriend? " Tas said, wow, she spoke again. I remember her being so quite back then when Derek and I kissed. She mewled some and purred, showing she also enjoyed that moment. " The bond is not just for the two werewolves having a relationship, Rey , but for the two to help one another, becoming whole, bringing out the best of each other" she added. I nodded to her in my mind.

Come to think of it, what will I feel if Derek reject me because he has a girlfriend, wait, did he have a girlfriend before ? judging by the kiss he gave me, he seems not fully familiar with it. Unlike my boyfriends before, they were experienced. I admit, his lips are sweet. I got blushed at that thought.

After putting on my night dress, and drying my hair with a hair blower, I headed to my bed and slid into the fabric that coating the mattress. I miss him today, maybe a two or three days, he is really busy and unable to visit me at the arena. What am I thinking? of course he have a lot of responsibilities, thinking about responsibilities, I wonder if how I can help him, he helped me a lot before and even now, so why not try to pay it forward. I am having a lot of thoughts about Derek and his pack, who helped me overcome my struggles until darkness visit my eyes and put me to sleep.

"You...cant...hide...from..me...forever..." I saw Zander grinning at me, "I am not hiding from you, Zander, why cant you just come out and let us face each other, surely you will die before even moving an inch" I said to him with gritted teeth.

"Rey,..."

Papa? where are you?

I saw again Zander walks towards my father whose standing in front of me, and then in an instant clawing his head off.

"NO....!" I shouted, not again, please, I want to save my father even in a dream.

"Zander !"

I cried and shed tears while screaming his name. When suddenly I felt a warm presence,

"Hey, are you okay?" Derek is in front of me, looking so worried, while shaking me off by the shoulder, enabling me to wake up from having a nightmare.

"I think I am having a nightmare..." I slowly got up in the bed, holding my forehead due to a sudden headache.

"What are you doing here?" I added, as I look back to him.

"I heard you screaming...who is Zander by the way?"

He ask, "I heard that name before when you were sleeping and dreaming back in the hospital"

"I dont really know, I keep on having a dream about the attack in my village and out of no where, the enemy told me his name is Zander" I explained, "couldn't be his real name? you know, the rogue alpha who attacked us?"

"I dont know, sometimes dreams can be true but sometimes it is just a fragment of our psychological well being." he said while standing up.

" I am sorry if I come in to your room with out a notice, when I heard someone is screaming, I immediately followed the sound, then I noticed that it came from your room and that made me more worried so I quickly enter here." he explained, "How have you been by the way?, I heard from Valencio that you've been learning faster this couple of days"

"I am feeling better now, Derek, though I still have a lot of insecurities within me, especially thinking about my pack, not able to protect them, but I guess I just have to move on... my eagerness to avenge them is what drives me to do more" I said in a husky voice, feeling sleepy now. "I wanted to be stronger, you know. I dont want you to worry about me, all the time" I looked up at him, his face is staring down on me seriously.

"I know..." he sighed, "I myself wanted you to become strong, not just for you to be able to fight our unknown enemy, but also to fight yourself as well, from the insecurities within you"

"Thank you, Derek, I dont know how I can repay you for helping me a lot" I said to him, and for not claiming me right away knowing my situation that I needed to struggle with first, I said to myself. He really is kind and thoughtful, quite sometimes, and calm. Knowing that most of the Alpha Males will mark and claim their mate at the exact moment they found out, but for Derek, it is different, he is waiting for me to be ready. He even does not mention anything about it, as if he knew already what I want, well yes, I want to fix everything first before anything else, I wanted to know the things that I needed to know first, especially about what I experienced.

"Well, if you dont mind... I wanted to have a date with you...you know, give ourselves a time to get to know each other. As well as, getting ourselves a break " he smiled at me and winking at the last part he said.

"Well, I guess you're right" I smiled at him back, giving my response, " Maybe we deserve a little break from all of these" gesturing my hands to the air, beside there's nothing wrong with having a little break.