328 She was asking for death now.

Hearing Deming blaming himself for his incapability, Lifen was all guilty for thinking her previous actions righteous. She had thought that keeping her identity from childhood a secret, she was just preventing him from the pain of self – guilt, but never expected that her decision wouldn't help rather make it more worse.

Every word that was coming out of his lips were making her feel the equal pain of disappointment he was feeling in his heart. No, she never wanted this.

Though her mind was warning her not to turn around to face him, her heart was urging her to try her best to make him understand her thoughts that made her compel her to hide.

Giving in to the urge of her heart, she turned to look at him and as she thought he was standing there, looking at her with his eyes that held self – blame.