7 Only if I was into women

Thinking of the beef stew I had there now, just waiting on me made my mouth water.

I had the almost insatiable urge to rush back home just so I can 'carefully' devour it. But sadly I had to be here making that money needed for said apartment and food. I mean isn't it awesome to be paid even when attending a work party?

Greeting fellow workers as I continued on my merry way. I graced these people that seem to be popping up all over the place with a smile when I had to, until I drew up short, I blinked, glared and repeated that shit.

No, what the f*ck no...this isn't real this guy and my piece of shit husband wasn't here, and on his arm, on his arm was not another female with a diamond ring.

No, no, f*cking no!

He refused to release me from this marriage, refused to allow me personal space. Really; I get nagged by this fool every single day!

The worst part: I can't even kick his a*s! I want to, but I can't because somehow it's like my heart hurts at the thought of damaging such a perfect specimen of a man.

Wah!

Isnt my heart retarded?!

That pain is no joke!

I showed a smiled that could put diamonds to shame, I looked that gorgeous, ah~

I'm so perfect, I'm so awesome~

The c*nt hadn't seen what I looked like now, after all, we had gone our separate ways a few months ago even if he had continued to nag me, either way, it was for me to make a clean break and focus on both myself and the goals I had set when I had first entered this body and in extent this world.

Of course, it was a bit confusing going through the botched memories, I had of this man and my useless sister together.

All jokes aside; our relationship was the most complicated thing ever! Seriously! I can not even make this sh*t up, just trying to piece together the botched memories made me want to shove them all aside, and forget about even trying, actually it's what I did until somewhat now, but with those rising memories I beat those things back with a bat like a lunatic, every single one that surfaced, showed a different side of him my walls were getting weaker and I just feel as if I'd give in but I didn't want to!

"Mrs Bennett please," the man-made a gesture toward my boss and husband made a formal bow and left.

Just like that man, what the hell! Looking around, I widened my eyes and parted my lips slightly looking innocent as I strode up to them, I can't show my arrogance here, I can't show my disgust, I can't lose it either.

Ah but I love these wedge heels, ah. I had to stop myself from swaying my hips because in these things they can make a woman seem so flawless as if they were a part of her.

Secretly I have to say that I almost broke my neck about five times while practising that strutting- hip-swaying- walk, without looking like a bobblehead... Anyway, now I have perfected the art of strutting- I danced in them; I worked out in them, my calves bless them were quite large, perfectly fucking shaped, and my body ah this body bless my parents for having such wonderful genes it was goddamn perfect.

No more fat, no more looking for my waistline, not too much muscle, but enough one can tell I worked out. I mean look how awesome my back is?

Even then I also looked every fucking inch woman, one that I had all eyes on me.

(narcissistic female again, are you sure they are all on you in a positive light?)

As I stopped next to my husband, I stared at my boss first then said hello; he was accustomed to my unwavering creepy gaze, so he didn't react when I shamelessly checked him out. The man in question smiled, transforming that handsome normally cold face in an instant beside him, the small Asian female at his side eying me, his present girlfriend I suppose or just a simple extra.

I think this one was a daughter of some random Monguel if I remembered correctly and the one I had arranged the delivery of the midnight blue gown she wore with the diamond necklace as a token of the limited interest my boss had in her, yeh this man changed women every two weeks sigh I had to deal with their stalker-like phone calls her time was almost up to poor thing.

I turned to the male without a female by his side the one I had tried to erm rape a few months ago but instead kicked from my house after reattaching his arm sigh even him was near my boss as well life isn't my friend right now my eyes narrowed for a split second before returning to normal.

I cringed, but I was a brave woman who pretended she did nothing wrong, yup I was an angel seriously he was breathing and whole so I'm home free ah SAFE!!

(Sigh I'd like to crack open her head and see what's inside... Anyone else would like to do that too?)

Walking up to him was a brown-haired female, her skin was so pale with a light sheen to it giving it a flawless look.

I had to admire her a bit, my gaze eating her up, thoughts in my mind; like what I will do with that beef as soon as I leave this "work party." In the high neck gown, she wore, which clung to a body that was without muscle but had the shape of all woman, she was beautiful, only if I was into women she would totally be my type.

Papa's every day until she was unable to move, pampered like a princess, if only… Tch.