the plan-part(1)

(John Thomas pov)

and that was just the end of another day in the hell i call my life while most people who think that being a top student is easy it's actually very hard as iam always ander the pressure of my parents and my teachers even with an IQ of 276 it can lead to constant mental and physical

exhaustion with itself leads to depression that i now suffer but hey i plan on saving enough money once i graduate from school to buy a nice house in the woods to live the rest of my life in happiness

as i plan on being a private detective or a police officer since i always wanted to be a hero not to show of and fight crime but to give people like me who feel constant hopelessness and pain

hope to live in this cruel world of ours hope to get out of bed and fight to survive another day

now you may be wondering why do still fight it,s the most simple yet complicated answer it,s

/THE Will Of ZERO/ a concept that i understood since a young age it,s the light in my darkest days

and to answer your question of what kind of life can lead a 7 year old child to invent such a concept well let me tell you : it,s hell

absolute hell, as you can see i had a very good childhood in until i was 6 years old as my father passed away in car accident that year leaving me with only my mother wow started to drink alcohol afther his death well it only got worst as she started straving me and accusing me that his death was my fault

now any other child would cry and blame himself but as i told you at the start i was different

so i did what could do best i analyzed the situation and came to the conclusion that it was not my fault it was my mother's and i realized that she had been in denial and maybe just maybe she could heal with time

well good and bad news she heald but not as i would ever want

she got remarried to another man that i would nover call a father or a descent human being

because that man used to beat me once at least everyday for the smallest mistakes and if i didn't do any he would make them up as for that woman i never called her or considered her a mother to me she was just someone i lived with

at first it was hard since i remembered my good times with her but afther some time all these memories started to fade away and were replaced by paind/anger and finally numbless

as i felt the of my last love of her fade that day when i was 7 years old it was the day that i formed my will /THE Will Of ZERO/ and ever since i only trusted a handfull of peaple and decided to make a plan for my future:

1/graduating from high school

2/getting money

3/practicing martal arts and weapon skills and mastery for self defense as i don't

want to remain weak

4/help the others like me with there pain and give them hope

and so began my plan.....