2 Chapter 2

Now I'm walking around in the city with hot weather looking for jobs.

I applied for 24 companies but none of them wanted to hire me for the same reasons because I don't have experience and because I am a child of a bankrupt businessman.

The first reason I can accept it because it's true I don't have any experience working before. My monthly fee is given by my father so I don't work.

But what is wrong with the second excuse?. The company which bankrupt is belongs to my father, not me everyone knows I'm not involved even though I'm his only son. So what does that have to do with me?.

I guess my father's company bankrupt had a big impact on me. It will be hard for me to looking for a job.

I don't think I will find a job if I depend on myself. So I decided to ask for help from my friends.

I took out my cellphone and dialed their number one by one.

But from dozens of my friends, none of them are willing to help me.

As people say when you have money, they stick to you like glue, but when you don't have money, they disappear like a shadow.

I just found out my life is very pathetic. I'm surrounded by fake people with fake love.

" Be strong Wil, don't give up easily "

I encourage myself.

Then I scroll down the last number and also my last hope. That person is P'Ton. He is like a big brother to me.

We met at a restaurant. At that time he forgot to bring his wallet so I helped pay for his food.

Then we hang out several times and naturally become close.

I really hope P'Ton can help me. If he also doesn't want to help me, then what should I do?.

While calling out the number I was very nervous.

[ Hello, N' Wil ] it rang twice the person over there answered.

" Hello, P'Ton can I ask your help? "

I decided not to chit chat but went straight to the point.

[ Do you need money? ]

I think P'Ton also heard the news about the incident that happened to my family.

" No P'Ton, I need a job ".

[ Job? ]

" Yes, can you help find a job for me any job is fine P'Ton I really need it " I begged

The person on the phone was quiet for a while before he stated again

[ Ok, tomorrow come to meet me at this place ].

I wrote down the location and I was very happy at that moment knowing I might get a job and it would be my first job so I needed to appreciate it.

The next day I went to the place P'Ton said. I found that I was standing in front of a luxury hotel, it seemed like this hotel was just established.

Then a beautiful woman takes me to meet P'Ton in his office.

P'Ton gave me a job at this hotel. He put me in the room service department. P'Ton said he couldn't give me a higher position since I had no experience and of course, I don't mind I'm really very grateful P'Ton gave me this job.

I just found out that work was very tiring but also very fun. Tiring because sometimes a lot of work and scolded by hotel guests and It's fun because you have lots of friends at the workplace and when you receive a big tip from hotel guests.

What do I like about working? When you are busy working you will forget everything that makes you sad and painful.

In fact, I always put on a fake happy face that made everyone think I didn't have a problem. Inside only I know how sad and misery I am. How not?.

The two people I loved sincerely changed.

My ex-boyfriend is with me because of my money

My father knows I'm gay. He can't accept me and always beat me.

It sometimes makes me depressed but life must go on.

You sad also a day

You happy also a day

The world won't stop just because you are sad.

So instead of putting on a sad face, I'd better put on a happy face to let the world thinks I'm not having a problem in my life. Who knows? I can inspire people.

Day after day I passed, I have no problem with my job but I started to change I also do not know why? I began to acts slut in front of everyone. I like to flirt with handsome men but I never sleep with them.

And what about love ?.

Love is like death to me I don't dare to touch with the name love again. One time I experienced it. It's already enough.

If possible I don't want to love anyone but myself.

I'm pretty good now alone. But sometimes I will look at handsome men to wash my eyes hahaha.

And suddenly one day a cute man with the height the same as I appeared, he also worked in the room service department. His name is Saun he is really pretty.

The first time I saw him, I felt a good feeling for him. I want to be his friend so I approach Saun first and I talk a lot that makes him always avoid me when he sees me from far. Maybe I'm a bit annoying.

Then we became good friends when one hotel guest accused him of stealing things which he didn't do it everyone didn't believe Saun I was the only one who trusted him.

Since then we have become very close. We share everything together. Saun also knew I had a father who likes to beat me. He knows everything about me. It feels good when you have friends that you can talk about everything with. Finally, I felt I found my true friend.

I have worked for a long time at the hotel but I never met the real owner after knowing P 'Ton is not the owner but one of the shareholders in this hotel.

Not long after, Miss. Leau also these hotel shareholders announced that the owner of this hotel had returned.

At first, I joked with Saun that I will flirt with this hotel owner but after knowing he is P' Ton's younger brother and Miss. Leau's boyfriend I step back.

And something strange happened between Saun and P' Ton's brother.

Several times I noticed how P' Ton's brother looked at Saun very differently. Inside his eyes like there are remnants of love that cannot be explained.

I am sure there is something between them but that's their life and I am nobody to interfere with their affairs. So let's focus on my life.

Now my father rarely hit me since I gave him money to drink and gamble. Just sometimes when he hits me he won't show any mercy.

But that night after I come home from work.

My father started beating me again. My father did not want his neighbor to know that he hit his own son so he hit me in the invisible part.

My father pushed me to the floor and kicked me right on my stomach

" Where is my money? " My father shouted at me.

I think he's lost gambling again that's why he is angry.

" Po , Po please stop it hurts " I hope my father can stop.

" You are not my son, I don't have a gay son like you '' Another kick landed on my stomach who lying on the floor that barely breathed.

I cried in pain and smiled bitterly while pulling my hair.

'' Shameless son you still can smile? " My father pulled my collar and give one slap on my face.

This is how my life looks like.

All of my salary I always gave to my father.

If I didn't give him money then this the result.

'' Where is my money? ". My father was ready to land another punch on my face.

'' Enough, if you hurt him again I will die in front of you '' It's my mother use a knife pointed at her own wrist.

'' Crazy woman '' My father stopped his actions he stood up and wanted to walk towards my mother.

'' In my bag, the money you need is in my bag '' I afraid my father will hurt my mother so I shouted mixed with a painful voice in it.

My father turned and looked at me for a while then walked away looking for the money in my bag.

My mother threw her knife and rushed to me who was lying on the floor.

My mother when know I'm gay she was truly shocked at first she could not accept for a moment but in the end she supported me she said as long as I'm happy.

" I'm sorry son, Mae can't protect you '' My mother hugged me and cried hysterically.

'' I'm fine Mae'' I hugged my mother back and comforted her.

The wound on my skin is nothing compared to the wound in my heart which my father cannot love me for who I am.