19 Chapter 17

Life was a whole square and I was a small peg to fill it, my sorrows are my revelation to the reality ,

what causes them to determine my series of unnatural and spontaneous changes,

One thing just one thing was even in my life that , It was never too early or never too late for me to be within the contours of my infidelity , just like this , my fate plays a trump card at my back. I m finally awake and the first thing that came to my sight is , this big bedroom and a guy who is facing his back towards me....is he K?

And whoa! Why my head has a temperature ? Am I being saved ? because when I was going to die , my fate didn't let me to go ,but again I somehow dived in that cold water and here , when I m opening my eyes , I found an another room and an another person! Wait! Did I was molested.... No ! It can't be, the guy was all in his normal blue plaid shirt, and he turned himself just a moment back when , I slowly coughed,

"You were definitely not pretending to be sleepy right! A suicidal girl ...." The words rolled out of his mouth, last night even though I wasn't in the state but , now with a different man , I m not feeling like he is different , although strange but , my choices are again mine, whether to open my mouth or just stay better, was my present dilemma.

"A cup of coffee, won't make you regret , I promise !" The guy offered me the cup and I let him a verbal thanks.

The way his intensity of eyes is making me jump up and down across this bed, pulsating throbbing all I could feel now , I can't explain what this tea of him would do, room is aloof one, low and a bucolic homey one, my eyes trailed to its either side, this house is a slight different from the anterior one, that one Of K's cottage, K ! I thought I won't regret this. The room was a bit woody , I mean an unpolished wood with screeching, the curtains are dreading to fall down,

"Um.. Thanks ...for the coffee , is it a espresso?" I initiated the talk and he nodded, and then I did noticed his appearance he was a total sporty, because he had an Indian complexion, with Black eyes , a muscular yet lean type, you can't tell his strength , but he was not that of exercising body, he looked reasoning and was a bit splendour ,

"Leigh....Leigh Candice !" He stretched his confined yet bulky hands toward me.

"Mind taking my hands?" He continued while sensing my nervousness , as I was hesitating to take his hands in mine.

"No! I don't mind my saviours !!" I let out a cheek reddening laugh and he joined me there .

"Valentina ! Valentina Timothy Lockhart ....and my close friends tagged me as Valen... as in Latin, " valens " means strong and healthy, but I prefer the Tina suffix more than former one ..." I completed my jargoned sentence with an uptight sentiment.

"So it's quite Italian sort of ,but Don't you think , Valentina name is similar to that of St. valentine .. I mean Valentina...valentine and Valentines day ....My Christ ...that was so cliché of me.." The boy laughed and I stood up , he was a comforting pace for my dull life, if he had a shiny lustre , I was a faded smoke, let's see this meeting of lustrous smoke will be resulting into what ?

"Pardon me, if i look like some boasting gun, but the name ,

' valentina ' , had produced many famous personality out of it , either let it be Valentina sampaio, a Brazilian model or Valentina Diouf an Italian volleyball player or Valentina Shevchenko , She is a martial arts trainee, name is same in all the cases and it is V-A-L-E-N-T-I-N-A , valentina ! "

I always like to support and protect myself, even though it seemed of me that I m a defensive girl, I don't know that why it is wrong to support ourselves but then again, it is right to accept the facts, and yeah It was a nun name.

"Who changed my wet clothes yesterday?" I gave him a questioning look while shifting my eyes towards the blue T-shirt, which I m currently been put on ,

"Don't , worry ! I didn't looked at your tiny mole on that slim back of yours,"

He taunted me with his mischievous eyes, but that made me more flustered and my cheeks were reddening from imagining the thing , but I don't mind ! Unless my changing person was this hot....

"That mechanism of yours stored a detailed thesis of your name , I m impressed with you...Tina !!" He said with a smirk leading me , and we both went outside to have some fresh air , at least the air would be of inhaling thing, and I really want to know the topography of this area, at least where is my location,

"So you are staking me to Tina....even though I like it,but you!! still not liking the scurry name of mine,like Valen , Valentina!! Huh" I faced him and crossed my hands before my chest, my clothes had been changed to that of some Men's T-shirt, it was a navy blue T-shirt, and beneath was a jogger, I knew that he is the one who got me changed, We came out of his tiny house, to the open view and that surprised me, it was a village , So he lives in a village ? And I can tell it, cause last time when I was left abandoned there , it reads, "Slieve Croob", a small hill and a valley near River Lagan ,

" I m not staking anyone, I just like Tina better than Valen , and will never call you a Valen !! I owe this " a serious look pools over his handsome face, in this fate, I was luckiest enough as my life provided me with bunches of Adonis, but again his thoughts that were resisting enough for not calling me Valen but Tina!! Why ? Suddenly, it become an urgent need , I want to know the reason ,

"Why not Valen ! Why Tina?" I asked him and he locked his black eyes with me,

"Because the female here standing beside me, is not very much strong like her name sounds, because she was drowning her soul just to prove that whatever was the harshest things she faced, those things plunged in herself that her name was worthless for her to be contradicted ....Valen - strong but the fact is that you are a weak girl, Tina!! " now he faces me and that let my hormones go wilder with his verdant actions,

"But somewhere in any means, you proved that you thought I was a worthwhile to be saved, so I m here thanking you for saving me, for making me realize that killing oneself is the same as killing your own worth...Leigh !!"

Adjusting my big sized tee, I faced the view of his house, which shows that a long lane had connected some few houses in a neighbour , while the look was pastoral but main thing , it was a homespun, people were busy in their small households, the children were playing with carts and toys, farmers had been to their farming tools and there was one blacksmith shop , as the streak of glistening lights was trying to escape from that court, there was a hot Ramen shop beside his small house, as its rich majestic aroma filled in my taste buds,

Everything is refined and I m back to know that thing , I had no one to tell how I should live, I had no universe of mine, I had no friends except Juana that would lash me with exceptions, although she herself was a big exception for me to be suitable as my only friend, and here this man who is standing, who was now my betrothed saviour, and I can't deny that my new soul and my new life with my new identity were the precious gift from his side to me,

I m an observant. I was always that's what lead me to investigate , I want to make it professional and here I made it, but men are not my coffees to be sipped, whenever I tried to sip them , either they fell on my hands causing it to be burned, or the coffee art is not pleasant , my mind is drifting back to K? Did he even searched for me? No ! Why he would be searching for me , when I m standing here with some other guy, pardon me , not some, but my one and only life -saver ,

Leigh Candice, a New personality, 24 hour ago became my life-at-risked saviour ! An unknown man , a peculiar person who hate calling me Valen because according to his theory, which I don't know myself that whether I should be agree with its verdict or not , but again,

He don't want to call me as Valen! But Tina!! ...A name which is my end , just because I like to be called Tina, I even requested Juana to call me Tina but she being worshipper of headstrong things and powerful spiritedness, made my mockery that my thinking of such low old fashioned nicknames was totally absurd.

"It was crystal clear that you were a scum, but seriously " Tina "! What get sneaked in your tiny brain, dude, grow up ! Tina, Medina and those shitty girly names will only make you a scared mice, so I will call you Valen! And that's the end of this discussion."

Thinking of Juana, I tried to call her but I had to escape the fact that I was with K ? I really can't tell her , that now we were familiar to each other , my cell phone was dead as K had seized my phone, and after altering he handed it to me, back yesterday's night , so I had no options but to borrow Leigh's phone, we both were now standing on his balcony , and it was airy for me ,

"Leigh , I wanted to make an important call to my friend, Can you please let me borrow your cellphone, ?" I turned to him and he looked towards the blacksmith shop,

"Sorry but I don't use cellphone , I prefer telephone booths, !" He told me and it was kind of difficult for me to accept that in this 20th century , in this advance technology period, he didn't use cellphone,

"But it was very undulated, why didn't you use cellphone, I mean , although it is totally your choice, because, ....it is out of league, I cannot see this coming from you , really ? " to which he just shrugged,

"Stay !" He said diverting the topic,

"What ?" I didn't get what he wanted to say, Leigh!! I told to you that Men cannot be my coffee,

"I wanted to know you , about you , beside that you love to kill yourself, I want to know did you even love to live ? Can you live when you are Dead or being dead can make you lively, I m alone but I never wanted to be dead , I want to kill my cause of death, and trust me you are the first girl , to which I m telling to stay , Don't make calls to anyone, just spent some handful days ....there's many things to be discovered ..."

His words showed a different kind of urge, he was not bossy , he was different , he doesn't shout or command but he had this nature of his to accept his request, he doesn't flaunted his charm but he was that moon in my planet of miseries, who without revolving in his lunar period was giving me a light , a twilight in this period of my immoral life...

"Accepted. Allowed . Assigned to you !!" I replied to him and he just let out a laugh , a small one.

"Thanks for accepting my request, hey! Are you the university student?" Following my hands , he said, the weather is awesome although it was noon, but yesterday's horrible stunt by me, was really going to be paid by this time.

"Yes ! I m that one, but how did you ? I mean , was it that much evident from my face or what ?" I screeched my back of the neck and turned to him , only to meet with his black eyes.

"Because , I m also the university student and you know a law from physics, " equal and opposites attract ," and like that I got a vibe , that may be you can be the one, but I think it was all because of my great presaging assumptions." And he nodded his head, standing near him made me feel , that he had the same height of that Of K....

This man and K ? How can I scoop for such low, I don't want to remember him, I m sorry that I thought him of someone , that could evade the fumes of my falling values but you can't hold someone forcefully , when that someone was not that much eager to be mine, he had always putted me in such situations where I hate to be defensive, for my choices, when I myself know that they are wrong, I m sorry for my wrong choice, but I m not sorry for Loving him, ....it just happened..

"Is it your personal habit ? Or is it the habit which decides to be only with some persons. Like me ....." His word snapped me out of my thoughts and I was unable to squashed his meaning.

"You are so indirect , that your choices of words are aliens to my understanding, care to explain ?" I seated by nearby lounge, while dragging the spare chair which was placed beside the balcony's lane.

"Nothing much difficult, just that you had zoned out thrice in a row, that's why I thought ! You might be doing it with person to whom you are unfamiliar or to them with you are familiar?" He shoved his hands to his pocket.

"Yes, I had this bad thing of zoning out, but I would never be doing this, So you live alone ?" I tried to move the topic and to oozed down the heights of awkwardness, I will definitely not crack some unnecessary jokes ..

"No ! My Nona lives with me, but as she is the head of the village , She's often out for surveying the village, she is a big philanthropist and she loves to help the people , even people here in Doramara village , are very grateful to her, she will dance, drink , eat , cook and serve ....she is the funny woman with whom everyone gets comfortable , "

"So this village name is Doramara, great name, " I told him and he just nodded

he told and a genuine smile broke on his face, while he speaks low but clear, his vocals are husky but not demanding, and I m a bit enjoying him too, I had bend my morals too further before but now I encompassed what I wanted to be in, and there's nothing odd with this,

He way very happy, but silent he was not judgemental , he never questioned me why I choose to kill myself , he was supporting me in very good manner and I think that his way of silent happiness is last longing than a grandeur state of happiness , silence is a quality version of being alone,but then when there is any happiness connected to it , it made it less toxic, more enjoyable, just like his idea about his Nona,and I m really happy to be in such paradise, yes! I think , this is a paradise,

"I m really finding it joyful and I would like to meet your Nona, I am looking forward to enjoy her spirited ness, I think my staying is fruitful to my choice, " I assured him and he instantly become very serious, this was a sudden expression that instantly fell on his Dandy face,

"Just remember one thing, Never let anyone's destiny to ever destroy your own destiny .....life is very much precious Tina ...one day you will understand it ..." And I was only looking at him, so he was worried about my idea of suicide, he raised his shoulders to deep thinking....

Just ! Need to live. To start. Leigh Candice ,please never let me regret this,...