14 Chapter 12

I m over the chiffon pic which is leading me to wonder if it is just some small cottage between any woods, it had vertical boards, and when my eyes trailed their lashes I had opened them only to see the grey gable roof over my head and it broke me into a small tugged smile but where is K!

May be he would be out , which is making me believe that I m feeling safe, I pondered my brown ones to venture around me and I happened to see a comfy duvet , it is as soft and comfortable as a feather ,

while the walls are stucco, a kind of old cottage just brought in pictures from any classic old English novels , I led my small crispy hands to wander those handrails of the staircase ,

which led me meet with bay windows which were embellished with the peach color window curtains, and it was like a burning painting sighing me and leaving me in this misery,and giving me a sign that I m living under his unknown mercy, it is about that it has cozy alive moment and every time , I m feeling a need of him , and myself is falling in this mystic kissing feeling,

I m probably not good at maths, but I think it is a cottage over the 800, square feet, and I m falling in love with more as I m discovering its small rooms and my hairs are not tangled ,

I think they had been pleated with a braid, oh! But I got remember that they were just opened and now they are pleated! That means K! Had made it in plaits ! Oh! And I think it was when I collapsed in the rain itself, Trust me! I don't wanted myself to collapsed but again,

I m too weenie and feeble when it comes to my health issues, And my dreams are just knitting them together with this new feeling with the silk threads , the outside of this cottage is full with hyacinths, yes that blue one! Oh god! I m demanding to pluck them , their blue toxic color is drowning me in them ,

as I raised my hands to pluck them , actually they had been fenced in the small barn with a creepy looking scarecrow stood at middle to shove birds, as if they had been ploughed with any harvester or a probably farmer, I bended my waist and was just about to pluck them,

but a long hands stopped me as they intertwined themselves with my small hands, and a perturbing fanning came from that face, which had been nibbling at my neck, "Don't!" They commanded me and I turned my body to look at him, and he was again standing there in his grey hoodie,

Now his hands had been slides from my hands to the either of my hands, making me to bend at reflex angle , and I just placed my hands over his broad chest, and I can feel the rhythm of his pulsating heart beats, it sound very exasperated , I mean they were above from any normal beat rate,

"Never even try to pluck them , Miss Lockhart, " he said narrowing his eyes to mine , oh ! Damned his hazel eyes, and what is this with his eyes that kept me gazing over his face, his manly face , My Bob pendulate across my throat, I need some air, I feel choked,

"Wh...why ?" Just ! Why , what is wrong with me, how can his mere words affected me so much, that I feel him intimidated, I mean , yes! He was hell intimidated, but again ...leave it !

"Every ! Demand is not supposed to be why ! Miss Lockhart !" And his shoulders tends to tensed up this time, because I could see those visible purple veins clearly through his hands, and his narrowing brows, they were furrowing and at same time, he was very much irritated , he and his unknowns of mysterious ness, why he is such a negative feedback for me, every time his clarification are the addicted words, with the cliches,

like ,

"Don't, No! Never!...." Is he out of his mind, he always bothered me a lot, and at this time... When some people like me knew his secrets, well not all because he is still holding into some mysteries , I rolled my brown eyes to him and crossed my hands over my chest, and gander to him.

"What is wrong with you ? Why I can't pluck those hyacinths, and who are you to make me , stop !" Maintaining my constant attitude, I shoved his demand to himself , the weather was a bit dark , but it was still 11 a.m , the clouds are moving like a long train, which is about to depart from the station, it was some white smoggy surrounding, he fixed his tantalizing looks to me, if the looks can kills , I would be dead from now , and he closed his hazels and when he opened them , he said,

"I m the farmer of this hyacinths, and as an owner of this barn, I command you to never ever pluck them, and reasons are cryptic... "

He never allowed to tell me the reasons, always closed the topics, he still had not learned to trust me, and I can guess this is because, he was a mob leader and a druggist,

"Are you still on for drugs?" I questioned him, I know I m no one to ask him about his personal choices, but his leguminous behaviour churned my thought pools to blabbed the thing. He flicked, because his eyes glistened on my question, his face turned sour, a bit eerie.

"Its none of your concern, " he was gritting through his teeth, okay! May be he is on for drugs again, because I can see the injection plopping from his pocket ignoring the fact that he takes drugs , I diverted him ,

"Why are you loner? And why are you acting being cold again, after last night....." He cut me off to complete my sentence.

"Cut , the crap ! There is no second night , that would be happening like that, it was you and your cheap slut ideas, you were the one , who initiated me ....so forget about that floozy act, and one thing it was nothing to me , so better it should be nothing for you, unnecessary emotions and all chaotic love struck dramas is not allowed for me, I told you I don't do love, but I don't do whoring also, " and his back was turned to me,

I feel like a fool, i m not hurt, neither i feel offended by his disgusting words , that called me slut, i m attracted to him , i don't think i m in love, may be not now , but can be in future, after the Nolan incident ,

i constructed long walls towards me, many boys and goons of our college tried to wither me and my respect, just because Nolan had bedded me with many unknown people, and for K! I want to be a virgin again, Did this feel wrong to imagine yourself flawless, even if I had been all flawed?

Really.....many fingers and accusations had been pointed towards me, don't get me wrong ! But Those two years had been really tough for me, Nolan was my first love may be he wasn't my first boyfriend,And I loved him from my heart , even if he failed to recognized it, I forgive him, I know I should be mad but I can't ,

I stalked him and his social media profile when he was just my crush, I initiated my side affection for him , at starting he flirted with me , first he was hinting me that we would come in a relationship but then he started giving me mixed signals,

I turned him down, but then Again I begged him and he eventually proposed me and we two settled down together and then it was the worst part of my life, that I trusted him with all my mind , and he just did rough sex with me like a maniac,

I lost my virginity to him and he goes on doing experiments with my body, I was afraid at that time that he may leave me, so I gave in his needs , even he didn't knew that once a girl loose her first you need to be gentle, I can remember he being drunken ,

Knocked at my door , at that time Juana had been practicing for her racing tournament , So she always remains out of the house or either came very late , He was processed by his lust at that time and he cooed me to believe that he would make love to me , the thought of that brought me tingling in my inner heart,

He brought me to his house and in second he ripped off my clothes leaving me in only bra and panty , I was astonished he was very desperate, he unbuckled himself and lowered his pants , I can still remember he threw me in his big king sized bed ,

I was tossed like I was some material and he hounded himself and his giant weight over me, I was afraid and try to resist him but he never cared , not even for bit, he shushed me and started kissing me not kissing he was biting me making them to look like a purple bruised, he was not in sense,

I was crying in pain, when he cut my lower lips and my lips got busted with blood coming out then, he squeezed hard to my boobs , like one kneads a dough, even when I make a small sound he slapped me across my face and kicked my butt ,

then he positioned himself to my vagina , as he had not even slided my underwear completely and roughly began his unbearable thrustings, my eyes were watery, I tried to shut my mouth but again I failed and started screaming loudly, he said to keep me quiet while he was penetrating his huge length mercilessly to me, he was not making love to me, this was not a little bit love, he was making it a hardcore fucking,

I was being raped, but Me the fool thought, it was his love making, the sheets were blooded and he after many beastly thrusts collapsed upon me, and my eyes shredded with tears, My rape ....and he was my rapist!

I wanted to run away , so somehow dragging my feet but I know I wouldn't be able to walk properly because a strong pain was shooting to my g spot, I was managing to crawl ....I don't want to remember further , and in case of K! I know I led him to a steamy kiss, it is still on my lips,

I touched my lips where his beautiful lips landed, it may be started with an incident but I know it was not an ordinary , the syncing and raw feeling was a tribunal erotic things, people says that today's love is only a fulfillment of lust , but trust me , if the love is on the fire, the lust becomes a state of inner peace and consciousness, an indulge of not two body but two soul, a hunger for achieving and exploring something numinous archery of satisfaction,

" Stop! You brought me to this cottage , and I want to ask ! When I would be returning back to my dorm, and yes ! That kiss was a huge mistake ....." I tried to make him turned his back and shrieked him by his collar, our distance were closed and we were heaving, we both were panting and suddenly his hands tangled my waist, they secured themselves tightly as if they were some car's security belt. Pulling me only to collide with his torso.

" Just one week ! Just one week Miss Lockhart and you are free, but don't push yourself to me, I m definitely not liking the idea of us being locked in such a intimating situation, it would only add the fuel to fire !" At this time , he was mewling silently in my ears, almost touching his lips to my earlobes, and sending me a strong tangible sensation.

"I will never, be trying , I think you are not worthy of my kiss, I think i wasted my precious kiss on the lamest kisser of this world K! Or Ryan ....."

I did told him on purposely and shoved this statement to his face , a cruel smirking felt upon my face and he flinched a little while his face was frowning , I tried to unclasped myself from him but he hold my wrist and pulled me back to him, and placed his lips on mine,

I was shocked but at this time he demanded for an entrance as we were walking without breaking our kiss to be pinned by him to one of the stucco wall of cottage, he squeezed my butt and at this time I gasped , while he took this as an opportunity to slide down his long tongue to explore each inch of my mouth, while I moaned his name, my hands were in his silky dark hairs, but he broke our kiss and I stared at him, we both were out of oxygen, panting heavier, now he was smirking and I want those damned lips back on me, I tried to put my hands on him, but he removed and said the most mean words to me.

"Now, you got to see who is lame kisser, Miss L-O-C-K+H-A-R-T".

" And one thing Miss Lockhart, it's Not Ryan for you, call me, Vaughan ! Mr. Vaughan ...."

And again for 20th time he left me surprised with his mysterious yet notorious kiss, I smiled as I touched my swollen lips.....Fuck you Ryan Vaughan .....