Lost (2)

I will accept this punishment as long as I can see you from afar.

From someone in memory

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When I open my eyes, I see no one around me. This morning…I am shocked when I realize this place is the same place where I destroyed myself. The beautiful riverbank and waterfall is just like a sword piercing in my heart. This place is not just wherever a place because I tainted my life here. Place that I will never forget for the rest of my life.

Last night I cried but now…I don't want to cry anymore. I have to fight these bad memories. I take a deep breath before standing up. I remember…I have to go…I have to meet brother Xu. I know I don't have anything but memories of my destroyed country. Just remember that can deliver the pain in my heart. The same pain when those events had happened.