12 Chap 12. Blushing in the Shower

'Holy shit..' Was all Astro thought as he covered his face with his hands.

•••

Astro was as stunned as a child that had just been caught doing something wrong and only stood like a ice figure, and Theo was currently standing outside Astro room as still as a statue too.

He didn't blink, nor did he move, if someone were to see him they would think he was frozen in time.

'Oh..my..God..Oh..my..God..Oh..my..God' He kept repeating in his mind. After a few seconds it changed to, 'I SAW HIM HALF NAKED! HE HAS ABS! I SAW HIM HALF NAKED! HE HAS ABS!'

His eyes were wide open, he was clearly reminiscing about the past. Obviously, he was remembering what had just happened previously.

"He..has..abs.." He said outloud as he held onto the wall beside him, he turned and soon his back was on the wall as he hunched over with one hand holding his mouth.

His other hand was holding the towel he had just gotten and his eyes looked distant. He was so unclear about the world that he had completely forgotten about having a shower.

"Holy shit..His so hot.." Theo commented outloud again, he kept remembering Astro's defined muscles on his stomach, and he had stated just before that he was 'weak'.

Bullshit.

He was definitely not weak after seeing that body, at most, he probably meant he was weak since he can't see but if he could, then people would be running away.

'I'm definitely highly attracted to his body.. no doubt at all.. But his personality is also attractive.. Ughhh!! How am I suppose to stay here with him? I'm so lucky he can't see my blushes..' Theo confirmed his attraction internally but not outloud.

After a few minutes of realisation, he slowly calmed down.

Calmed down what though? You should be able to guess since he was patting himself down very fast.

He quickly made his way back into his room with a weird walk, not sure why though heh.

Soon, he managed to remember what he was doing and hurriedly went to shower.

The water was warm and calming to his mind, he let the water drizzle down his body as he slowly wiped the dirt and muck from his body. It was as if the time was running slowly when he was in the shower, every little moment of his life flashed before his eyes as he reminisced about his past.

Every little thing leading up to this moment, it was truly eye opening to him. His mind felt relaxed for the first time in his 16 years of life, he felt thankful for everything.

The pain, the suffering, the hurt, he opened his heart to it all. Theo let all the emotions in with open arms, he was finally ready to accept all the wrongdoings of his life.

And he felt that once he accepted it all then he would finally be able to not have that nagging regret and could finally move on with his life.

As every little emotions enveloped him, he thought about Astro.

Theo had accepted his past and now he just needs to understand what he felt for Astro, he has never felt this way and it made him curious about the things he didn't know about.

But none of that matters right now, right now he just wanted to focus on the little things that Astro had managed to make him bring out.

His attitude around Astro, his common sense leaving the moment Astro talks to him, the changes within his body, everything.

He wanted to know why.

But he didn't know how to get the answer to it all.

So he stayed under the water, and closed his eyes, he opened his senses to his surroundings. Finally relaxing.

•••

Whilst Theo was accepting everything, Astro was having a heart attack, he kept muttering the following, "I.. He.. saw me naked?!.."

He held his chest tightly when he felt his heart racing like he had just run a marathon.

His other hand rubbed his neck in embarrassment, the situation had stunned him.

'HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO TALK TO HIM CASUALLY WHEN HE HAS SEEN ME NAKED!!' He screamed internally, he actually didn't know what to do.

They were both men, but in Astro's mind that wasn't all, he was seriously gay and Theo wasn't! No other man had seen him naked except Tommy! AND THAT WAS WHEN HE WAS A CHILD!

He wanted to die. He didn't want to speak to Theo right now, not because he blamed him or anything, it was simply because he felt that he would blush anytime he conversed Theo.

'He.. ughhh! He probably thinks I'm an idiot! I had completely forgot about what I said and carelessly stripped! And he probably thinks I'm ugly as fuckk' Astro thought self-deprecatingly, he truly thought his body was disgusting.

Yes, he had abs from continuous workouts and all, but the scars that marked his body were disgusting.

The slash that ran from his armpit to his belly button was one of the scars that he hates to touch, in his mind he imagined it and could only cringe when he thought of it.

After a moment of hate for the scars, he thought back to the moment Theo walked in and blushed. His stuttering was so adorable to Astro and the quick excuses made him want to laugh.

Soon, he jumped in the shower and kept repeating the event in his mind, he wished to have eyesight just for that moment so he could see Theo's expression.

'Would it be disgust? Or lust? NO, it definitely isn't lust, I would guess it was disgust. I mean, imagine looking at this scar on a daily basis. I would rather be blind!' Astro pondered but soon he quickly denied the positive things. But in the end he could only laugh since he already was blind.

'He probably wants to erase the event from his mind and I will gladly do it too if it means he can speak to me properly. I don't want this situation to be the reason why he can't talk to me' Astro rubbed his forehead helplessly, he clearly didn't want to lose Theo after connecting with him over these past hours.

He felt that if Theo left it would impact his life. He had only just found someone that wouldn't bully him for being blind, or wouldn't make terrible jokes by scaring him or pushing him around.

He wanted Theo to feel welcomed in this home, he didn't want him to feel like an outsider that intruded in this place, or like a peasant that shouldn't get this kind of treatment.

That would simply break his heart if he found out Theo felt like that.

And just like that, 20 minutes past with both of them enjoying the warm caress of the water. Both of their minds were reminiscing about the past and possible future, both had a very different bringing up but both had the same past, it was filled with pain and regret, but they both ended up meeting eachother.

How coincidental. They could only thank the gods for this, or fate, or even destiny. Maybe it was fate for them to meet, but what happens after that?

No one but fate or destiny could possibly know that.

But they were ready, they both accepted their past and they will tackle the future. Will they tackle it together though? Don't know yet.

I'm not sure whether destiny or fate knew that either, but destiny and fate did know that their meeting was planned since the beginning and they could not wait for the future.

Nevertheless, the past is the past, the present is the present, and the future is simply the future.

In the end, both Astro and Theo were clearly stumped on the event and both ended up blushing in the shower.