8 In the darkness

Everything is dark.

No lights nor sight.

No noise nor sound.

No lose my senses, I can't even feel myself.

I just but my mind is calm...

"Ugh"...Then I feel cold all of a sudden.

"Did I die?... is this hell?"

"Isn't hell supposed to feel hot and lighted up because of the flames?"

"Why is it so dark and cold then?"

"Where am I?"

I try to yell but no voice comes out, I try to breath but I feel no air, I also try to move but nothing.

Will I just stay like this?...I question myself. Is Tomas in the same state as me

I wonder. Will someone save me? let me think... there's a few people in my list which I spent most of my time with, like Natasha, Vanna, Cindy, Clare, Amy, Sydney, Olivia, Issac, Vero, Donny and Milton.

Now which one might notice my disappearance...

Natasha is a nice gal but she's nice to all her clients and shows no preference so I don't think she'll help.

Vanna is a more open minded but she keeps her personal life and job life separate and I take part of her job life so I don't think she'll help either.

There's Cindy and she is a bit more involved with her clients but I'm not a regular to her so I guess no help will be comming from her.

Clare! she might send help. I was just talking to her when I got this job...wait... now I remember why I told her. Last time I only paid half the regular amount so she was pissed. She's not the type to use money for the good of other people either so that's a no.

Amy is...no last I heard she is the type that looks nice but is rotten to the core. Sydney... didn't she get married?.... guess she won't help either.

Olivia hates me even as I'm her regular so no.

Isaac might help but if his exploring then I'll have to wait forever for him to notice.

There's also Vero but last time I team up with him I killed the dog we had to excort...the bamn dog escape his leach just so he could bite me...jeez... it's not my fault my reflexe killed the dog. Vero got furious and said that now he's perfect score got screwed.

Donny the gate guard is finally retiring and is making plans to move to another city. So even if he doesn't see a few regular faces he will not notice.

Milton is...a drinking body but we are not really friends and I accidentally almost killed his older brother for marrying Sydney so... I guess not?

"I'm really unlucky huh"

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As I let my mind wonder why I ended in this situation I get this feeling that something is talking to me. I focus on it, it's but feeling and I just can't say what it is. I don't think it's my mind playing tricks cause it feels different.

"Wait I can feel now!?"

I feel my presence and nothing more but it's still something. Trying to figure out if I can move I begin to put strength in myself but nothing happens. I still get this feeling that there's something trying to say something but it cuts off just as it comes up. Then from the darkness some purple dust start appearing.

"I can see now ..?" I can see this purple color dust falling and

moving around me.

Moment's later as I'm amazed at what I'm seeing, the purple dust clears up leaving me looking at a... wall? as my eyes open wide I see the wall is all-round me. Then looking down I see some debris as I look up all I see is darkness. I quickly check my body but I can't see it, I touch myself but

"Why can't I touch my body?". As I look at my hands I find that I don't have any , looking or trying to find my figure I see nothing I even move from side to side.

It's a weird feeling, I know I'm here I can see around me and move but I can't see myself or touch myself either. As I look at the walls again I extend my hand which I can't see towards the wall. I know my hand is there but there's no feeling of touch.

"What is happening"...

(What? why?and how?)Questions I can't answer pop up in my mind.

"It's this what happens to dead people?" I ask myself.

As I question myself I begin to look around only to see the walls and debris on the floor. Looking more closely at the debris of shatter rocks I found something that horrified me.

"It's a meat paste..." what I see is pieces of a corpse all around the floor.

Then I see something made of metal in a corner getting closer I found out that it was my dagger. Then I realize that the meat paste is my body!

"Could this be? impossible? it must be Tomas body it can't be me!"

I tried to give myself false hope. Then I see that little bit farther is my bag full of blood.

"Noooo!" I cry out but there's no voice coming out from me.

I continue to look at my mess up body, my mind going blank and the questions disappear one after the other, only to be filled by statements.

"I'm dead."

"My body is a broken mess."

"All of me buried in the cave."

"No friends, no family, no hope, only this mind of mine."

"WHY!? JUST WHAT DID I DO TO DESERVE THIS!?

YEAH SURE I KILLED PEOPLE BUT THERE SHOULD BE MORE EVIL PEOPLE THEN ME!! WHY DOES IT HAVE TO BE ME DIEING!?" I shout even as no voice nor sound could be heard.

"I...just...wanted...to... survive...the...best...I... could." Thinking those words I feel as something in me couldn't hold on and chatted.

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