16 Damn you! (Chapter 15)
I wake up to the sound of Isla quietly sharpening my swords. Still in my slip I wrap my blanket around my body shielding the cold from attaching onto me.
"Oh good you're up!" She says aggressively putting my swords on the floor coming over to open the curtains harshly as they rip open light streaming in through the windows. I growl at the excess of light that has hit me. She is clearly pissed with me. He eyebrow up in stress and he movements harsh. I dont blame her. I left her all alone at the lake with the wolves, I didn't mean to but the news was too disturbing to wait.
"Isla... everything alright?" I tease.
"Yes!" She agressively says plastering on a fake smile."why would anything be wrong?"
I get up and hug her.
"Get off me you-" I start to cry. I cry hard. All their emotion that I have locked up over the last day is now overflowing and I need to let it out. Isla sees me cry and latches back to me. Comforting me. "Sweetie what's wrong?" She whispers, in disbelief that I'm crying. She doesn't mock me only comfort, this woman truly is like my sister.
"Damien-he is my soulmate and I don't know what to do. He came here- to my room- last night- he tried to kill me and then he wanted to talk about what we were going to do to solidify the bond but I couldn't go through with it I JUST COULDNT I don't even know him Isla how am I supposed to solidify this bond with a man I don't know. We feel things for each other. He feels things for me he told-me last night but I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to do. Everything got mixed up our families our fates and we couldn't let ourselves feel anything without these restrictions! His family killed my mother! But do you want to know the weirdest thing! I love him! With all my heart! I do! And it's killing me ISLA! I can't tell anyone because they will kill him and I can't kill him because I love him! Isla please tell me what to do PLEASE HELP ME KILL ME SAVE ME FROM THIS HELL IM LIVING!" Everything spilled out and I dropped to my knees overwhelmed in emotion and pressure that my body could no longer support my heavy heart. Isla's eyes were wide still processing everything she had heard but right now all she needed to do was stop my breakdown before the dangerous darkness in me took over and all hell breaks loose. if the darkness in me had broken out, Noone, no.matger how powerful their were would be able to stop my spiral into the shadows taking as many people with me as I could. She hugged me. And hugged me. Praying I would control myself Until finally my tears stopped by themselves. I knew she had questions but she wouldn't dare go there right now until I calm the fuck down. I remove myself from her embrace. Calmer than before. She sees we are in the clear. Only then She laughs.
"Damien, the lightning is your soulmate." She mockingly points out.
"Hrmm I'm not sure who is going to freak out more, Drake or Ryan." I hadn't even thought about them two. Their names brought fear into me.
"Isla you MUST promise me. That you won't mention a WORD of anything I have told you to EITHER of them. Or any other living breathing soul. Promise me." I say clutching her arms tighter than she liked.
"YES YES I PROMISE NOW LET GO MY BLOOD IS BEING CUT OFF!" She shouts rubbing where I had grabbed her leaving red marks.
"Gosh you NEED to control yourself. Today is the honour tournament for your brother. You need to get ready like now!" She drags me to my feet restraining herself from asking any questions.
"Isla. I'm So sorry. Go ahead. Ask your questions." She plops down on the bed rubbing her neck.
"Soo my first question is. Did you seal the bond?"
"No, we came close but we didn't..."
"Why?"
"I want to get to see what he is like before I commit to him. I mean Drake, I knew him and I learnt I could tolerate him. But Damien, I know nothing, so how do we know we are compatible? We don't and I don't want to risk it even though, I have never wanted any man like I want him."
"Eww. But second question, he tried to KILL YOU? And you let him LIVE?"
"I know I should've killed him. But again I love him."
" And third question..You....love him?" She says slightly hesitantly.
"Theres not a doubt in my mind."
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"Hey sis, did you find the love of your Life?" Ryan corners me in the hall eating an apple grinning as he watches isla from afar preparing little things for the tournament.
"Yes I did. I found him." I start to walk away but he steps Infront of me.
"Waiiittt you're not gonna tell me who he is so uno, I can kill him." He grins trying to be the over protective big brother. I lock eyes telling him to back off, but he doesn't which is typical of him.
"Ryan don't push it. Or I will tell isla you used to wet your pants till you were 8." I cross my arms the evil coursing through my veins as his smile fades. "Oh and by the way the tournament this year, now that father doesn't have say, so, I don't have to LET YOU WIN, the prize is mine." He grabs my arm. His expression all serious.
"What aren't you telling me Karina? Is it Drake? Is he your soulmate?" He asks worriedly looking. Even though Ryan considered Drake his best friend, he never liked how Drake would behave with me. Drake could easily get out of control, he had murderous episodes in the past where his spiral could be triggered by a leaf blowing in the wind. Only me, Isla and Ryan knew this side to him. We helped daily, helping him control his anger. Me and Isla were hit multiple times sometimes even leave with scars. But still we fought for him, protecting him. It sometimes worried me when we were alone that his anger would get the best of him. I was most worried about telling him about Damien. How he would react if I told him. Drake had told me that he loves me many times. I now realise that it wasn't love that I felt for him, it was more a need for comfort. Love was what I felt for Damien and I couldn't dispute that.
"Don't worry Ryan it's not but that's all I'm telling you." I curtsy and speed walk away so he couldn't catch me. I need to focus. The tournament I need to focus.
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He grabbed hold of me tight causing me to stop in the hall.
"Are we ignoring eachother?" Damien said as I tried to walk past him without initiating conversation. His touch caused my skin to tense as his touch was addicting.
"I didn't agree to that.. look meet me at the clearing in the woods in 20 minutes. We should talk away from prying eyes." He releases me not giving me time to accept or decline walking away not looking back once. 'I strongly decline'. I think walking in the other direction in victory conquering my emotions. I stop and realise that I'm walking towards the clearing in the woods.
DAMN YOU DAMIEN LUCENT!
